The Gold Coast Talks Content and Topic Index
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The Gold Coast Talks Content and Topic Index
BARRY LONG’S Gold Coast Talks Contents & Topics Index Barry Long’s Gold Coast Talks Index Contents Page About Barry Long 1 About the Gold Coast Talks 3 Gold Coast Talks Contents Index 1993-2002 4 Gold Coast Talks A-Z Topics Index 32 Contact details 109 BARRY LONG’S GOLD COAST TALKS INDEX About Barry Long Barry Long (1926 – 2003) is widely acknowledged as one of the foremost spiritual masters of our times. But what makes him unique as a spiritual master, and what are the hallmarks of his teaching? Firstly, unlike many teachers, he stands completely apart from any religious, spiritual or philosophic lineage or tradition. His original knowledge (or gnosis) came from a series of realisations, each of which took him into a deeper realm of self-knowledge – and ultimately into the most profound areas of esoteric knowledge ever recorded. Secondly, as well as realising the deepest levels of truth, he realised the mighty principle of love as it appears in female form as Woman. This realisation endowed him with the knowledge and power of a true tantric master, able to describe the truth behind the love on earth between Man and Woman, and to demonstrate it in his own living life. Thirdly, he was a wonderfully down-to-earth, thoroughly Western master, born and raised in Australia. His teaching was, and remains, thoroughly grounded in practicality. Free of any tradition he was able to express the highest of realised truths in a straightforward way which any ordinary person could grasp. Yet he also continually addressed the everyday difficulties in people’s lives – the emotions, doubts and worries – that cast a shadow over the simple, natural joy of being alive. Fourthly, as well as comprehensively covering every aspect of the inner spiritual or divine life, his teaching deals with the detail of how to live in a problem-free way in the everyday situations we all encounter in the world. Thus his books, audio and filmed talks address such matters as: how to be free of unhappiness; living in the moment, freedom from habitual thinking; dealing practically with work situations and personal relationships; raising children; and fundamental to his teaching. the loving partnerships between man and woman and how to make physical love rightly. At meetings held all over the world, his realised presence and practical commonsense inspired tens of thousands of people, including some, like Eckhart Tolle, who would later go on to become teachers in their own right. His words, written or spoken, have a great potency – they contain the power to change an individual who is ready and willing to hear. For during the process of everdeepening self-knowledge, he had realised the Logos – the original Word – endowing his own words with great penetrative value. What distinguishes Barry Long from other masters and teachers in recorded history is the magnificent depth and sheer profundity of his self-knowledge – the result of increasingly profound realisations which revealed to him the innermost secrets of the five great subjects which his life’s work addressed: love, life, truth, death and God. As he sometimes observed, all enlightened teachers do not necessarily possess the same degree of self-knowledge. In his own case, in 1965 at the age of thirty-nine he went into the mighty realisation of immortality: what he described later as the ‘mystic death’. Many realisations followed until Barry Long’s death in December 2003 and he carried on recording 1 BARRY LONG’S GOLD COAST TALKS INDEX his insights and realisations until shortly before his death. These final inspired reflections represent the culmination of his life’s work, illuminating new areas of his vast self-knowledge. It is the Foundation’s intention to publish this material over the years to come as funding allows. 2 BARRY LONG’S GOLD COAST TALKS INDEX An Introduction to the Gold Coast Talks The Gold Coast Talks series spans the decade between 1993 – 2002 in which Barry entered the final phase of his life and teaching. This newly-compiled index to the series illustrates graphically the vast range of subjects covered by these talks. Barry used the Gold Coast Talks as a forum to reveal more and more of the truth as it unfolded and as he lived it in the latter years of his life. He said that listening to these talks was the next best thing to actually being with him at a meeting. As with all Barry’s work, repeated listening is likely to reveal new insights as particular subjects suddenly resonate at a deeper level than before. Comprehensively catalogued for the first time, these talks are a resource of inestimable value to anyone who is earnest in their endeavour to live the truth they have heard. For those new to Barry’s teaching who haven’t have had the chance to be with him in person, the Gold Coast talks represent the next best thing to actually being with the master. These unedited recordings capture just what it was like to be present at one of his meetings. They provide a unique opportunity to hear Barry as he traverses the cosmos, the human condition and everything in between. 3 GOLD COAST TALKS CONTENTS INDEX 1993 - 2002 “If you are willing, I will take you deeper into being – just as if you were at the meeting itself. I will take you into the extraordinary state of being beyond the person, beyond the thinker, beyond the worrier.” These tapes provide a record of the ever-unfolding living truth reflected by Barry Long. Listening to the tapes is the next best thing to actually being at the meeting itself. Barry Long held regular meetings on the Gold Coast, Australia. The afternoon meetings are recorded and each is available as a two-tape pack (approx 3 hours). The meetings include periods of silence for going into ‘Me’ and questions from the audience. 4 GOLD COAST TALKS 1993 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held six afternoon meetings on the Gold Coast in 1993. They were held at the Pan Pacific Hotel in Broadbeach. 23 JANUARY 1993 Side 1 Being and self; looking for the good; right action – Woman must be mastered by man who knows what he is doing: demonstration from letter – Jade speaks to woman on position and place of love in dealing with man – Are you in your place? Situation of man and woman – Going into Me: into this place, abandoning position, this will strengthen you Side 2 Going into Me: a sacred place, I the subject disappears – Universal truth: giving – Woman: demand and insecurity – Courtesy and politeness – Being true to the situation – I cannot compare my life with another – My place is my life – Getting it right with mum, dad and work – Dying; the primitive sacrifice of life – Glamour: flowing gowns in the ashram Side 3 Addresses young girls 10-12yrs: the nature of woman and being true to love – One life: previous life and origins of life on earth – Glamour, ecstasy and equilibrium – Spiritual names and attachment to the master – Children copying adults – East and West: cults – Going into Me: the East, no form, going into silence, gratitude Side 4 Going into Me: taking out the world and giving you nothing – Masters: ‘Never Born - Never Died’ video – Heart: broken, organic, human, pure of heart – Situation of life on earth – Come unto Me – Get rid of self and mood – Dishonesty in love; man loving more than one woman – Going into Me: blessed relief of not having to be anything – Getting my life right, guided by situation not feelings – Grace and love – Surrender and knowledge 6 MARCH 1993 Side 1 All emotion is past; thinking arises from the past – Joy is always now – Why am I emotional? – Facing the living past with honesty – Me, the source of honesty; my self, the troublemaker – My self uniting with Me – Going into Me: looking without and within, where mind gets the power to see straight, coming home Side 2 Going into Me: releasing new energy, living the truth – One sense divided into the five senses – Returning home; new vitality in your life – Human mind and divine mind: sense of senses, only one Me – Divine mind: pure intellect, purifying the mind – Self ruins my body – Giving: the solution to every problem – Winning and losing – Right giving with honesty and clarity Side 3 Pure intellect, the will, willingness to give – Wasting energy: you know what you should give up – Divine will: harmony in all aspects of life – Wanting and giving, taking and receiving – Aligning with the divine will – One pointedness – All of my life is my God – Giving attracts the divine will – God is giving – Going into Me: object and subject disappear, seeing through the speaker and existence Side 4 Being seen, acknowledgement – Facing the fact: I am going to die; seeing through death – I must give what I need – Time to withdraw and time to come forward – Nothing happens until the time is right – Relaxation and visualisation – Studying without unhappiness – Live just one thing you know to be the truth 5 17 APRIL 1993 Side 1 Going into Me: through the looking glass, the other side of the mirror – Hell: my self, demons of the underworld, facing myself – What about me? Missing out – Moody one wants to be loved Side 2 Youth: gaining experience without accumulating emotion – Answering letters from two women*: woman is love and is responsible for love; woman cannot teach man; woman has to be mastered by man (who knows what he’s doing); woman must be in command of love – Fixed stars: ideas in the mind of God – Suffering is reflecting on self – Acknowledging beauty * see ‘To Woman In Love’ pp 87-93 Side 3 Going into Me: going into the unknown – Relative reality: the thinker – How do I get rid of the demons in Me? – How to drop tension to the stomach – Stopping thinking: honesty and action – Facing externalised demons Side 4 Man and woman living in different houses: giving all or protecting emotions – Ball in the stomach – Dissolving momentum of work with partner – Acknowledgement – Getting the baby out of the bed: everyone in his/her place – Verbal communication needs to match physical lovemaking – Knowing what you don’t want – Physical love and virtue: noble man, the ground and field of love 26 JUNE 1993 Side 1 Going into Me: looking at nothing – Rightful place of the ego: protector of the natural body – Going into Me: enjoying the egoic breath – Awareness and consciousness – Getting rid of self for the good of the earth Side 2 Self always wants to get – Nature of Me is to give – Mystic cross: self being refined and reduced – There is no experience in truth – Looking for experience in lovemaking – Feedback, fulfilment, absence of experience – Woman losing the old experience of love – Body dying with no fuss – Deep dreamless sleep – Going into Me: I am being, no movement of the mind Side 3 What is it that instigates the lovemaking act? Man’s biological urge to make love – Men’s excitement in watching sports on TV, breaking attachment – Am I ready to die now? – Fear of nothing; Buddha facing his sexuality and nothing arising – Insomnia, facing what I learned in my relationships – Intimacy and giving everything in partnership – Woman: giving everything in love or being demanding? – Honesty before love – Attachment to dying father Side 4 Practising being – Going into Me: crossing the point of the triangle, leaving the world of awareness – Getting your external life right – Beauty and the beast: woman, the beauty of the earth; turning the beast into the noble man – Penile servitude; changing the penis back to the original phallus – Will and willing – Change of life in woman 6 31 JULY 1993 Side 1 Giving God what God wants: What do you want? What would I put before all else? – Wanting or being open to relationship – Arguments: what am I hurt about? – Partnership: individual wants and acting in union – Woman putting children before God: not giving in to sentimental love – Man alone: seeking company, knowing why – Two keys to being responsible; first key: I must not judge myself; the can of worms Side 2 Taking action – Second key: I must do what I know to be right – What is, is right; is unhappiness right? – Pain without suffering – Where there is not enough love I turn to sex; where is sex demonstrated in your life? – Barry sings a song to love – Three stages of popular songs – What monkeys look like to each other – Man grafted from the original monkey stock Side 3 World wide shortage of memory: computers – Emotional memory – Values you are concerned with and real values – I must not love my self – Loving children without indulgence – Go by the practical – Decisions and no choice – Deep dreamless sleep – Absence is the place and stillness is the way – Meditation, being, absence Side 4 Facing and going through your particular emotions – Creativity – Going into Me: into this place of absence – Unhappiness and looking into my life – Psychic ability, the occult, glamour and miracles – Are there other lives? – Ageing of the body – Enjoying my life and knowing the purpose of life 18 DECEMBER 1993 Side 1 Two problems all over the world: cause and effect mind; leaving Me – Explanation of Me – Self consideration, selfishness, feelings – Intelligence: no feelings, looking out of your skin – Going into Me: beginning of freedom and liberation – Who, where and what is Me? Side 2 Me: the tenderest, sweetest place – Psychic manifestation: the devil – Giving or indulgence: listening to the sad story – Blindness and deception of scientific mind: Stephen Hawkings’ scientific report – The black hole – Extra terrestrial intelligence – Your brain and sensory universe – Love within reflected without – Going into Me: into the black hole, the moment before the big bang Side 3 Catch 22 – Getting rid of the questioner – How you know when he or she loves you – What is getting in the way of love? – The value of self – Can there be joy in getting my life right? – Curiosity: gossip at work – Painful self: telling the sad, sad story – Fear of not having enough to retire on – Reading newspapers – Love and attachment – Woman’s attachment or man’s fear of love? – Pain causing itself more pain – A broken heart – Mystical love and the speaker Side 4 Going into Me: looking into Me, the formless, looking with intelligence and with feeling – Consciousness and awareness: in and out of time – Addresses young girls: real wedding vows – Anger with children – Unhappiness in children – Happiness or absence of unhappiness – Honesty and right communication – This teaching, going into Me: two hemispheres of one cosmos – Addresses 8 year old: learning from experience; can you destroy the self 7 GOLD COAST TALKS 1994 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held seven afternoon meetings on the Gold Coast in 1994. 22 JANUARY 1994 Pan Pacific Hotel Side 1 I am God realised, not God – Living not mouthing the truth – God’s mind, man’s mind – Sexual devil – Masturbation and woman – Going into Me: delusion, clarity of intelligence, children going into Me, the blackness, one with nature – Woman: power, surrender, democracy Side 2 Woman and sex – Woman: strength, emotion, leaving partner – Young man and woman: sexual experience – Woman’s anger at man leaving – Going into Me: feeling of intelligence, sinking without fear – Getting my life right – Salutations on letters – Physical pain Side 3 End of world: power of God and power of electricity – Giving and giving in – Where does male sexuality come from? – Woman: sexual excitement – Going into Me: coming home – Thinking and looking – Two questions: Is there a time for woman to cut man out of her life? Why have anything else when I am complete? – Anger and insecurity Side 4 Selfishness in woman – Consciousness, meditation, being – Substituting food for love – Angry, sexually frustrated man – Woman alone – How do I draw a partner to me? – From 11 year old girl: Why is love misused? – Moving or staying and facing? – Monogamy – Forgiveness – Man overcoming self consciousness and fear of woman – Living the truth you hear 27 FEBRUARY 1994 International Hotel Side 1 Body of humanity: each of us is a cell; enlightening the cell – Looking into Me with intelligence – Awareness and consciousness – Knot in the stomach – Experience – Love or comfort? – The Grid pop group – An honest Nazi – Grace Side 2 Teenagers practising grace – Going into Me: acknowledgement – Visualisation, magical and magic – Obesity and cancer of the body and of humanity – Catch 22 Side 3 Black sun – Computers, information and force – Knowledge – Cause and effect mind – Science, objectivity, subjectivity – Goals, purpose, love – Obituary: Joseph Cotton (actor) – Going into Me: looking into dark starless inner space, coming home Side 4 Will: introduction – Food and sex – Death of a parent – Being true to the situation – Who is looking into Me? – Predestination and karma 8 27 MARCH 1994 International Hotel Side 1 Ordinary man – Purpose of life and growing old – Curiosity – Going into Me: returning to where I come from – Teaching child to think – Shadowlands (the movie): the establishment Side 2 Shadowlands (cont): love – Cosmic value of cancer – Explanation of death to child – Faith, gnostics – Going into Me: emptiedness, facing nothing – A foolish letter: discarnate entities – Programming the incredible robot body Side 3 Human body is God’s vehicle – Going into Me: place of nothing, no trying, the radix – The radial – Fear has no body – Giving up intensity – Earthly experience: waves of self Side 4 State of enlightenment: level playing field – Beauty – Going into Me: being, the will, no need – Idea embraced by the will – Soul and self 24 APRIL 1994 International Hotel Side 1 Ego and intelligence – Sensitive or thin skinned – Territory and possessiveness – Going into Me: reflect on Me, the holy one, the innocent one – Mind and first heaven – Older woman with younger man – Menopause – Albido Side 2 Reincarnation: fact, truth and fiction – The cell – New baby body, negative and positive – Predisposition – Reconstitution of cells – Going into Me: be the nothing Side 3 Death: psychic double – The heavens – Realising the psychic double – Going into Me: sink into nothing, intimations of the psychic double, consciousness and the senses – Seeing truth behind appearance Side 4 Demonstrating being: everyone a star – Moment before the big bang – The heavens – Pure intellect – Satellites and space rubbish – Self’s way and the way of Me – Space between earth and moon – Demonic energy – Cunning – Beyond the moon – Judgement – Your life, your task – Fact and truth of jealousy 29 MAY 1994 Bond University There are a few electrical noises on these tapes Side 1 Circumstances of my life – Genesis: seventh day within – Top quark and H particles – Second thing first – Going into Me: beyond creating, I am eternal – Condition and conditions Side 2 Nothing to speak of – The tail: bride’s train – Purpose of making love – Nightmares: id-entity – Going into Me: aligning myself rightly with the id Side 3 False memories – How do I attract this love? – Encountering the id – Emotionality in man – To the older person – Listening to the young – The two hearts: organic and cosmic – Wilfulness: a contrite heart – Solar plexus: the cosmic heart Side 4 Broken heart: putting man before God – Negativity: not giving – Eternity – Going into Me: the point of eternity, bringing the two hemispheres together – God in existence in man and woman – Jealousy – South African flag – Love and lust – When is it right to share physical love? – Love and sexual excitement 9 18 SEPTEMBER 1994 Bond University Side 1 Lighting up my potential: the purpose behind existence – Going into Me: hold on to nothing, let go, into the unknown – Goals and purpose, actualizing potential – Human evolution: end of thought – Barry Long sings ‘The Place of the Sinking Heart’ Side 2 Going into Me: I am free – Space: what manifests into existence – Intuition and egoic intelligence – Goal setting – Containing exalted energy – Chattering mind – Now is not the present: senses, present and presence – Past and the family – Physical pain Side 3 Cone of existence – Consciousness and dropping the past – Explanation to nine year old child: subject and object, reflection of my love – Speed of consciousness, spirit – How to leave the baggage behind – Great pyramid of existence – Climacterics of life – Menopause Side 4 Man’s climacteric: 40 years – When the body dies – Lift-off speed of consciousness – Going into Me – Song: ‘A Million Years’ – Feelings, the feeling and knowledge – Feeling and creativity – Man complete 18 DECEMBER 1994 Bond University Side 1 Everything happens in the human brain – Life here and after death – Guru: freeing human brain of anxiety – God: intelligence of the human brain – Practical explanation of brain to 6yr old – Land of the living dead – Guru: getting rid of forces of the living dead – Love communicates it’s alright – Woman 100% love, man 10% something to do – Acceptance, new dynamic, solution – Going into Me: place where nothing begins Side 2 Going into Me (cont) – Communion and sensory activity – Woman and doing: workaholic – Symbols – Dishonest to life – Accepting my life as it is – Woman and realisations – Man, woman or absence? – Body without emotion – Woman, logical or rational Side 3 Me, myself – Going into Me: my place of being – Staying with Me: seeing through the speaker, beginning of intelligence and power, nothing arising, knowing and belief, acknowledging Me within and sensory body without, love requires enormous speed – You are the Gatekeeper: allowing in the living dead Side 4 Gatekeeper (cont) – The crossing: divine will and my will – Acceptance, new dynamic – Vigilance and seeing the cause – Taking action, predetermination – Changing karma: bullets to raindrops – Woman sannyasin addressed – No human brain, no knowing – My transcendental realisation – Lord of karma – Justice – Negation – Myself and Me in harmony 10 GOLD COAST TALKS 1995 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held four afternoon meetings in 1995 at Bond University on the Gold Coast. GOLD COAST TALK 9 APRIL 1995 Side 1 Do you want to suffer any more? – Shock and taking action – Being true to your feelings; love is not a feeling – Eastern language – Stop acknowledging your feelings – What you fear is coming; the dread of being born; the life process – What can I do, not what do I feel – The still mind and Eastern teachers – Enlightenment of the burden of feeling – Going into Me: the absence of myself, my natural place, a sensational place Side 2 Believing in feelings – Authority of master consciousness: the loving father – If I learn to be me, will I be happy all the time? Birthdays and children – How do I get back to Me from thinking and feeling? – Achievement without thought: how to create a novel – Philosophies and falsehoods; leaving the senses; videogames – Suppressing feelings and knowing what you are doing – Breaking up old illusion and confusion – Going into Me: knowledge of peace, a place of no position Side 3 Ascending your mountain and coming down into existence – Interpretation of feelings, likes and dislikes – Sensation, making love, feeling and boredom – Thou shalt not kill – Everybody pays back for the wrongs of humanity – Alone and lonely, interpretation of feelings – Going into Me: with eyes open – Inner perception: washing machine inside – Pop songs and their content; Barry sings ‘The Place of the Sinking Heart’ Side 4 Being true to the situation and going against my feelings – Going into Me: a place of non existence – Facing emotion in young children; compassion and serving humanity – Coldness of universal love – Free will, free choice, wilfulness – Feeling and psychic knowledge – Honesty in partnership – Facing moral dilemmas: knowing what you are doing – The Wailing Wall, perpetuating sentimental feeling – Purpose of life – Sensational life and feeling life GOLD COAST TALK 21 MAY 1995 Side 1 Taking psychic prisoners – The Internet and seduction by this intermediate world – Psychic freedom, psychic stroke and heart attack – Childhood memories and need of therapies – Energetically releasing psychic prisoners – Cross of suffering – Going into Me: the vital, where there are no prisoners, love seeks nothing for itself (11 mins of silence) Side 2 Visiting wounded psychic prisoners or setting them free – Where all wars, starving people and concentration camps come from – What intelligence is; wanting and action – Going into Me: there is more good than not good (10 mins of silence) – Intermediate world and virtual reality; the young are more and more unable to love – Keeping in touch with Me – Keeping my psychic system pure and healthy Side 3 Difference between man and woman – Woman, rivalry and doubt – Interaction of love between man and woman – Two sexes trying to merge; loving the same gender – 11 Interaction without merging the sexes – Vital and vitality – Woman and insecurity – Realisations in man and insights in woman – Each has a load of negativity to transform – Going into Me: each has a place guaranteed by the grand order of things – Addresses children: mother’s and father’s wisdom visited on the child Side 4 I will always be bringing more love into this world – Communion with the most high, not asking for anything – Reason for humour and laughter – Can you have thoughts when being in Me? – Man and realisations, irreversible change and being born again – Does psychological death have to be painful? – Turning towards home and facing the guardian of the threshold – What is grace? – One of Barry Long’s realisations GOLD COAST TALK 20 AUGUST 1995 Side 1 Angelic realm, a place of absence – Condition of the public and state of the people – You have to go through feelings – Sensation and interpretation of life through feeling – Feelings mean that you are not taking action – Love is not a feeling – In enlightened state there is no feeling and no thought – Death of a loved one – Psychic experience and reconstitution of cells – Letter from England on reincarnation – Question: nature or nurture? Side 2 Impersonal life, giving up the person, freedom – Interest, belief, direct knowledge – Man laughing for no reason – Parent’s question: how can I help my child? – Going into Me (6 mins silence) – Living is the process of enlightenment – Letter about division of the person – Political correctness: eliminating man and woman; homosexuality – Eighth wonder of the world – Science is rational and not logical – Are you ready to say goodbye? Side 3 Freedom: what is it to be free? – Feelings come from interpreting my life – Sensation is a universal truth – There is no need to express feelings ever again – Going into Me: to the universal place (5 mins silence) – Asking the right question when looking at feelings – Being in a wheelchair: accepting life as it is – Intuition comes from sensation – Woman facing her violence and self destruction; the negative cells – How to give up smoking Side 4 Pain of human love – Have I loved enough so there is no need to say goodbye? – Impersonal and divine love – Longing to walk with woman: longing requires action - How can woman put God before man? – Man/woman love: what about invalids and people who can’t make love? – Finding joy of young girl after 55 year destructive relationship – Passion leaving relationship with arrival of child – Do people who have not been in touch with feelings need to express them? – Feeling is the source of thought GOLD COAST TALK 3 DECEMBER 1995 Side 1 I have given up dealing with people’s problems – New teaching: I’m doing well; illness, physical death, studying – End of Course in Being; being is a more responsible state than doing a course – Give up suffering, stop considering your feelings – Going into Me: being is the life of every creature on earth (11 mins silence) – Awareness and consciousness in harmony – Don’t think about last night’s movie – Pain hurts: getting rid of what hurts – Self improvement is the problem Side 2 Is thought always there? – State of enlightenment is no feelings and no thoughts – Without feelings what about intimacy? – Sensations and feelings, making love – Feeling sadness when somebody dies – Cleansing tears – You love it – Going into Me: this is what 12 I love (7 mins silence) – Being, the power behind the body – Stopping the distraction of thought – Ten year old girl asks about feelings when someone is murdered – Sensation of loss in animals and humans – Dilemma: service versus inaction Side 3 Looking and thinking; designing, refining ideas by looking – Getting your life right: looking, thinking, ignoring, facing, freeing the cell of poison – I’m doing well even when I have a problem – Universe gives you what you acknowledge – Confusion and looking straight; life presenting conflicts – Going into Me: place of God (15 mins silence) – Facing fear is the way through fear – Take one thing with you and live it – Friends talking about the past – How to reach the state of being Side 4 Declaring ‘I love it’ – Yesterday’s movie: giving up attachment – Control and manipulation; children, pain of self – Are Barry Long’s books necessary? – Love of it is the same in everybody – Difference between spiritual master and spiritual teacher – Everybody is enlightened – Is it possible to realise truth and not love? – Saying goodbye to parents; death of mother, writing and visiting – Being with Barry Long 13 GOLD COAST TALKS 1996 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held five afternoon meetings in 1996 at Greenmount Resort, Coolangatta on the Gold Coast. GOLD COAST TALK 18 FEBRUARY 1996 Side 1 Simplicity is the character of God – Do you give up your self for your partner? – Life is simple, if only you don’t look back – A gift to the children: I will never be unhappy in your presence – Anxious caring: parents with children – God, the embodiment in matter – Death – God realisation – Going into Me (9 mins) – What is happening with these silences? Darshan, a state of being Side 2 Being with Barry Long; the holy state – Going into Me (7 mins) – Letter to Barry: when you are no longer in your body . . will you still be my master? – When you deal with your emotions, you do a deal with them – Is love an emotion? – Question from 6 yr old girl: can emotions die when the body dies or can they die when you are alive? – Is there any way I can protect myself from the emotions of the dead? – No more negativity; no more judgement – Is there any difference between judgement and observation? Side 3 Question from 6 yr old girl: why do people say it’s bad when it is raining? – Hell and the Church of England – Experience and emotion: we have to keep the experience and dismantle the emotion – Tradition: I have no followers – Karma: each of us has to live a part of the past of the human race; by being with the master consciousness you eliminate karma – Going into Me (15 mins) – Nothing arising: when the washing machine stops Side 4 Being in your senses – Be still and know that I am God; the most unhappy people on earth are the busiest people – Eastern and western culture: eastern culture is basically devotional; the western way of knowledge has degraded into knowing – Divine will: God is not pernicious – You are here because you love ‘it’ – Going into Me (4 mins) – Consciousness and awareness GOLD COAST TALK 17 MARCH 1996 Side 1 Being: the rarest state on earth – Going into Me (5 mins) – Spiritual realisations: being is the source of realisations; the realisation of immortality takes all fear away – You and I are animals; self consciousness in tamed animals – Feelings: in the state of being you can’t have any feelings – Dunblane killing of schoolchildren: looking deeper than the events; to mourn is human ignorance – Letter to Barry: I trust Side 2 Children murdered: karma? – Addressing the children: your life has got to be lived out according to you, not your parents – Going into Me (7 mins) – Trust – Sense of danger – Children expressing opinions: observations require no opinons – Violence in man – Barry answers a letter: anyone who takes marijuana will have trouble stilling the mind and getting their life in order – Question: we’ve virtually got no friends left . . is this OK? 14 Side 3 Violence, sexuality & sensuality – Question: childhood conditioning? You have no conditioning as long as you forgive everything – Question: can you tell me what judgement is? Be true to the situation, don’t judge it – Going into Me (6 mins) – Therapists and master consciousness: when you are with Me you are ready to be a being; that does not require any therapy Side 4 Anxiety – Keeping the mind still when engaged in action and when sitting in stillness – Why is art often so ugly? Praise of pain or praise of God – Greatest art for man and woman – Physical pain: the great healer is Me – Letters about massage: the truth of massage – Stress and tension at work – Being a Sunday Christian or living the teaching – Question: what do I leave behind? You give in so many ways . . there is a sub-plot here – I trust Me inside GOLD COAST TALK 19 MAY 1996 Side 1 What is the purpose of your life? What have you done today of purpose? – Negativity and self judgement – I am the intelligence, Me is the substance – Self doubt is self judgement – Going into Me (6 mins) – Being with the master consciousness: darshan – The purpose of meditation – Romance and what we have lost; The Accolade – How does woman put God first before her man? Side 2 Woman in command of love – Question from 7 yr old: why do I have unhappiness in me? – What is the difference between romantic love and falling in love? – As an enlightened master did you have fear or self doubt when you found out you had cancer? – Cyclic flow of death into living and living into death – Going into Me (7 mins) – My health; the cycle of life – Romance and graciousness; generosity of spirit Side 3 Love has purpose – Intelligence in matter; bringing up the speed of the flesh – Feeling sad when someone dies or partner leaves – How do you help small children with their emotion? – Monogamy – Question: I can’t and don’t want to forget my mother who died – Going into Me (8 mins) – The spider and the web – Theoretical science: what good has it done for you? Side 4 Science is destroying our romance – The mind of God; if there are no senses there is no universe – Spiritual communities – Experience of being with someone who is dying – Question: I find it beautiful to be with like minded people in a community – What is the dynamic of two people coming together? – You can’t make a decision to be enlightened: you must know what you don’t want – Purpose and responsibility GOLD COAST TALK 15 SEPTEMBER 1996 Side 1 Only now is real; to be now is to be my body – Vital state – Being the body – Direct knowledge in the body – Sensation and interpretation – Correspondence between life and the body; cancer – Death, suicide and karma Side 2 Death, suicide and karma (cont’d) – Channellers – I have no right to be angry – Suicide rate and young people – Body cleansing and diet – Monks, exercise and the spiritual life – Human beings have to evolve into beings – Divine spiritual correspondence: we are communicating through space / love – Going cold: absence 15 Side 3 Intelligence and union with Me – Going into Me (11 mins) – Intelligence and the reconstituting self – The life you are living is absolutely right; getting rid of negativity – Compromise; the only freedom is to be free of my self – Fasting – Be as nothing Side 4 Side 4 Consciousness: process of making space and individual bodies – Hardness of the world – Question: as everything comes from this great divine consciousness, wouldn’t the evolution of the world be towards something better? – Question: I always thought feeling was something good and could be trusted? Direct knowledge and interpretation GOLD COAST TALK 1 DECEMBER 1996 Side 1 Purpose of love and purpose in life: man, woman, new and longstanding partnerships, being alone – Going into Me (12 mins) – God has no opposite; beauty is your own state – Judgement and looking in the mirror – God is beauty, my being is beauty Side 2 Beauty – There is only one truth – Angels and spirit guides – Going into Me (9 mins) – Question: is the watcher the thought? – Enlightenment: if you seek you will not find; you become enlightened by becoming natural, ordinary – Don’t fall in love with your work: stay detached by being grateful to God Side 3 Angels, imagination and wanting: only now is real – You have to be a real woman when man doesn’t want you – Question: what is it to be normal? – Introducing children to the truth – Question: should I bring children being brought up in the Catholic faith to your meetings? – Question: if a woman is fully committed to giving up sex and her partner is only partly committed, should she compromise? – Question: I’m having difficulty stopping thinking; long partnership ended today – A gift of love Side 4 A gift of love: it may not continue – Going into Me (7 mins) – Power of being: the gnostic masters and martial arts – Love of previous partner: nothing is guaranteed in love – Question: is physical pain and affliction caused by emotion? – Most beautiful woman in the world – Question: how should a woman respond if when she says ‘I love you’, the man says ‘you’ve got an attachment’? Casting pearls before swine 16 GOLD COAST TALKS 1997 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held five afternoon meetings in 1997 at Greenmount Resort, Coolangatta on the Gold Coast. GOLD COAST TALK 9 FEBRUARY 1997 Side 1 Love at 82 years old ~ Being together in love and merging in the flesh ~ Prostate cancer: don’t be afraid, look at the quality of life, making love ~ Degenerative disease: you’ve got to change your life ~ Going into Me (10 mins) ~ Consciousness and intelligence: there are no conclusions in consciousness, deep dreamless sleep ~ Enlightenment: independence has to be given up Side 2 Consciousness: stillness is the way ~ Tantric love: tantric workshops, tantric master ~ Changing your name ~ Unisex ~ Question: the difference between love and attachment: attachment to food, to partner and to sex ~ Question: conflict between man and woman having different things to do and doing everything together ~ Being open to love: man is the means of woman realising love ~ Question: I’m having difficulty being here. Loving your self, homosexual love, you cannot love everyone, loving the whole, I come from beyond the stone age Side 3 Every young woman born in this society is going to have a broken heart. Why does society accept this? Karma can be modified. The cause of all wars is man’s sexual frustration ~ Divine nature comes through your nature ~ Going into Me (9 mins) ~ Question: after we make love I want to get up and dig holes and she wants me to stay in bed until 12 o’clock. You have to die to your self Side 4 You have to die for love ~ Time sharing with women ~ Question: I don’t know what it is to be loved by man. Woman must be in command of love, you must make man be responsible and take you on ~ Question: having a baby and studying: will this interfere with love between me and my man? ~ Question: could you clarify what is the death of the self? ~ What you want first is an honest love GOLD COAST TALK 13 APRIL 1997 Side 1 The light: how you dim your light and how it shines in love ~ God, take whatever is necessary to make me more pure. Can you say it? ~ Going into Me (5 mins) ~ I am an earthling; I have become a worldling ~ Question: do you need to have a belief to know that this is the way to go? ~ Question: my son was killed. Your tape on death gave me comfort. Still there is the sense in me of disbelief and horror ~ Art should edify the consciousness; it should demonstrate the nobility of man and glorify the love that woman is Side 2 Art: the nobility of man demonstrated in the picture of a man about to be executed who is protecting a child ~ Contemporary art shown in a pop singer’s cartoon ~ Homosexual carnival and degradation of woman ~ Homosexual boy aged 13 ~ The great art: love brings all to life ~ Self expression is not art ~ Abstract art, abstraction from the earth, colour ~ Nobility of man: how can man be noble today? ~ Going into Me (5 mins) ~ 17 Effort and effortlessness; give up making decisions Side 3 Man changing jobs; stop making decisions; bring God into your life ~ State of choicelessness ~ What is God? ~ Going into Me (5 mins) ~ Question from woman: how can I deal with my partner’s anger? ~ Stillness and the reaction of the mind ~ Indulgence and the selfishness of living in isolation; overcoming self to give love Side 4 Compromise and being obliged, especially with family ~ Mass cult suicide and ETI: I cannot judge it ~ Decisions and looking eg building a house ~ Choice, authority in your life, doubts ~ Sexual frustration is the cause of all anger ~ Is there sex in woman? What man has done to woman, generation after generation, from the beginning of the corruption GOLD COAST TALK 1 JUNE 1997 Side 1 The human condition: seeking a cure, giving it up; getting the power to overcome the human condition; giving up useless chat ~ God is truth: What is truth? ~ Going into Me (5 mins) ~ Being in between action ~ Fight and argument; living the truth; the mind and the human condition ~ Question: What brought about this condition in the first place? ~ Question: Is there more than one truth? Side 2 Can science enlighten us? ‘Us’ can never be enlightened ~ Going into Me (4 mins) ~ Being and awareness ~ Niceness: are you too nice to be straight? ~ Single woman: she must accept her life as it is now; longing will push away what she wants ~ Walking from left to right: the symbol of human existence ~ Use of the word God and concepts of God; religions and poetry; seeing things straight; the truth detailed for these times Side 3 The public is stupid but the people are not ~ Repeating experience; attachment to the experience of love; why did I get my heart broken? ~ Woman: heavy-heartedness; the deep past in her; woman is nothing; gratitude for her life ~ Karma and the trick of Maya; accepting my life as it is ~ Going into Me (5 mins) ~ In the light of the degeneration in the world, isn’t God in charge of everything? The answer is in myth; integrity of God Side 4 Truth is in myth, not in scientific theory ~ Man and the pursuit of sex ~ Man’s responsibility for what he has done in the world and his failure to love woman ~ Studying Zen Buddhism; living Roman Catholicism ~ Buddha and Mara: facing sex ~ Mixing in the world: I love my ordinary man ~ Question: Woman’s fear of sex ~ Tension in the body and symbols ~ Pressure on a man of love to participate in sexual jokes at work GOLD COAST TALK 14 SEPTEMBER 1997 Side 1 Princess Diana’s death ~ Barry’s health ~ God in existence and God out of existence: God in existence is love and God out of existence is truth; realising God in and out of existence ~ Letter to Barry questioning ‘that love is only found through true love between man and woman’ ~ The speed of light is the speed of consciousness Side 2 Science is a religion ~ The cemetery is filled with indispensable people ~ Medical science ~ Going into Me (8 mins) ~ Consciousness and awareness ~ ‘The sacrifice to God is a broken spirit, a broken and a penitent heart’: story of David and Bathsheba ~ Human condition and state of love ~ Self judgement Side 3 What is normal is not natural eg political correctness and the elimination of the female gender ~ As man leaves woman he actually leaves the earth ~ Psychic recurrence: 18 what goes into the psyche comes back ~ Helping people on drugs ~ Every man is looking for a woman; you only think about what you don’t have ~ Question: I have this desire to be understood by man. Fitting and suiting; platonic relationship ~ Question: I spend my day in the fear of death. Abandon all your beliefs and notions ~ Question: I close off when my woman is angry Side 4 Don’t go into pain: if you talk about pain, you get pain back ~ Question: I’ve closed off to man; how do I start to be intimate with him? ~ Grumpiness in the morning; love stirring up the past ~ Containment: you made this pain, now cop it! ~ Question: woman not feeling loved in a relationship ~ Going into Me (4 mins) ~ Love is not a feeling; nothing arising ~ Getting it right at the beginning of a relationship GOLD COAST TALK 7 DECEMBER 1997 Side 1 The simplicity of truth and love. Concepts and ideas ~ The body is love in existence, the perfect instrument for love: with my body I thee love ~ Truth is the idea behind the body, out of existence. Truth begins with honesty: are you honest in love or are you indulging your self? ~ Experience is supposed to teach you about love: to demonstrate what you do not want Side 2 Your divine sexuality is your passion for life ~ Going into Me (5 mins) ~ Woman is God in female form. Man is God in male form. The way to see God in form is to love ~ Degradation of love: the word ‘fucking’. The art of love ~ Question: Does one have to feel guilty if the mind takes one into self indulgence? ~ Pure sexuality is normal in everyone, the error is to convert it into sex ~ The existential being ~ Love is the only reality in existence ~ The creator, consciousness behind us, pure sexuality Side 3 Truth and love, two aspects of God I have realised: God splits itself to know itself ~ Question: Are there any shortcuts? - I want to do it on my own without relying on anything outside of me ~ Woman needs to be loved ~ Pleasure and excitement in lovemaking ~ Question: How do I know I am not pleasing my self in lovemaking? Thought and excitement are the past and pure sexuality is now ~ Man’s realisation of truth is tested by woman coming into his life Side 4 How can I help my daughter who says she has been molested by my ex-husband? ~ Man is sexually possessed ~ Man separating from sexual possession ~ Where does guilt come from? ~ Give up thinking in the good times ~ Concepts and living what you know to be the truth ~ Models and concepts ~ How to communicate truth and love to a child ~ No more negativity: giving up self judgment ~ In God’s mind there is no negative, only the good with no opposite 19 GOLD COAST TALKS 1998 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held five afternoon meetings in 1998 at Greenmount Resort, Coolangatta on the Gold Coast. GOLD COAST TALK 8 MARCH 1998 Side 1 Character and personality; character is wellbeing; personality is the frontal face of the person; defending your self; effect of alcohol ~ Purpose in relationship ~ If ever you are angry, you are not being honest ~ Character is good that has no opposite; personality is winning/losing ~ Going into Me (6 mins) Side 2 Question: I would like to be free of insecurity - what can I do practically to overcome that? The monitor; conscience ~ Question: What if your partner is not interested in the spiritual life? ~ Physical ailments ~ The fact of death ~ Question: How can I put your teaching into practice when I’m still dreaming about my past love? ~ Question: Do the personality and the self take time to die? ~ Detachment from partner when there’s a child; keep things practical; explain the truth of life to the child Side 3 Clarification of ego and self; the capital ‘S’ higher self ~ Choosing a lover from your self; you’ve got to be practical; alcoholics and drugtakers ~ Parenting: everything has to be practical ~ Ego and instinct ~ Woman’s intuition ~ What benediction did you receive today? Gratitude ~ The earth and the world; scientists are driven by the world ~ Question: I don’t seem to be going as deep as I want to go into love; familiarity Side 4 Making love morning, noon and night. Woman is the mystery and man is the means. Acknowledge what you love and don’t particularise it ~ Question: Does the divine life include being by yourself and not being with woman? Realising God out of existence and God in existence; celibacy; secrets ~ Going out of existence in lovemaking. Lovemaking leads to the truth and truth leads to love ~ Question: Resistance to making love ~ Question: Restlessness in man and stillness in lovemaking ~ Question: How can I go deeper in making love without cutting off out of fear? ~ To be content; longing; thy will be done GOLD COAST TALK 5 APRIL 1998 Side 1 Back to basics: how to reach the place of Being; the belly, the source of self, tension in the belly, the past; being beside your self; you have to get a new vision of what it is to be good ~ There is nothing to hold on to in Being; telling the children about past experience lodged in the tummy; it is bodies that make love ~ The secret behind existence is death ~ Going into Me (5 mins) ~ When the washing machine stops Side 2 Question from 8 year old: Do people still have their past when they lose their memory? Senility ~ Registering the sensation in the tummy; doing what is right for you ~ Everything happens in the body ~ Question: When I’m going to sleep I seem to accelerate into the void and I’m afraid. Facing the death energy; hello silence my old friend ~ Emotions rising out of the stomach ~ Woman’s consciousness is in her vagina 20 Side 3 Letter from woman: men confusing sexual attraction with love ~ A vision I had 35 years ago and its implications for us: It is the Lord! ~ The difference between the Lord and God ~ I live in paradise on earth ~ Going into Me (4 mins) ~ Question: Who is aware of the self in the belly? Mind, psyche, spirit and eternity; man-hood and woman-hood ~ Using the mind to observe the sensation; the mind goes still and the sensation disappears Side 4 Effort and effortlessness ~ Question: Confusion between eastern traditions of celibacy and this teaching of tantric love. You don’t need a celibate body, you need a celibate mind ~ What you put into the psyche, you get back ~ Letter from man: How can I surrender my independence? ~ Letter about letting go ~ Question: Do I have the love of God in me? ~ Question: How can I love more and give up everything without being a wimp? ~ Letter about harmony and fighting. You shouldn’t need to try to teach each other ~ One of those incredible things GOLD COAST TALK 14 JUNE 1998 Side 1 Living in harmony: emotionalising difficulties turns them into problems ~ Are parents fit to raise children? ~ Taking action, looking and thinking ~ Acceptance ~ The two transcendental principles of love and truth ~ Going into Me (5 mins) ~ Surrender or quit: if I have to surrender anything then I have a problem Side 2 Question: I have a difficulty with my 8 year old daughter who continually challenges me ~ Question: I have had severe neck pain for a year: difficulties with father ~ Not holding anything against my partner. Woman has to earn her vagina ~ Suffering ceases when I cease thinking about it ~ Emotional and mental pain goes into the psyche: the solution is to want nothing ~ Question: How can I get rid of ambition and wanting to succeed? Side 3 Vibration and resonance between man and woman ~ Man and woman’s virtue: woman mustn’t take on a man with troubles ~ Question: Should I continue with a troublesome relationship or walk away? Side 4 Question cont’d: Isn’t there a lot I need to work through and learn about myself? ~ Mature people and those without a partner ~ Question: Is it right that you can only really live love if you are already living in a state of total freedom? ~ Question: What if it’s not possible to be with you regularly? ~ Question: I am having a lot of difficulty coming to terms with a car crash injury ~ Question: Is it better to allow my emotions for a short period rather than trying to drop them immediately? ~ Acknowledgement of transmission of love ~ Experience of chronic injury GOLD COAST TALK 13 SEPTEMBER 1998 Side 1 Don’t make a dogma: live the truth ~ You are not living the truth if you weep. Everybody departs or dies ~ Going into Me (6 mins) ~ Consciousness: every moment of your life is registered in consciousness ~ Barry reads part of his epic poetry ~ Existence is about undergoing experience: how can you understand if you haven’t undergone? ~ A master who doesn’t teach Side 2 Why I don’t meet with enlightened masters ~ God can’t enter your body while unhappiness is in you ~ Question: I’m confused about feelings and emotions ~ Question: How do I deal with anger? ~ Question: How can I stop persistent thought patterns? ~ Question: What do you mean by awareness? 21 Side 3 Written question: Can primal therapy help to access the unconscious? ~ Question: If we don’t recognise our emotions, how can we free ourselves of them? ~ Question: What is the intense, dark passage between sleeping and waking which makes me emotional? ~ Going into Me (5 mins) ~ Man and woman are made in God’s image ~ The first object of my teaching is to realise God within, outside of existence Side 4 Woman is the prize of existence and man is the means of the realisation of this prize ~ Question: Are you saying that on my own I can’t find God? ~ Question: What makes me undergo situations again and again? ~ Question: Pregnancy, children, contraception: what do you teach? ~ Question: Lovemaking without orgasm ~ How to stop attachment in love GOLD COAST TALK 20 DECEMBER 1998 Side 1 Realisation of the truth ~ Vital body or life body; seeing a dead body; excitement and passion ~ Going into Me (8 mins) ~ Can you give up being moved by emotion? ~ Consciousness, intelligence, sensation ~ Question: If you don’t express emotion is it gone or suppressed? ~ Question: Is not expressing emotion and having the knowledge that I don’t want it, the same as dissolving it? Side 2 Question: I am confused after breaking up my partnership ~ Do you want to argue with your lover? ~ Question: What is the basic human need? ~ Question: Where emotion comes from ~ Question: Is there any good sorrow when someone dies? ~ Question: As a single mother it is difficult to get order into family life without yelling. The genius of being a mother ~ Question: When I have a good laugh or cry I feel better ~ Question: How do you find a compatible partner? Is it a commitment? Side 3 Going into Me (9 mins) ~ Getting your life right; compromise; accepting life as it is ~ Question: If you’re emotional does that mean you can’t be trusted? How do you overcome attachment? ~ When a woman is not loved enough she gets emotional ~ Question: I’m confused whether the partnership process is rightly bringing up emotion to be faced, or whether I’m with the wrong partner. If I love him why do I get irritated about small things? Side 4 Question: By asking a person to change, isn’t that asking them to compromise? ~ Question: Are your mother and father a good microcosm of your relationships? ~ Going into Me (8 mins) ~ Purpose of experience; wanting and desire ~ Question: A man declared his love for me and then withdrew it; what should I do? ~ Giving up to God my ideas of who I am ~ Question: When you gaze around looking at the people, what are you doing? 22 GOLD COAST TALKS 1999 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held five afternoon meetings in 1999 at Murwillumbah Civic Auditorium, near the Gold Coast. GOLD COAST TALK 21 MARCH 1999 Side 1 Mantra: God, God, God, love, love, love ~ Multiplicity of being ~ Immortality ~ Two things in existence that don’t change ~ Going into Me Side 2 Going into Me cont’d ~ Question: There are sensations locked in my body that I can’t go into with my awareness ~ Miracles ~ Letter from man: Do healers and therapists need to be cautious because the energy of their patients can enter them? ~ Letter: My life is right, but what do I do now? ~ Question: How can I get rid of an anxiety to do with my parents? ~ Question: Illness caused by disturbance about business Side 3 Mantra ~ Sivananda student, celibacy and control of the senses. Interpretation of the senses turns desire into wanting ~ Question: I’ve been without a man for a year, it is good but desire rises occasionally. Woman’s desire to make love at the time of ovulation ~ It is pain that thinks. Consciousness knows I am immortal ~ Question: How can parents tell their child what they’re doing with their life? ~ Going into Me Side 4 Celibacy and the Hindu religion ~ Question: What is the difference between making love and sex? ~ Question: Is it natural for a woman who doesn’t want children not to have the inclination to make love during ovulation? Maturity of woman ~ Question: I’ve been joyous in love, but now I’m getting more and more unhappy ~ Question: I get irritated with my partner; she has another teacher and I’ve been to several teachers ~ Question: I want to write to my former fiancee as part of getting my life right ~ Woman with man who doesn’t want to commit himself exclusively to her GOLD COAST TALK 18 APRIL 1999 Side 1 Arriving on time for meetings ~ Prostate cancer: it is my body that is afflicted, it is not me ~ Existence is the place of suffering ~ The real I and the false I ~ War is about killing people ~ Going into Me Side 2 I am the truth and the false self is the spoiler ~ We are animals with spirit ~ Question: I have parted from my violent son - is that the right action to take? ~ Question: Is emotional elation also false? ~ Question from child: Why do we come out of the state of one and then try to get back into it? ~ Question: Is the end of the world still approaching? Side 3 Conceptualising the teaching eg having ‘shoulds’ and ‘should nots’ ~ Enjoying yourself too much ~ Question: What is the right response to physical pain? ~ Question: Why do I get pain in my testicles? Side 4 Question: As the human body is 80% water and water signifies emotion, is it natural for us to be emotional? ~ Sitting on a chair instead of on the floor ~ Question: Why does my body shut down during making love? ~ Question: How can I not get involved in other 23 people’s stories? ~ Question: I am a pregnant single mother, how can I get my life right? ~ Gratitude for the teaching ~ Sex and nudism ~ Attachment to the beauty of the earth GOLD COAST TALK 6 JUNE 1999 Side 1 God immanent and God transcendental ~ Realising the Lord ~ Are you acknowledging the good in your life? ~ Going into Me Side 2 Cancellation of the European Session and replacement with 5 day Australian meeting ~ People asking the question ‘what should I do?’ Living off concepts. Specific answers lead to contradictions: to get the idea behind the words is the solution ~ Don’t care what people think of you ~ I keep saying the same thing over and over again ~ Question: I experience God in woman but it is not always in me when the external reflection of woman is absent Side 3 The distinction between soul and spirit ~ Get rid of the agencies between you and God ~ Learning from the pain of parting and moving up to a new octave of life ~ Letter: I used to think as a child that everything was static ~ Human nature keeps going into what hurts ~ What brought the Buddha to his senses? Side 4 Buddha, Buddhism and religions ~ Going into Me ~ Question: What is the point of being in the body? ~ Question: When I realise nothing, am I back where I started from? ~ Question: Is there a relationship between my sensory awareness of the spine and the vital being? ~ Question: Does knowledge come before realisation? ~ Question: When you talk about after death and coming back into the vital being, are you saying that this happens in a random way GOLD COAST TALK 12 SEPTEMBER 1999 Side 1 Seeing God in everything: God is the beauty of the earth ~ The truth of the Aboriginal dreamtime ~ Science and the spiritual life ~ Mankind: what about woman? The archetypal structure of the psyche ~ Acknowledge the good of the earth ~ Going into Me Side 2 Going into Me cont’d ~ How do women handle being fighter pilots when they menstruate? ~ Karma, the past repeating itself ~ Attachment to Christianity. The Gospels of Philip and Mary. Jesus’ love of Mary Magdalene ~ Menopause Side 3 Male mid-life crisis ~ Jealousy: the fundamental difficulty in love between man and woman. Envy. Indifference. Living a lie ~ I have realised God. Priests are interpreters ~ Love is cold to the world because emotion is warm ~ Death should neither be mourned nor celebrated ~ Question: What is time? ~ Question: What is the difference between Jesus and Christ? Side 4 Christ and Jesus. Do not particularise: there is only God. ~ Going into Me ~ Reluctant acknowledgment. Acknowledge everything ~ Difference between talking and speaking: I talk about things, I speak of God, love, beauty and truth ~ Question: Is there any good in science? Have we made it up? I live in paradise ~ Question: Sometimes when I hear you I don’t have the ring of truth, I just don’t know 24 GOLD COAST TALK 19 DECEMBER 1999 Side 1 Being simple as I get closer to death ~ Shopping around with masters: stay with one master ~ Degrees of God realisation ~ Where is love in existence? ~ Conversation between King Arthur and Merlin from ‘Camelot’ about how to handle a woman ~ Going into Me Side 2 Going into Me cont’d ~ Question: Since being with your teaching I have been to other teachers and felt that I got something from this, so I’m in a quandary ~ Question: Recently I could not open up to love a man ~ Being late for the meeting is dishonouring the truth of your being ~ Question: I find it quite difficult to come into my heart centre ~ Question: Is there anything that women need to learn to be able to love a man? Side 3 The truth of menopause ~ The consciousness of the womb; vaginal awareness and vaginal consciousness ~ Going into Me Side 4 Going into Me cont’d ~ Question: My sister has been ill for some years with M.E. ~ Question: I am a sannyasin. As far as I understood Osho, his message is basically the same as yours ~ Question: Will you give me a Sanskrit name? ~ Barry sings a song: As Time Goes By ~ Passion, glory, the timeless 25 GOLD COAST TALKS 2000 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held four afternoon meetings in 2000 at Murwillumbah Civic Auditorium, near the Gold Coast. GOLD COAST TALK 20 FEBRUARY 2000 At the beginning of each session Barry makes a comment about his ‘umbilical cord’. His remarks refer to the microphone lead which trails behind him as he enters. Side 1 Personalising your life ~ Looking and thinking ~ What is life? ~ Hearing, knowing, realising and then living the truth ~ Life is an enormous pressure ~ Death and depersonalising life Side 2 The great cyclic movement of life and death ~ Going into Me (4 mins) ~ Meditation is only a stage, not the end ~ Do not fight illness ~ Question: How do I listen with my whole body? ~ The four stages of living the spiritual life Side 3 Quote from the prophets: ‘remember thy Creator in the days of thy youth . . . ’ ~ The world’s greatest mind hasn’t been able to work out what woman wants ~ A caution about realising and being able to contain the truth; psychic possession ~ Vaginal awareness and vaginal consciousness: human pleasure and divine pleasure Side 4 Questions: Can a man be in a similar state to woman’s vaginal consciousness? Does man lose interest in sex at a certain age? Could you speak about awareness and witnessing? ~ Question: Are you in a lineage of spiritual teachers? ~ Question: Do you say that man should never ejaculate in making love? ~ Question: Is there a difference between personality and self? ~ Question: How do you reconcile the choicelessness of accepting things as they are, with the pursuit of joy, positivity and happiness? ~ Question: How can I move on after the break up of a long relationship? GOLD COAST TALK 18 JUNE 2000 Side 1 Four men in the teaching with cancer: facing death, the end of hope, dying without fear ~ The spiritual life is about equilibrium ~ Going into Me ~ What happens to a man when a woman of consciousness leaves him; facing the pain Side 2 Facing the pain cont’d ~ Song: Bitter Cup ~ Choice: did you know that every choice is wrong? ~ Question: How long do you look and not make a choice and is that the same as not taking action? ~ Satsang is an eastern word: I call a spade a spade Side 3 Burning out the pain ~ Each of you has a challenge which is the circumstance of your life ~ What it is like to be a human being here on earth ~ The psyche and the different levels of God realisation Side 4 You are provided with the master who fits your level of consciousness ~ Question: Can you speak to us on singing, dancing and celebrating? ~ Question: Can you speak more on human love being warm and conscious love being cold and sharp as a razor? ~ Ruth and ruthless ~ Question: I am one of these people who holds satsang ~ Question: I am finding it difficult to be open in love, to receive 26 GOLD COAST TALK 17 SEPTEMBER 2000 Side 1 Perfection: the earth is perfect like your life ~ Acknowledging the good expands your consciousness ~ Instinct, consciousness and awareness ~ Achievement ~ Death was made by God ~ Life is good: just acknowledge the good and you will be transformed ~ Going into Me ~ Question: How can I stay in consciousness when you are not here? Side 2 My transcendental realisation ~ Just love him ~ Website, woman and love ~ Celibate man ~ Question: To which situation should I be true? ~ The black cloud ~ Every child will suffer ~ Black cloud of unhappiness ~ Advaita and illusion Side 3 The rose has lost its smell ~ Scientific mind and progress: the race from the fear of death ~ Vandalism: lack of discipline and boredom in children ~ The cause of domestic violence ~ Grief comes from ignorance ~ Angels in your life Side 4 Angels ~ Christian religion ~ The meaning of lady and gentleman ~ Question: Is there a process of re-evaluation after the death of a partner? Death is a purifying process ~ Death of a father ~ Cooking food ~ Question: Did the gods create existence? ~ Question: I can feel and smell the presence of my grandmother who died, but I don’t understand it ~ Question: When religions engage in untruth, eg the crusades, why isn’t it self-evident that an evil is being perpetrated? ~ Death of my partner, a wonderful thing for us both GOLD COAST TALK 17 DECEMBER 2000 Side 1 May I speak to you of death? Men who have helped this teaching who have recently died ~ What you really are is intelligence. It will give you whatever you focus on ~ Consciousness exceeds the speed of light ~ How do you have a choice when you’re dying? ~ Hope comes from having a future Side 2 Going into Me ~ There is no gender outside existence ~ Whatever you start naming, you get ~ Going into Me ~ Sex is the pursuit of love ~ Imagination and romance ~ Question: Woman working in the world and passion ~ Question: I feel ready to die but also have some fears Side 3 Predispositions: people are born with different dispositions ~ Religious ceremonies ~ The purpose of existence and death ~ Going into Me ~ The pain of birth and the pain of death ~ The sixth dimension Side 4 Physical pain ~ Going into Me ~ Everyone is asked to sit on a chair ~ Are you ready to say goodbye? ~ What is a real sannyasin? ~ Question: I just lost someone who I loved ~ Question: A friend killed herself and I feel sad when I hear her name ~ When Barry Long dies 27 GOLD COAST TALKS 2001 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held four afternoon meetings in 2001 at Murwillumbah Civic Auditorium, near the Gold Coast. GOLD COAST TALK 11 FEBRUARY 2001 Side 1 Everything that you enjoy is God; God is the lot, the whole ~ Instinctual intelligence and the animals ~ Self-consciousness ~ Love is acknowledgement ~ Story about the bull; testosterone is irrepressible ~ Female animals coming into season Side 2 Going into Me ~ Instinctual intelligence, instinctual love and lack of consideration ~ The greatest love is gratitude to God ~ Question: Why do I want to escape from this space? ~ Question: How can I handle continuous physical pain? Side 3 My job as a living master ~ Inner space ~ The value of astrology etc ~ The king of inner space ~ Levels of God realisation ~ The mirror of supreme being ~ Question: If inner space isn’t God, what is? Side 4 Question: What about God realisation? ~ Question: When I die do I become God? ~ Leela, the divine game ~ Evolution and involution ~ Question: I have a fear of inner space ~ What Buddha said ~ Question: What is the effect on inner space of having a loved one? ~ Question: Is instinctual intelligence linked to genetics? ~ Being moved and being touched ~ Question: How do you reach stillness when the mind has doubt and fear? ~ Question: When I have a sense of love, my curiosity stops, does that make me stupid? ~ Question: Being a woman with my nature of love, I have a fear of not being able to support myself with work GOLD COAST TALK 24 JUNE 2001 Side 1 God is whole: when you particularise God you must suffer ~ Living in your senses ~ Intelligence behind the brain ~ Putting God first ~ Feelings in the gut ~ Going into Me ~ Alien visitation at menstruation Side 2 Putting women in the front line ~ Thou and thee ~ Question: How can a man help a woman through menopause and a hysterectomy? ~ Not identifying with the emotions of menstruation ~ Question: Why has the snake been used as a symbol of temptation? ~ Question: How can I be more giving with people who are dying? Side 3 Inner space: the mirror ~ The spiritual life: cleaning the mirror of clutter and clamour ~ Intelligence: seeing, knowing and realising ~ The truth behind astrology, hand reading etc ~ Going into Me Side 4 Grace: the will of God ~ Homosexuality and love ~ Question: Does a man reduce the love between the woman and child? ~ Question: Do you see a special relationship between father and son? ~ Question: Is my friendship with a man preventing me from being open to another relationship? ~ Question: Do men enjoy or need romance? 28 GOLD COAST TALK 30 SEPTEMBER 2001 Side 1 May I speak to you of life? You are mortal because you worship death ~ Holy war ~ Ask me any real question about the events in New York city on 11 September: somebody has to tell you the truth ~ Question: Why did I laugh when I saw it on TV? ~ Question: I don’t understand how it has affected me, the events seem to be far reaching ~ The bigger picture; human nature; the end of our civilisation; religion; what are you serving with your life? ~ Question: What is the process of losing my attachment to living? Side 2 You cannot try to be good ~ Going into Me ~ It takes tragedy to bring us together, which is a tragedy ~ All the prayers have collided ~ Question: What can I do to get back to life? ~ Question: My trust was shattered, how do I cultivate trust? ~ Question: When I saw what happened there was nothing in me at all, is this a lack of compassion? ~ Question: Did America do anything to bring this on themselves? ~ Question: Can you speak yet about the new time after the great wipeout? Side 3 Ivan and Krishnamurti, my wonderful teachers ~ The Matrix which extends through living and life ~ Going into Me ~ How would I tell if I am attached to what I am doing? ~ Question: Do the terrorists make use of the matrix? ~ The intelligence in the blade of grass Side 4 Be life: stop being spiritual ~ Nobility ~ Question: If I don’t acknowledge or act on a thought, does it still create karma? ~ Equilibrium ~ Question: What gives power to the thought? ~ Question: Is there a place for prayer to ask for help in states of confusion? ~ Question: What about my inner guidance? GOLD COAST TALK 16 DECEMBER 2001 Side 1 No joy, no sorrow. What is beyond joy and sorrow? ~ Nirvikalpa Samadhi ~ The world is based on knowing, and the truth brings knowledge ~ Love and the mystery, love God first ~ I don’t remember, but I never forget ~ The Islamic religion, the interpretation of the mullahs and martyrdom Side 2 Christianity, St Paul and the gospels ~ Islamic artistry ~ All religions are a celebration of death ~ Western world believes only in greed and material gain ~ Do you live what you say? ~ Question: I find it hard to break our of my beliefs and express love in my marriage ~ Questions: How do I know what to say and what to live? Do you go on this journey alone or do you include someone else? Side 3 Getting your life right ~ Intelligence is seeing the fact ~ We invented the rat race ~ Do you owe someone something? ~ Going into Me ~ It takes effort to reach the effortless state Side 4 Questions: Who is this thing that is transforming yourself? Is this intelligence within your volition? Can you explain God not doing the dirty work? ~ Questions: Isn’t everything including emotion an expression of consciousness? Why do you need to say ‘I am enlightened’? ~ Question: Can you give your views on vipassana meditation? ~ Question: Is it possible for me to accept my suffering? ~ Question: Why are you angry with the people, aren’t they asking for help? ~ Question: I have been experiencing a broken heart for 3 or 4 months ~ Question: I see a woman for only a few weeks every year - am I wasting my time? ~ Question: Life constantly gives me situations to show me where I’m not free 29 GOLD COAST TALKS 2002 LIVING THE TRUTH Barry Long held three afternoon meetings in 2002 at Tweed Heads Civic Centre, on the Gold Coast. GOLD COAST TALK 7 APRIL 2002 Side 1 I am God mad; good morning God; God is everything; I love the whole; give thanks every moment to God ~ Buddhism, looking for enlightenment and trying to free everyone ~ How youth walks ~ The female in woman is grace ~ Give up the particularisation of the religions ~ The value of your life ~ Question from man living in Israel: What should I do? Side 2 I don’t tell people what to do ~ War and surrender ~ Love is an emanation of selfknowledge ~ Going into Me ~ Question: How can I stay in this state? I have a problem with my mortgage ~ Question: What can I do about loneliness? ~ Our senses love where we were born ~ What do you reflect on? Side 3 Gloria, gloria, God is light; light behind the sun; the father of lights; God immanent and transcendental; the bushel over our light ~ My son and ice cream ~ Consequences of every thought, word and deed ~ What’s your service to mankind? ~ Going into Me Side 4 Going into Me ~ Reincarnation and recurrence; ignorance and the great intelligence; to die innocent ~ Question: How do we dissolve the emotions? ~ Question: Aren’t the people who practise religions, for example the Jewish religion, doing the same as us, therefore there is no right and wrong way? ~ The Messiah ~ Jewish quotations GOLD COAST TALK 16 JUNE 2002 Side 1 Meditation; relative intelligence; have you released all your prisoners? ~ Innocence is to hold nothing against anyone ~ Focus on pure sensation in the body ~ Focus on the solar plexus Side 2 Focus on wellbeing ~ Question: How can I go deeper, through the tension in my solar plexus? ~ Question: The sensation in my body that wants to rise, is it emotion? Side 3 Barry Long reports on his health ~ Do you have abundance in your life? ~ Two aspects of God: personal God of the religions; impersonal God and the matrix ~ Taking a position Side 4 Question: It appears that some people have harder lives than others, is this true? ~ Woman acknowledges Barry Long ~ Robotics; virtual sex machine ~ Question: As I let go of my prisoners will my experience of the matrix change? ~ Question: Have you anything to say about taking morphine when you are dying? 30 GOLD COAST TALK 22 SEPTEMBER 2002 Side 1 Being here; what is true in your experience; the pure sensation of the body; emotional sensation; addiction ~ Going into Me ~ Stillness is the way Side 2 Question: Love of your self, is the self the thinker? ~ Question: Are intelligence and consciousness entirely separate? ~ Question: I am sometimes in places outside my physical body ~ Question: Is intelligence intuition? ~ Question: I have recently had a baby and have no urge to make love ~ Question: Immunisation for children ~ Question: How can you be intelligent and still in the working world? ~ Question: How do I get rid of my emotions? Side 3 Letter from woman about food: woman and food; woman is starved for love; the charade of man and woman’s love; imagination; sexual wanting; dissolving the image of food ~ Question: Can you speak about a loving relationship between two women? Side 4 Question: What about the wanting and yearning for true love? ~ Question: I made friends with myself and now it doesn’t matter to me what my partner does ~ Question: What can I do about my guilt regarding the suffering of my partner’s ex wife and his children? ~ Self knowledge ~ Going into Me 31 GOLD COAST TALKS A-Z TOPICS INDEX Note: If your Gold Coast Talk is an mp3 download (not an audio cassette) Sides 1 & 2 are now Part 1 and Sides 3 & 4 are now Part 2 Also listed under Aboriginal dreamtime The truth of the Aboriginal dreamtime Absence Absence is the place and stillness is the way Going cold: absence Man, woman or absence Meditation, being, absence S1 Sep 99 S3 S2 S2 S3 Jul 93 Sep 96 Dec 94 Jul 93 S3 Life Compromise/ Getting your life right Suffering S1 S1 S4 S2 S3 S4 Jun 02 Novel S2 Apr 95 Love S4 S2 S4 S1 S4 S3 S4 Apr 93 Apr 93 Mar 93 Feb 01 Sep 99 Dec 95 Jun 02 Earth Consciousnes S1 S1 S1 Sep 99 Sep 00 Jun 99 Being/Good/Self S1 S1 Jan 93 Jun 97 S4 Aug 95 Stillness Going cold Man/Woman Being/Meditation Abundance Do you have abundance in your life? Acceptance Acceptance, new dynamic solution Acceptance, new dynamic Accepting my life as it is Getting your life right; compromise; accepting life as it is Q: Is it possible for me to accept my suffering? Achievement Achievement without thought: how to create a novel Acknowledgment Acknowledgment Acknowledging beauty Being seen, acknowledgment Love is acknowledgment Reluctant acknowledgment. Acknowledge everything Universe gives you what you acknowledge Woman acknowledges Barry Long Universe Acknowledging the good Acknowledging the good of the earth Acknowledging the good expands your consciousness Are you acknowledging the good in your life? Action Being & self; looking for the good; right action Being in between action Q: How long do you look and not make a choice and is that the same as not taking action? Keeping the mind still when engaged in action and when sitting in stillness Longing to walk with woman: longing requires action Addiction Being here; what is true in your experience; the pure sensation of the body; emotional sensation; addiction Advaita Advaita and illusion Ageing Ageing of the body Agencies Get rid of the agencies between you and God Choice 32 Jun 98 Dec 94 Dec 94 Dec 94 Dec 98 Dec 01 Jun 00 Mar 96 Mind/Stillness S2 S4 Experience/Sensation/ Emotional sensation/Being here S1 Sep 02 Illusion S2 Sep 00 S4 4 Jul 93 S3 Jun 99 Longing God Albido Side Date S1 Apr 94 Alcohol Character and personality; character is wellbeing; personality is the frontal face of the person; defending your self; effect of alcohol Alcoholics Choosing a lover from your self; you’ve got to be practical; alcoholics and drug takers Alien visitation Alien visitation at menstruation Alone Alone and lonely, interpretation of feelings Purpose of love and purpose of life: man,woman, new and longstanding partnerships, being alone Woman alone Ambition Q: How can I get rid of ambition and wanting to succeed? America Q: Did America do anything to bring this on themselves? Angels Angels and spirit guides Angels, imagination and wanting: only now is real Angels in your life Animals Female animals coming into season Instinctual intelligence and the animals Sensation of loss in animals and humans We are animals with spirit You and I are animals; self consciousness in tamed animals Anxiety Guru: freeing human brain of anxiety Q: How can I get rid of an anxiety to do with my parents? Anxious caring Anxious caring: parents with children 33 Date S1 Mar 98 Lover/Practical/Self/Drugs S3 Mar 98 Menstruation S1 Jun 01 Lonely Partnership/Life Love/Woman/Man Alone S3 Apr 95 S2 Jun 98 S2 Sep 01 S1 Aug 95 S3 S4 S2 S3 S2 S1 S3 S4 S4 Jan 94 Dec 93 Sep 98 Sep 97 Sep 96 Mar 98 Apr 97 Apr 97 Dec 01 S1 S1 S2 S1 S1 Brain/Guru Parents S4 S1 S1 Feb 01 Feb 01 Dec 95 Apr 99 Mar 96 Parents/Children S1 Feb 96 Lover Fights/Truth/Mind/Human condition S1 S2 S1 Jul 93 Dec 98 Jun 97 Spirit guides Now/Imagination Anger Anger and insecurity Anger with children Q: How to I deal with anger? Q: I close off when my woman is angry I have no right to be angry If ever you are angry, you are not being honest Q: from woman: How do I deal with my partner’s anger? Sexual frustration is the cause of all anger Q: Why are you angry with the people, aren’t they asking for help? Woman’s anger at man leaving Side Personality/Self/Character September 11 2001 Angelic realm Angelic realm, a place of absence Argument(s) Arguments: What am I hurt about? Do you want to argue with your lover? Fight and argument; living the truth; the mind and the human condition Also listed under Insecurity Children Woman/Closing off Honesty Partner Sexual frustration Woman Instinctual intelligence Loss/Humans Spirit Self consciousness S1 S4 S4 S2 S3 S3 S2 Dec 96 Jan 94 Sep Dec Dec Sep 00 96 96 00 Jan 94 Mar 96 Dec 94 Mar 99 Arriving on time Arriving on time for meetings Being late for the meeting is dishonouring the truth of your being Art Abstract art, abstraction from the earth, colour Art: the nobility of man demonstrated in the picture of a man about to be executed who is protecting a child Art should edify the consciousness; it should demonstrate the nobility of man and glorify the love that woman is Contemporary art shown in a pop singer’s cartoon Greatest art for man and woman Self expression is not art The great art: love brings all to life Q: Why is art often so ugly? Praise of pain or praise of God Ascending your mountain Ascending your mountain and coming down into existence Astrology The truth behind astrology, hand reading etc The value of astrology etc Attachment Attachment to Christianity. The Gospels of Philip and Mary. Jesus’ love of Mary Magdalene Attachment to dying father Attachment to the beauty of the earth How should a woman respond if, when she says ‘I love you’, the man says ‘you’ve got an attachment’? Casting pearls before swine How to stop attachment in love Q: How would I tell if I am attached to what I am doing? Q: If you’re emotional does that mean you can’t be trusted? How do you overcome attachment? Love and attachment Men’s excitement in watching sports on TV, breaking attachment Repeating experience; attachment to the experience of love; why did I get my heart broken? Spiritual names and attachment to the master Q: The difference between love and attachment: attachment to food, to partner and to sex Q: What is the process of losing my attachment to living? Woman’s attachment or man’s fear of love? Yesterday’s movie: giving up attachment Authority Choice, authority in your life, doubts Awareness Awareness and consciousness Awareness and consciousness Awareness and consciousness in harmony Being and awareness Q: Can a man be in a similar state to woman’s vaginal consciousness? Does man lose interest in sex at a certain age? Could you speak about awareness and witnessing? Consciousness and awareness in and out of time Consciousness and awareness Consciousness and awareness Instinct, consciousness and awareness Q: There are sensations in my body that I can’t go into with 34 Also listed under Side Date S1 S2 Apr 99 Dec 99 Earth/Colour Noble man S2 S2 Apr 97 Apr 97 Self expression Love Pain/God S1 S2 S4 S2 S2 S4 Apr 97 Apr 97 Mar 96 Apr 97 Apr 97 Mar 96 Existence S3 Apr 95 Truth/Hand reading S3 S3 Jun 01 Feb 01 Christianity/Jesus/The Gospels/ Mary Magdalene Father/Dying Beauty/Earth S2 S3 S4 Sep 99 Jun 93 Apr 99 Emotion S4 S4 S3 S3 Dec Sep Sep Dec Experience/Love/Broken heart S3 Jun 97 Noble man/ Love Pop singers/songs Woman/Casting pearls before swine Love Love Excitement/Sports Names/Master Love Living Fear/Love Yesterday’s movie S3 S3 S3 S2 S1 S3 S4 96 98 01 98 Dec 93 Jun 93 Jan 93 Feb 97 Sep 01 Dec 93 Dec 95 Choice/Doubt S4 Apr 97 Consciousness Consciousness Consciousness Being Vaginal consciousness/Man/ Witnessing/Sex S1 S1 S1 S2 S4 Jun 93 Feb 94 Dec 95 Jun 97 Feb 00 S4 S4 S2 S1 S1 Dec 93 Feb 96 Sep 97 Sep 00 Mar 99 Consciousness Consciousness Consciousness Consciousness/Instinct Body/Sensation Also listed under my awareness Q: What do you mean by awareness? Baby Getting the baby out of the bed: everyone in his/her place Q: Having a baby and studying: will this interfere with love between me and my man? Q: I have recently had a baby and have no urge to make love New baby body, negative and positive Back to basics Back to basics: how to reach the place of Being; the belly, the source of self, tension in the belly, the past; being beside your self; you have to get a new vision of what it is to be good Date S2 Sep 98 Bed Love/Study(ing) S4 S4 Apr 93 Feb 97 Body S2 Apr 94 Making love Being/Belly/Self Baggage How to leave the baggage behind Barry Long’s books Q: Are Barry Long’s books necessary? Barry Long’s death When Barry Long dies Barry Long’s health Barry Long reports on his health My health; the cycle of life Barry Long’s teaching The first object of my teaching is to realise God within, outside of existence Side S2 S1 Apr 98 S3 Sep 94 S4 Dec 95 S4 Dec 00 S3 Sep 98 S1 Sep 98 S2 S1 S3 S4 S2 Jul 93 Sep 94 Apr 95 Dec 99 Jun 00 S2 Dec 98 S3 Sep 96 S1 S3 S2 God Barry reads Barry reads part of his epic poetry Barry sings Barry sings a song to love Barry Long sings ‘The Place of the Sinking Heart’ Barry sings ‘The Place of the Sinking Heart’ Barry sings a song: ‘As Time Goes By’ Song: ‘Bitter Cup’ Basic human need Q: What is the basic human need? Be as nothing Sep 02 Sep 97 Jun 02 May 96 Be still Be still and know that I am God; the most unhappy people on earth are the busiest people God/Unhappiness S4 Feb 96 Attachment to the beauty of the earth God has no opposite; beauty is your own state God is beauty, my being is beauty Attachment/Earth God God/Being S4 S2 S4 S1 S1 Mar 94 Dec 96 Apr 99 Dec 96 Dec 96 Noble man/Woman S4 Jun 93 Beauty Beauty and the beast Woman, the beauty of the earth; turning the beast into the noble man 35 Bed Getting the baby out of the bed: everyone in his/her place Being Back to basics: how to reach the place of Being; the belly, the source of self, tension in the belly, the past; being beside your self; you have to get a new vision of what it is to be good Being and awareness Being and self; looking for the good; right action Being, the power behind the body Being; the rarest state on earth What is happening with these silences? Darshan, a state of being Demonstrating being: everyone a star Consciousness, meditation, being God is beauty, my being is beauty Meditation, being, absence Multiplicity of being Power of being: the gnostic masters and martial arts Practising being There is nothing to hold on to in Being; telling the children about past experience lodged in the tummy; it is bodies that make love Q: What is the point of being in the body? Being by yourself Q: Does the divine life include being by yourself and not being with a woman? Realising God out of existence and God in existence; celibacy; secrets Being good You cannot try to be good Being here Being here; what is true in your experience; the pure sensation of the body; emotional sensation; addiction Q: I am having trouble being here. Loving your self, homosexual love, you cannot love everyone, loving the whole, I come from beyond the stone age the tummy; it is bodies that make love Q: What is the point of being in the body? Side Date Baby S4 Apr 93 Back to basics/Belly/Self S1 Apr 98 Awareness Self/Good/Action Power S2 S1 S2 S1 S1 Jun 97 Jan 93 Dec 95 Mar 96 Feb 96 S4 Jun 99 Celibacy/Secrets/Divine life/God S4 Mar 98 Trying S2 Sep 01 Experience/Sensation/ Emotional sensation/Addiction Self/Homosexual Love/Stone age S1 S2 Sep 02 Feb 97 S4 Feb 96 Being touched S4 Feb 01 Death S1 Dec 99 Being moved S4 Feb 01 S2 Sep 00 Also listed under Silence/Being Consciousness/Meditation Beauty/God Meditation/Absence Gnostic masters/Martial arts Children/Past/Tummy/Making love Being in your senses Being the body S4 S4 S1 S3 S1 S4 S4 S1 S1 Being moved Being moved and being touched Being simple Being simple as I get closer to death Being touched Being moved and being touched Being true to the situation Being true to the situation and going against my feelings Q: Can you tell me what judgement is? Be true to the situation, don’t judge it Q: To which situation should I be true? 36 Feelings Judge(ment) S2 S4 S4 S3 Apr 94 Jan 94 Dec 96 Jul 93 Mar 99 Dec 96 Jun 93 Apr 98 Sep 96 Jan 93 Feb 94 Apr 95 Mar 96 Also listed under Being with Barry Long Being with Barry Long; the holy state What if it is not possible to be with you regularly? Beings Human beings have to evolve into beings Belief(s) Q: Do you have to have a belief to know that this is the way to go? Q: I find it hard to break out of my beliefs and express love in my marriage Interest, belief, direct knowledge Belly Back to basics: how to reach the place of Being; the belly, the source of self, tension in the belly, the past; being beside your self; you have to get a new vision of what it is to be good Q: Who is aware or the self in the belly? Mind, psyche, spirit and eternity; man-hood and woman-hood Benediction What benediction did you receive today? Gratitude Big bang Moment before the big bang Bigger picture The bigger picture; human nature, the end of our civilisation; religion; what are you serving with your life? Biological urge What is it that instigates the lovemaking act? Man’s biological urge to make love. Birth The pain of birth and the pain of death Birthdays Q: If I learn to be me, will I be happy all the time? Birthdays and children Black cloud Black cloud of unhappiness The black cloud Human beings Love/Marriage Interest/Knowledge S4 S2 S4 Dec 95 Feb 96 Jun 98 S2 Sep 96 S1 Apr 97 S2 Aug 95 S2 Dec 01 S1 Apr 98 Mind/Psyche/Self/Spirit/Man-hood/ Eternity/Woman-hood S3 Apr 98 Gratitude S3 Mar 98 S4 Apr 94 Human nature/Civilisation/Religion/ Service S1 Sep 01 Lovemaking S3 Jun 93 Pain/Death S3 Dec 00 Happiness/Children S2 Apr 95 Unhappiness S2 S2 Sep 00 Sep 00 S2 Dec 93 Water/Emotion S4 Apr 99 Life/Cancer S1 S1 S1 S1 S2 Sep 96 Sep 96 Apr 98 Jun 02 Sep 98 Black sun S3 Diet Emotion Consciousness 37 Date Back to basics/Being/Self Black hole The black hole Body/Bodies Q: As the human body is 80% water and water signifies emotion, is it natural for us to be emotional? Body cleansing and diet Body without emotion Consciousness: process of making space and individual bodies Correspondence between life and the body; cancer Direct knowledge of the body Everything happens in the body Focus on pure sensation in the body God can’t enter your body while unhappiness is in you Side Sensation God/Unhappiness S2 S2 S4 Feb 94 Sep 96 Dec 94 Sep 96 Human body is God’s vehicle New baby body, negative and positive Self ruins my body Tension in the body and symbols The body is love in existence, the perfect instrument for love: with my body I thee love Q: The sensation in my body that wants to rise, is it emotion? Q: There are sensations in my body that I can’t go into with my awareness Truth is the idea behind the body, out of existence Body of humanity Body of humanity: each of us a cell; enlightening the cell Boredom Sensation, making love, feeling and boredom Vandalism: lack of discipline and boredom in children Born Our senses love where we were born Born again Man and realisations, irreversible change and being born again Brain Everything happens in the human brain God: intelligence and the human brain Guru: freeing human brain of anxiety Intelligence behind the brain No human brain, no knowing Practical explanation of brain to a 6 year old Your brain and sensory universe Bride The tail: bride’s train Broken heart Broken heart: putting man before God Every young woman born in this society is going to have a broken heart. Why does society accept this? Q: I have been experiencing a broken heart for 3 or 4 months Repeating experience; attachment to the experience of love; why did I get my heart broken? ‘The sacrifice to God is a broken spirit, a broken and a penitent heart’: story of David and Bathsheba Broken spirit ‘The sacrifice to God is a broken spirit, a broken and a penitent heart’: story of David and Bathsheba Buddha(Buddhism) Buddha, Buddhism and religions Buddha and Mara: facing sex Buddhism, looking for enlightenment and trying to free everyone Fear of nothing; Buddha facing his sexuality and nothing arising What Buddha said What brought the Buddha to his senses? Also listed under Side Sensation/Emotion S2 God Baby Self Tension/Symbols Love/Thee Sensation/Awareness Truth/Out of existence S3 S2 S2 S4 S1 Mar 94 Apr 94 Mar 93 Jun 97 Dec 97 S1 Mar 99 S1 Jun 02 Dec 97 Cell S1 Feb 94 Making Love/Feeling/Sensation Children/Discipline/Vandalism S3 S3 Apr 95 Sep 00 Senses S2 Apr 02 Realisations S4 May 95 God/Intelligence Anxiety/Guru Intelligence Knowing Child(ren) Sensory universe S1 S1 S1 S1 S4 S1 S2 Dec 94 Dec 94 Dec 94 Jun 01 Dec 94 Dec 94 Dec 93 Tail S2 May 94 S4 Dec 01 God Young woman S3 S4 S3 Attachment/Love/Experience S3 God/Broken spirit/Sacrifice/David &Bathsheba S2 Dec 93 May 94 Feb 97 Jun 97 Sep 97 God/Sacrifice/Broken heart/ David &Bathsheba S2 Sep 97 Religions Mara/Sex Enlightenment S4 S4 S1 Jun 99 Jun 97 Apr 02 S4 S3 Feb 01 Jun 99 Sexuality/Fear/Nothing arising 38 Date S3 Jun 93 Bushel over our light Gloria, gloria, God is light; light behind the sun; the father of lights; God immanent and transcendental; the bushel over our light Business Q: Illness caused by disturbance about business ‘Camelot’ Conversation between King Arthur and Merlin from ‘Camelot’ about how to handle a woman Side Date Father of lights/God/Sun/Gloria S3 Apr 02 Disturbance/Illness S1 Mar 99 King Arthur and Merlin/Woman S1 Dec 99 S2 Jun 99 S2 May 96 Obesity S2 S2 Mar 94 Feb 94 Making love S1 Feb 97 Attachment/Woman S4 Dec 96 S3 S2 Dec 93 Feb 94 Children S3 Dec 96 Mind S3 Feb 94 Hindu religion Man Eastern traditions/Tantric love S4 S2 S4 Mar 99 Sep 00 Apr 98 Divine life/Secrets/Being by yourself/God S4 Mar 98 Interpretation/Desire/Sivananda student/Senses/Wanting S3 Mar 99 Psychic experience S1 S2 S3 Aug 95 Apr 94 Aug 95 Also listed under Cancellation of meeting Cancellation of the European Session and replacement with 5 day Australian meeting Cancer Q: As an enlightened master did you have fear or self doubt when you found you had cancer? Correspondence between life and the body; cancer Four men in the teaching with cancer: facing death, the end of hope, dying without fear Cosmic value of cancer Obesity and cancer of the body and of humanity Cancer (contd) Prostate cancer: don’t be afraid, look at the quality of life, making love Casting pearls before swine How should a woman respond if, when she says ‘I love you’, the man says ‘you’ve got an attachment’? Casting pearls before swine Enlightened master/Fear/Self doubt Body/Life Death/Hope/Fear Catch 22 Catholic faith Q: should I bring children being brought up in the Catholic faith to your meetings? Cause and effect Cause and effect mind Celibacy Celibacy and the Hindu religion Celibate man Q: Confusion between eastern traditions of celibacy and this teaching of tantric love. You don’t need a celibate body, you need a celibate mind Q: Does the divine life include being by yourself and not being with a woman? Realising God out of existence and God in existence; celibacy; secrets Sivananda student, celibacy and control of the senses. Interpretation of the senses turns desire into wanting Cell Psychic experience and reconstitution of cells Reconstitution of cells Woman facing her violence and self destruction; the negative cells The cell 39 Violence/Woman/Self destruction S1 S1 S2 Sep 96 Jun 00 Apr 94 Challenge Each of you has a challenge which is the circumstance of your life Change Q: By asking a person to change, isn’t that asking them to compromise? Degenerative disease: you’ve got to change your life Change of life Change of life in woman Channellers Character Character and personality; character is wellbeing; personality is the frontal face of the person; defending your self; effect of alcohol Character is good that has no opposite; personality is winning/losing Child(ren) A gift to the children: I will never be unhappy in your presence Addresses children: mother’s and father’s wisdom visited on the child Addresses 8 year old: learning from experience; Q: Can you destroy the self? Addressing the children: your life has to be lived out according to you, not your parents Anger with children Anxious caring: parents with children Are parents fit to raise children? Children expressing opinions: observations require no opinions Q: Children murdered: karma? Control and manipulation; children, pain of self Copying adults Detachment from partner when there’s a child; keep things practical; explain the truth of life to the child Every child will suffer Explanation of death to a child Explanation to nine year old child: subject and object, reflection of my love Facing emotion in young children; compassion and serving humanity Q: From 7 year old: Why do I have unhappiness in me? Q: From 8 year old: Do people still have their past when they lose their memory? Senility Q: How can parents tell their child what they’re doing with their life Q: How do you help small children with their emotion? How to communicate truth and love to a child Q: I have difficulty with my 8 year old daughter who continually challenges me Q: If I learn to be me, will I be happy all the time? Birthdays and children Introducing children to the truth Q: Is it natural for a woman who doesn’t want children not to have the inclination to make love during ovulation?Maturity of woman Loving children without indulgence Q: Parent’s question: how can I help my child? Passion leaving relationship with arrival of child 40 Side Date Circumstance of your life S3 Jun 00 Compromise S4 Dec 98 Woman S4 Jun 93 Wellbeing/Personality/Self/Alcohol S1 Mar 98 Personality/Winning/Losing S1 Mar 98 Unhappiness S1 Feb 96 Experience/Self S4 Dec 93 Also listed under Disease Parents Anger Anxious caring/Parents Parents Observation/Opinions Karma/Murder Manipulation/Control Detachment/Partner/Practical S1 S2 S3 S2 S4 S1 S1 S2 S2 S4 S3 S2 Child Love/Subject/Object S2 S2 S3 Unhappiness Past/Memory/Senility S2 S2 Emotion/Compassion/Humanity Parents Emotion Truth/Love/Communication Happiness/Birthdays Truth Making love/Woman/Ovulation Passion/Relationship S4 S3 S3 S4 S2 S2 S3 S4 S3 S2 S4 Feb 97 Sep 96 May 95 Mar 96 Dec 93 Feb 96 Jun 98 Mar 96 Mar 96 Dec 95 Jan 93 Mar 98 Sep 00 Mar 94 Sep 94 Apr 95 May 96 Apr 98 Mar 99 May 96 Dec 97 Jun 98 Apr 95 Dec 96 Mar 99 Jul 93 Aug 95 Aug 95 Practical explanation of brain to a 6 year old Q: Pregnancy, children, contraception: what do you teach? Q: Should I bring children being brought up in the Catholic faith to your meetings? There is nothing to hold on to in Being; telling the children about past experience lodged in the tummy; it is bodies that make love Unhappiness in children Vandalism: lack of discipline and boredom in children Q: from child: Why do we come out of the state of one and then try to get back to it? Q: What can I do about my guilt regarding the suffering of my partner’s ex wife and his children? Woman putting children before God: not giving in to sentimental love Childhood memories Childhood memories and need of therapies Choice Choice, authority in your life, doubts Choice: did you know that every choice is wrong? Free will, free choice, wilfulness How do you have a choice when you’re dying? Q: How long do you look and not make a choice and is that the same as not taking action? Choicelessness Q: How do you reconcile the choicelessness of accepting things as they are, with the pursuit of joy, positivity and happiness? State of choicelessness Christ Christ and Jesus. Do not particularise: there is only God Q: What is the difference between Jesus and Christ? Christian Being a Sunday Christian or living the teaching Christian religion Christianity Attachment to Christianity. The Gospels of Philip and Mary. Jesus’ love of Mary Magdalene Christianity, St Paul and the gospels Church of England Hell and the Church of England Circumstances of your life Each of you has a challenge which is the circumstance of your life Civilisation The bigger picture; human nature, the end of our civilisation; religion; what are you serving with your life? Closing off Q: I close off when my woman is angry Q: I have closed off to man; how do I start to be intimate with him? 41 Also listed under Side Date S1 S4 S3 Dec 94 Sep 98 Dec 96 Unhappiness Vandalism/Discipline/Boredom State of one S4 S3 S1 Dec 93 Sep 00 Apr 99 God/Love S1 Jul 93 Brain Pregnancy/Contraception Catholic faith Being/Past/Tummy/Making love Suffering/Partner/Ex wife/Guilt S1 S4 Apr 98 Sep 02 Therapies S1 May 95 Authority/Doubt Will/Wilfulness S4 S2 S4 Apr 97 Jun 00 Apr 95 Positivity/Happiness/Joy S4 Feb 00 S3 Apr 97 Jesus/God Jesus S4 S3 Sep 99 Sep 99 Religion S4 S4 Mar 96 Sep 00 Attachment/Jesus/The Gospels/ Mary Magdalene St Paul/The Gospels S2 S2 Sep 99 Dec 01 Hell S3 Feb 96 Challenge S3 Jun 00 Bigger picture/Human nature/ Service/Religion S1 Sep 01 Woman/Anger Intimacy S3 S4 Sep 97 Sep 97 Dying Action S1 S2 Dec 00 Jun 00 Side Date Earth/Art S2 Apr 97 Withdrawing S4 Mar 93 Love S1 Feb 94 Partner S2 Dec 98 S2 Sep 96 Most high S1 S4 Dec 94 May 95 Man S1 Jul 93 Life S2 Jan 93 Children/Emotion/ Humanity S4 Apr 95 Change S4 Dec 98 Force/Information Memory S3 S3 Feb 94 Jul 93 Honesty Truth/Love/Child(ren) Lovemaking S4 S4 S4 Dec 93 Dec 97 Apr 93 Like minded people S4 May 96 September 11 2001 S2 Sep 01 Freedom/Self Getting your life right/Acceptance Sex S3 S3 S3 Sep 96 Dec 98 Dec 96 Starving people/Wars S2 May 95 Also listed under Colour Abstract art, abstraction from the earth, colour Come forward Time to withdraw and time to come forward Comfort Love or comfort Commitment Q: How do you find a compatible partner? Is it a commitment? Woman with man who doesn’t want to commit himself exclusively to her Communication Divine spiritual correspondence: we are communicating through space/love Communion Communion and sensory activity Communion with the most high, not asking for anything Company Man alone: seeking company, knowing why Compare I cannot compare my life with another Compassion Facing emotion in young children; compassion and serving humanity Compromise Q: By asking a person to change, isn’t that asking them to compromise? Compromise and being obliged, especially with family Computers Computers, information and force World wide shortage of memory: computers Communication Honesty and right communication How to communicate truth and love to a child Verbal communication needs to match physical lovemaking Community Q: I find it beautiful to be with like minded people in a community Compassion Q: When I saw what happened there was nothing in me at all, is this a lack of compassion? Compromise Compromise; the only freedom is to be free of my self Getting your life right; compromise; accepting life as it is Q: If a woman is fully committed to giving up sex and her partner is only partly committed, should she compromise? Concentration camps Where all wars, starving people and concentration camps come from 42 Family S4 S4 Mar 99 Apr 97 Concepts Concepts and living what you know to be the truth Models and concepts People asking the question ‘what should I do?’ Living off concepts. Specific answers lead to contradictions: to get the idea behind the words is the solution The simplicity of truth and love. Concepts and ideas Conceptualising the teaching Conceptualising the teaching eg having ‘shoulds’ and ‘should nots’ Conditioning Q: childhood conditioning? You have no conditioning as long as you forgive everything Conflict Q: conflict between man and woman having different things to do and doing everything together Confusion and looking straight; life presenting conflicts Confusion Confusion and looking straight; life presenting conflicts Q: Is there a place for prayer to ask for help in states of confusion? Also listed under Cone of existence 43 Date S4 S4 Dec 97 Dec 97 S2 S1 Jun 99 Dec 97 S3 Apr 99 Forgiveness S3 Mar 96 Something to do S2 Feb 97 Conflict Prayer S3 S4 Dec 95 Sep 01 S1 S1 May 94 Jun 97 Intelligence Awareness Awareness Awareness Acknowledging the good Awareness Awareness Awareness/Time Speed of light Intelligence/Sensation Intelligence/Sleep S2 S1 S1 S1 S1 S4 S2 S4 S1 S1 S1 Sep 02 Jun 93 Feb 94 Dec 95 Sep 00 Feb 96 Sep 97 Dec 93 Dec 00 Dec 98 Feb 97 Stillness S2 S1 Feb 97 Sep 98 Living the truth Models What should I do?/ Specific answers/Contradictions/ Get the idea/Solutions Love/Truth/Ideas Confusion Condition Condition and conditions Q: What brought about this condition in the first place? Consciousness Q: Are intelligence and consciousness entirely separate? Awareness and consciousness Awareness and consciousness Awareness and consciousness in harmony Acknowledging the good expands your consciousness Consciousness and awareness Consciousness and awareness Consciousness and awareness in and out of time Consciousness exceeds the speed of light Consciousness, intelligence, sensation Consciousness and intelligence: there are no conclusions in consciousness, deep dreamless sleep Consciousness, meditation, being Consciousness and dropping the past Consciousness: process of making space and individual bodies Consciousness: stillness is the way Consciousness: every moment of your life is registered in consciousness Instinct, consciousness and awareness Q: Isn’t everything including emotion and expression of consciousness? Why do you need to say ‘I am enlightened’? It is pain that thinks. Consciousness knows that I am immortal Lift-off speed of consciousness Speed of consciousness, spirit You are provided with the master who fits your level of consciousness Side Being/Meditation Past Bodies Awareness/Instinct Emotion/Enlightenment Pain/Immortality Spirit Master S3 S4 S3 S4 S1 S4 Dec 95 Jan 94 Sep 94 Sep 96 Sep 00 Dec 01 S3 Mar 99 S3 Sep 94 S4 S3 S4 Sep 94 Sep 94 Jun 00 Side Date Illusion S2 Apr 95 The monitor S2 Mar 98 S3 Apr 02 Instinctual intelligence/Instinctual love S2 Feb 01 Pain S4 Sep 97 Longing S4 Mar 98 Children/Pregnancy S4 Sep 98 Concepts/Specific answers/ What should I do?/ Get the idea/Solutions S2 Jun 99 Manipulation/Children S4 Dec 95 Sex/Woman S4 Apr 97 Going into Me/Teaching S4 Dec 93 S1 Dec 95 S2 Jan 93 S1 May 95 Also listed under Confusion Breaking up old illusion and confusion Conscience The monitor; conscience Consequence Consequence of every thought, word and deed Consideration Instinctual intelligence, instinctual love and lack of consideration Containment Containment: you made this pain, now cop it! Content To be content; longing; thy will be done Contraception Q: Pregnancy, children, contraception: what do you teach? Contradictions People asking the question ‘what should I do?’ Living off concepts. Specific answers lead to contradictions: to get the idea behind the words is the solution Control Control and manipulation; children, pain of self Corruption Q: Is there sex in woman? What man has done to woman, generation after generation, from the beginning of the corruption Cosmos This teaching, going into Me: two hemispheres of one cosmos Course in Being End of Course in Being; being is a more responsible state than doing a course Courtesy Courtesy and politeness Politeness Creativity Feeling and creativity Cross of suffering Crusades Q: When religions engage in untruth, eg the crusades, why isn’t it self-evident that an evil is being perpetrated? Crying Q: When I have a good laugh or cry I feel better Cults East and West Cunning Feelings S4 S4 Evil/Religions/Untruth S4 Sep 00 Laughter S2 Dec 98 S3 Jan 93 S4 44 Jul 93 Sep 94 Apr 94 Also listed under Curiosity Curiosity: gossip at work Q: When I have a sense of love, my curiosity stops, does that make me stupid? Dad Getting it right with mum, dad and work Danger Sense of danger Dark passage Q: What is the intense dark passage between sleeping and waking which makes me emotional? Darshan Being with the master consciousness: darshan What is happening with these silences? Darshan, a state of being Daughter Q: How can I help my daughter who says she has been molested by my ex-husband? David and Bathsheba ‘The sacrifice to God is a broken spirit, a broken and a penitent heart’: story of David and Bathsheba Dead body Vital body or life body; seeing a dead body; excitement and passion Death All religions are a celebration of death Am I ready to die now? Being simple as I get closer to death Q: can you clarify what is the death of the self? Cyclic flow of death into living and living into death Death and depersonalising life Death of a father Death of a loved one Death of a parent Death of my partner, a wonderful thing for us both Death: psychic double Death should neither be mourned nor celebrated Death, suicide and karma Q: Do the personality and the self take time to die? Q: Does psychological death have to be painful? Explanation of death to a child Facing the fact: I am going to die; seeing through death Everybody departs or dies Feeling sadness when somebody dies Feeling sad when someone dies or partner leaves Four men in the teaching with cancer: facing death, the end of hope, dying without fear Q: I can still feel and smell the presence of my grandmother who died, but I don’t understand it Q: I can’t and don’t want to forget my mother who died. Q: I feel ready to die but also have some fears Q: I spend my day in the fear of death. Abandon all your beliefs and notions Q: Is there any good sorrow when someone dies? Q: Is there a process of re-evaluation after the death of a partner? Death is a purifying process 45 Side Date Gossip/Work Love S1 S3 S4 Mar 94 Dec 93 Feb 01 Mum/Work S2 Jan 93 S2 Mar 96 Emotions/Sleeping/Waking S3 Sep 98 Master consciousness Silence/Being S1 S1 May 96 Feb 96 Molestation S4 Dec 97 God/Broken spirit/Broken heart/Sacrifice S2 Sep 97 Life body/Vital body/ Excitement/Passion S1 Dec 98 S1 S2 S3 S1 S4 S2 S1 S4 S1 S4 S4 S3 S3 Feb 96 Dec 01 Jun 93 Dec 99 Feb 97 May 96 Feb 00 Sep 00 Aug 95 Feb 94 Sep 00 Apr 94 Sep 99 Sep 96 Mar 98 May 95 Mar 94 Mar 93 Sep 98 Dec 95 May 96 Jun 00 Religions Being simple Self Living Father Parent Partner Psychic double Suicide/Karma Self/Personality Child Facing the fact Sadness Partner/Sadness Dying/Cancer/Hope/Fear Grandmother Mother/Forget(ting) Fear Sorrow Partner S2 S4 S2 S4 S1 S2 S3 S1 S4 S3 S2 S3 S2 S4 Sep 00 May 96 Dec 00 Sep 97 Dec 98 Sep 00 Dec 94 Life here and after death May I speak to you of death? Men who have helped this teaching who have recently died May I speak to you of life? You are mortal because you worship death Q: My son was killed. Your tape on death gave me comfort. Still there is the sense in me of disbelief and horror. New teaching: I am doing well; illness, physical death, studying Reincarnation and recurrence; ignorance and the great intelligence; to die innocent Saying goodbye to parents; death of mother,writing and visiting Scientific mind and progress: the race from thefear of death The fact of death The pain of birth and the pain of death The purpose of existence and death The secret behind existence is death Q: When I die do I become God? When I’m going to sleep I seem to accelerate into the void and I’m afraid. Facing the deathenergy; hello silence my old friend When the body dies Q: When you talk about after death and coming back into the vital being, are you saying that this happens in a random way? Decisions Decisions and looking eg building a house Decisions and no choice Effort and effortlessness; give up making decisions Man changing jobs; stop making decisions; bring God into your life Also listed under Life Teaching Life/Mortality Son Illness/New teaching Recurrence/Innocence/Reincarnati on/Intelligence/Ignorance Mother/Saying goodbye Degradation of love Degradation of love: the word ‘fucking’. The art of love. Degradation of woman Homosexual carnival and the degradation of woman Democracy Woman: power, surrender, democracy 46 Dec 00 S1 Apr 97 S4 Apr 02 S1 S1 S4 Sep 01 Dec 95 Dec 95 Vital being S4 S4 Sep 94 Jun 99 Looking No choice Effort S4 S3 S2 Apr 97 Jul 93 Apr 97 World/God/Myth/Integrity S3 Jun 97 Fucking/Love S2 Dec 97 S2 Apr 97 Woman/Insecurity Woman S2 S3 Jan 93 Jun 93 Power/Surrender/Woman S1 Jan 94 S4 S3 S3 Apr 94 Apr 93 Apr 93 S3 Mar 99 Demons Demonic energy Facing externalised demons Q: How do I get rid of the demons in Me? Desire Q: I’ve been without a man for a year, it is good but desire rises occasionally. Woman’s desire to make love at the time of ovulation I have this desire to be understood by man. S1 S1 Birth/Pain Existence Existence God Void/Fear/Sleep Homosexual carnival Demand Woman: demand and insecurity Woman giving everything in love or being demanding? Date S3 S2 S3 S3 S1 S4 S2 Progress/Scientific mind/Fear God/Job Degeneration In the light of the degeneration in the world, isn’t God in charge of everything? The answer is in myth; integrity of God Side Making love/Ovulation Fitting & suiting/Platonic relation- S3 Sep 00 Mar 98 Dec 00 Dec 00 Apr 98 Feb 01 Apr 98 Apr 97 Also listed under ship/Understanding Fitting and suiting; platonic relationship Purpose of experience; wanting and desire Sivananda student, celibacy and control of the senses. Interpretation of the senses turns desire into wanting Detachment Detachment from partner when there’s a child; keep things practical; explain the truth of lifeto the child Diet Body cleansing and diet Difficulties Living in harmony: emotionalising difficulties turns them into problems Dilemma Dilemma: service versus in action Dirty work Q: Who is this thing that is transforming yourself? Is this intelligence within your volition? Can you explain God not doing the dirty work? Disease Degenerative disease: you’ve got to change your life Dishonesty Dishonesty in love; man loving more that one woman Discipline Vandalism: lack of discipline and boredom in children Disposition Predispositions; people are born with different dispositions Dissolving Dissolving momentum of work with partner Letter from woman about food: woman and food; woman is starved for love; the charade of man and woman’s love; imagination; sexual Disturbance Q: Illness caused by disturbance about business Divine Aligning with the divine will Giving attracts the divine will Q: As everything comes from this great divine consciousness, wouldn’t the evolution of the world be towards something better? Divine mind: pure intellect, purifying the mind Divine nature comes through your nature Divine will: God is not pernicious Divine will: harmony in all aspects of life The crossing: divine will and my will Divine life Q: Does the divine life include being by yourself and not being with a woman? Realising God out of existence and God in existence; celibacy; secrets 47 Wanting/Experience Interpretation/Celibacy/Sivananda student/Senses/Wanting Partner/Child/Practical Body Side Date S3 Sep 97 S2 Mar 98 S4 S3 S2 Dec 98 Mar 99 Sep 96 Living in harmony/Problems S1 Jun 98 Service/Inaction S2 Dec 95 Intelligence/God/Transformation S4 Dec 01 Change S1 Feb 97 Love S4 Jan 93 Children/Vandalism/Boredom S3 Sep 00 Predisposition S3 Dec 00 Work/Partner Food/Woman/Love/Imagination/Let ters/Sexual wanting S4 S3 Apr 93 Sep 02 Illness/Business S1 Mar 99 Will Giving/Will Evolution/World S3 S3 S4 Mar 93 Mar 93 Sep 96 Intellect/Mind Nature God Harmony/Will Will S2 S3 S4 S3 S4 Mar 93 Feb 97 Feb 96 Mar 93 Dec 94 Celibacy/Secrets/Being by yourself/God S4 Mar 98 Also listed under Divine sexuality Your divine sexuality is your passion for life Dogma Don’t make a dogma: live the truth Domestic violence The cause of domestic violence Doubt Choice, authority in your life, doubts Self doubt is self judgement Woman, rivalry and doubt Dread What you fear is coming; the dread of being born; the life process Drugs Choosing a lover from your self; you’ve got tobe practical; alcoholics and drug takers Helping people on drugs Dying Attachment to dying father Body dying with no fuss Dying; The primitive sacrifice of life Experience of being with someone who is dying Four men in the teaching with cancer: facing death, the end of hope, dying without fear Q: Have you anything to say about morphine when you are dying? How do you have a choice when you’re dying? Q: How can I be more giving with people who are dying? Earth Abstract art, abstraction from the earth, colour Acknowledging the good of the earth the good As man leaves woman he actually leaves the earth Attachment to the beauty of the earth Seeing God in everything: God is the beautyof the earth Space between earth and moon The earth and the world; scientists are driven by the world Perfection: the earth is perfect like your life Earthling I am an earthling; I have become a worldling Eastern and western culture Eastern culture is basically devotional; the western way of knowledge has degraded into knowing Eastern traditions Q: Confusion between eastern traditions of celibacy and this teaching of tantric love. You don’t need a celibate body, you need a celibate mind 48 Date Passion for life S2 Dec 97 Living the truth S1 Sep 98 Violence S3 Sep 00 Authority/Choice Judgement/Self doubt Rivalry/Woman S4 S1 S3 Apr 97 May 96 May 95 Fear/Life S1 Apr 95 Lover/Practical/Alcoholics/Self S3 Mar 98 Father/Dying Death/Cancer/Hope/Fear S3 S2 S2 S4 S1 Jun 93 Jun 93 Jan 93 May 96 Jun 00 Choice Dying S1 S2 Dec 00 Jun 01 Morphine S3 S4 Sep 97 Jun 02 Art/Colour Acknowledging Woman/Man Attachment/Beauty God Moon World/Scientists Perfection S2 S1 S3 S4 S1 S4 S3 S1 Apr 97 Sep 99 Sep 97 Apr 99 Sep 99 Apr 94 Mar 98 Sep 00 Wordling S1 Apr 97 S4 Feb 96 Mind S1 Apr 95 Celibacy/Tantric love S4 Apr 98 Eastern language Eastern teachers The still mind and Eastern teachers Side S1 Apr 95 Also listed under Effort Effort and effortlessness; give up making decisions Effort and effortlessness Decisions Effortless state It takes effort to reach the effortless state Side Date S2 S4 Apr 97 Apr 98 S3 Dec 01 S3 S1 S3 S1 Mar 98 Apr 94 Mar 98 Jun 93 Ego Clarification of ego and self; the capital ‘S’ higher self Ego and intelligence Ego and instinct Rightful place of the ego: protector of the natural body Self Intelligence Instinct Ejaculation Q: Do you say that man should never ejaculate when making love? Making love S4 Feb 00 Emotion S1 Apr 99 God/End of World S3 Jan 94 Political correctness/ Normal/Natural S3 Sep 97 Past/Thinking Water/Body S1 S4 Mar 93 Apr 99 S4 S4 Jul 93 Apr 95 Eighth wonder of the world S2 Elation Q: Is emotional elation also false? Electricity End of world: power of God and power of electricity Elimination of the female gender What is normal is not natural eg political correctness and the elimination of the female gender Emotion(s) All emotion is past; thinking arises from the past Q: As the human body is 80% water and water signifies emotion, is it natural for us to be emotional? Body without emotion Can you give up being moved by emotion? Emotions rising out of the stomach Emotionality in man Experience and emotion: we have to keep the experience and dismantle the emotion Facing and going through your particular emotions Facing emotion in young children; compassion and serving humanity Q: from 6 year old girl: can emotions die when the body dies or can they die when you are alive? Q: How do we dissolve emotions? Q: How do I get rid of my emotions? Q: If we don’t recognise out emotions, how can we free ourselves of them? Q: If you don’t express emotion is it gone or supressed? Q: If you’re emotional does that mean you can’tbe trusted? How do you overcome attachment? Q: I’m confused about feelings and emotions Q: I’m confused whether the partnership processis rightly bringing up emotion to be faced, or whether I’m with the wrong partner. If I love him why do I get irritated about small things? Q: Is love an emotion? Q: Is emotional elation also false? Q: Is it better to allow my emotions for a short period rather than trying to drop them immediately? Q: Is not expressing emotion and having the knowledge that I don’t want it, the same as dissolving it? 49 Body Stomach Experience Children/Compassion/ Humanity Girls Attachment Feelings Partnership/Irritation Love Elation S2 S1 S2 S3 S3 S2 S4 S2 S3 S1 S3 S2 S3 S2 S1 S4 S1 Aug 95 Dec 94 Dec 98 Apr 98 May 94 Feb 96 Feb 96 Apr 02 Sep 02 Sep 98 Dec 98 Dec 98 Sep 98 Dec 98 Feb 96 Apr 99 Jun 98 Dec 98 Q: Is physical pain and affliction caused by emotion? Q: Is there any way I can protect myself from the emotions of the dead? Q: Isn’t everything including emotion and expression of consciousness? Why do you need to say ‘I am enlightened’? Q: How do you help small children with their emotion? Love is cold to the world because emotion is warm Man and woman living in different houses: giving all or protecting emotions Q: The sensation in my body that wants to rise, is it emotion? Q: What is the intense dark passage between sleeping and waking which makes me emotional? When a woman is not loved enough she gets emotional When you deal with your emotions, you do a deal with them Q: Where emotion comes from Why am I emotional? Emotional and mental pain Emotional and mental pain goes into the psyche: the solution is to want nothing Emotional sensation Being here; what is true in your experience;the pure sensation of the body; emotional sensation; addiction End of world End of world: power of God and power of electricity Q: Is the end of the world still approaching? Energy Containing exalted energy Letter from a man: Do healers and therapists need to be cautious because the energy of their patients can enter them? Wasting energy: you know what you should give up Also listed under Dec 96 Feb 96 Children Love Giving/Man & woman S3 S3 S4 May 96 Sep 99 Apr 93 Dark passage/Sleeping/Waking S3 Sep 98 Consciousness/Enlightenment Body/Sensation Woman S2 S3 S2 S2 S1 Dec 01 Jun 02 Dec 98 Feb 96 Dec 98 Mar 93 S2 Jun 98 Being here/Addiction/ Experience/Sensation S1 Sep 02 Electricity/God S2 S1 Jan 94 Apr 99 S2 S1 Sep 94 Mar 99 S3 Mar 93 S3 Apr 99 S2 May 96 S1 Aug 95 Buddhism S1 Apr 02 Consciousness/Emotion S4 S4 Dec 95 Dec 01 Cancer/Fear/Self doubt Enlightened state In enlightened state there is no feeling and no thought 50 S4 Psyche Enjoying yourself Enjoying yourself too much Enlightenment Buddhism, looking for enlightenment and trying to free everyone Can science enlighten us? ‘Us’ can never be enlightened Enlightenment of the burden of feelings Enlightenment: independence has to be given up Enlightenment: if you seek you will not find; you become enlightened by becomin natural, ordinary Everybody is enlightened Q: Isn’t everything including emotion and expression of consciousness? Why do you need to say ‘I am enlightened’? Living is the process of enlightenment State of enlightenment: level playing field State of enlightenment is no feelings and no thoughts Date S4 S2 Pain Healers/Therapists/Letters/Patients Enlightened master(s) Q: As an enlightened master did you have fear or self doubt when you found you had cancer? Why I don’t meet enlightened masters Side Science Feelings Independence S1 S2 S1 S1 S2 S2 S4 S2 Sep 98 Jun 97 Apr 95 Feb 97 Dec 96 Aug 95 Mar 94 Dec 95 Also listed under Entities A foolish letter: discarnate entities Envy Jealousy: the fundamental difficulty in love between man and woman. Envy. Indifference.Living a lie May 96 Letter S2 Mar 94 Jealousy/Indifference/Living a lie S3 Sep 99 S4 Sep 01 S2 Feb 01 Crusades/Religions/Untruth S4 Sep 00 Divine/World S4 Sep 96 Involution Thought S4 S1 Feb 01 Sep 94 Suffering/Partner/Guilt/Children S4 Sep 02 Lovemaking/Thought/Past/Sexualit y/Now S3 Dec 97 Attachment/Sports Pleasure/Lovemaking Life body/Dead body/Vital body/Passion S3 S3 S1 Jun 93 Monks/Spiritual life S2 Sep 96 Ascending your mountain Gods Experience S3 S4 S1 Apr 95 Sep 00 Sep 98 S1 S4 Feb 94 Dec 93 Equilibrium Escape Q: Why do I want to escape from this place? Eternity Q: Who is aware or the self in the belly? Mind, psyche, spirit and eternity; man-hood and woman-hood Evil Q: When religions engage in untruth, eg the crusades, why isn’t it self-evident that an evil is being perpetrated? Evolution Q: As everything comes from this great divine consciousness, wouldn’t the evolution of the world be towards something better? Evolution and involution Human evolution: end of thought Ex wife Q: What can I do about my guilt regarding the suffering of my partner’s ex wife and his children? Excitement Q: How do I know I am not pleasing my self in lovemaking? Thought and excitement are the past and pure sexuality is now Men’s excitement in watching sports on TV, breaking attachment Pleasure and excitement in lovemaking Vital body or life body; seeing a dead body;excitement and passion Exercise Monks, exercise and the spiritual life Existence Ascending your mountain and coming down into existence Q: Did the gods create existence? Existence is about undergoing experience: how can you understand if you haven’t undergone? Existence is the place of suffering Lighting up my potential: the purpose behind existence The purpose of existence and death The secret behind existence is death There is no gender outside existence Two things in existence that don’t change Where is love in existence? Experience Addresses 8 year old: learning from experience; Q: Can you destroy the self? 51 Date S4 Knowing whatyou don’t want You can’t make a decision to be enlightened: you must know what you don’t want Side Mind/Psyche/Belly/Spirit/Manhood/Self/Woman-hood Suffering Potential Death Death Gender Love Children/Self S4 S3 S1 S1 S3 S1 S2 S1 S1 May 94 Apr 98 Dec 97 Dec 98 Apr 99 Sep 94 Dec 00 Apr 98 Dec 00 Mar 99 Dec 99 Being here; what is true in your experience;the pure sensation of the body; emotional sensation; addiction Earthly experience: waves of self Existence is about undergoing experience: how can you understand if you haven’t undergone? Experience and emotion: we have to keep the experience and dismantle the emotion Experience is supposed to teach you about love: to demonstrate what you do not want Feedback, fulfillment, absence of experience Looking for experience in lovemaking Purpose of experience; wanting and desire Repeating experience; attachment to the experience of love; why did I get my heart broken? Extra terrestrial intelligence Mass cult suicide and ETI: I cannot judge it Also listed under Being here/Sensation/Emotional sensation/Addiction Self Existence Emotion Love/What you do not want Feedback/Fulfillment Lovemaking Wanting/Desire Attachment/Love/Broken heart Facing the fact I am going to die; seeing through death Facing the pain What happens to a man when a woman of consciousness leaves him; facing the pain Faith Faith, gnostics Falsehoods Philosophies and falsehoods; leaving the senses; videogames Familiarity Q: I don’t seem to be going as deep as I want to go into love; familiarity Family Compromise and being obliged, especially with family Past and family Family life Q: As a single mother it is difficult to get order into family life without yelling? The genius of being a mother Father and son Q: Do you see a special relationship between father and son? Father of lights Gloria, gloria, God is light; light behind the sun; the father of 52 S1 Sep 02 S3 Feb 96 S3 S1 S1 S2 S2 S4 S3 Mar 94 Sep 98 Dec 97 Jun 93 Jun 93 Dec 98 Jun 97 Dec 93 Apr 97 S4 Jan 94 Death S4 Mar 93 Woman’s consciousness S1 Jun 00 Gnostics S2 Mar 94 Philosophies/Videogames S2 Apr 95 Love S3 Mar 98 Compromise Past S4 S2 Apr 97 Sep 94 Mother/Single mother S2 Dec 98 S3 Sep 96 Mother/Relationships S4 Dec 98 Relationship S4 Jun 01 Gloria/God/Sun/Bushel over our S3 Apr 02 Fasting Father Q: Are your mother and father a good microcosm of your relationships? Attachment to dying father Authority of master consciousness: the loving father Death of a father Q: I have had severe neck pain for a year: difficulties with father Date S2 S4 Suicide/Judge(ment) Facing Q: Moving or staying and facing? Side Attachment/Dying Master consciousness Death Pain S3 S2 S4 S2 Jun 93 Apr 95 Sep 00 Jun 98 lights; God immanent and transcendental; the bushel over our light Fear Q: As an enlightened master did you have fear or self doubt when you found you had cancer? Q: Being a woman with my nature of love, I have a fear of not being able to support myself with work Facing fear is the way through fear Fear has no body Q: I have a fear of inner space Fear of not having enough to retire on Fear of nothing; Buddha facing his sexuality and nothing arising Four men in the teaching with cancer: facing death, the end of hope, dying without fear Q: How can I go deeper in making love without cutting off out of fear? Q: I spend my day in the fear of death. Abandon all your beliefs and notions Scientific mind and progress: the race from the fear of death What you fear is coming; the dread of being born; the life process When I’m going to sleep I seem to accelerate into the void and I’m afraid. Facing the death energy; hello silence my old friend Woman’s attachment or man’s fear of love? Fear of woman Man overcoming self consciousness and fear of woman Feedback Feedback, fulfillment, absence of experience Feelings Asking the right question when looking at feelings Being true to your feelings; love is not a feeling Being true to the situation and going against my feelings Believing in feelings Q: Do people who have not been in touch with feelings need to express them? Enlightenment of the burden of feelings Feeling and creativity Feeling is the source of thought Feelings: in the state of being you can’thave any feelings Feeling, the feeling and knowledge Feeling and psychic knowledge Feelings come from interpreting my life Feelings in the gut Feelings mean you are not taking action Give up suffering, stop considering your feelings Q: I always thought feeling was something good and could be trusted? Direct knowledge and interpretation Q: I’m confused about feelings and emotions Interpretation of feelings, likes and dislikes Self consideration, selfishness, feelings Sensations and feelings, making love Sensation, making love, feeling and boredom Stop acknowledging your feelings Suppressing feelings and knowing what you are doing Ten year old girl asks about feelings when someone is murdered There is no need to express feelings ever again You have to go through feelings 53 Also listed under light Cancer/Enlightened master/Self doubt Woman/Work Inner space Retire(ing) Buddha/Fear/Nothingarising/Sexua lity Death/Hope/Cancer Making love Death Progress/Scientific mind/Death Dread/Life Void/Sleep/Death Side Date S2 May 96 S3 S3 S4 S3 S3 Dec 95 Mar 94 Feb 01 Dec 93 Jun 93 S4 S1 S4 S3 S3 S1 S2 Feb 01 Jun 00 Mar 98 Sep 97 Sep 00 Apr 95 Apr 98 Attachment/Love S3 Dec 93 Self consciousness/Man S4 Jan 94 Fulfillment/Experience S2 Jun 93 S3 S1 S4 S2 S4 Aug 95 Apr 95 Apr 95 Apr 95 Aug 95 S2 S3 S1 S2 S3 S1 S2 S2 Sep 98 Apr 95 Dec 93 Dec 95 Apr 95 Apr 95 Apr 95 Dec 95 Love is not a feeling Being true to the situation Enlightenment Creativity State of being Knowledge Psychic knowledge Taking action Suffering Knowledge Emotions Likes & dislikes Selfishness/Self consideration Sensation/Making love Making Love/Boredom/Sensation Murder/Girl S1 S4 S4 S1 S4 S4 S3 S1 S1 S1 S4 S3 S1 Apr 95 Sep 94 Aug 95 Mar 96 Sep 94 Apr 95 Aug 95 Jun 01 Aug 95 Dec 95 Sep 96 Aug 95 Aug 95 Also listed under What can I do, not what do I feel Q: Without feelings what about intimacy? Female The female in woman is grace Fiancee Q: I want to write to my former fiancee as part of getting my life right Fight(ing) Fight and argument; living the truth; the mind and the human condition Letter about harmony and fighting. You shouldn’t try to teach each other Fighter pilots Q: How do women handle being fighter pilots when they menstruate? Fitting and suiting I have this desire to be understood by man. Fitting and suiting; platonic relationship Flesh Being together in love and merging in the flesh Intelligence in matter; bringing up the speed of the flesh Followers Tradition: I have no followers Food Cooking food Food and sex Letter from woman about food: woman and food; woman is starved for love; the charade of man and woman’s love; imagination; sexual Substituting food for love Force Computers, information and force Forget(ting) Q: I can’t and don’t want to forget my mother who died. I don’t remember, but I never forget Forgiveness Q: childhood conditioning? You have no conditioning as long as you forgive everything S1 S2 Apr 95 Dec 95 Woman/Grace S1 Apr 02 Getting my life right S4 Mar 99 Argument/Truth/Mind/Human condition Harmony/Letters/Teaching S1 Jun 97 Menstruation/Woman S2 Sep 99 Desire/Understanding/Platonic relationship S3 Sep 97 Love Intelligence/Matter S1 S3 Feb 97 May 96 Tradition S3 Feb 96 S4 S4 Sep 00 Feb 94 S3 S4 Sep 02 Jan 94 Computers/Information S3 Feb 94 Mother/Death Remembering S3 S1 May 96 Dec 01 S4 Sep 94 S3 Love S3 S2 S4 Sep 96 Life S4 Dec 01 Sex Letters/Woman/Love/ Imagination/Dissolving/ Sexual wanting Love Forty years Man’s climacteric: 40 years Compromise/Self Life/Person 54 Date Intimacy Conditioning Freedom Compromise; the only freedom is to be free of my self Freedom: what it is to be free Impersonal life, giving up the person, freedom Q: Is it right that you can only really live love if you are already living in a state of total freedom? Freedom (contd) Q: Life constantly gives me situations to show me where I’m not free Side S4 S4 S3 Apr 98 Jan 94 Mar 96 Aug 95 Aug 95 Jun 98 Friends Friends talking about the past Q: I’ve made friends with myself and now it doesn’t matter to me what my partner does Q: We’ve virtually got no friends left…is this OK? Friendship Q: Is my friendship with a man preventing from being open to another relationship? Front line Putting women in the front line Fucking Degradation of love: the word ‘fucking’. The art of love. Fulfillment Feedback, fulfillment, absence of experience Gatekeeper You are the gatekeeper: allowing in the living dead continued… Gazing Q: When you gaze around looking at people, what are you doing? Gender There is no gender outside existence Genesis Genesis: seventh day within Genetics Q: Is instinctual intelligence linked to genetics? Get the idea People asking the question ‘what should I do?’ Living off concepts. Specific answers lead to contradictions: to get the idea behind the words is the solution Getting it right/Getting my(your) life right Q: Can there be joy in getting my life right? Getting it right at the beginning of a relationship Getting my life right Getting your external life right Getting your life right; compromise; accepting life as it is Getting your life right Q: I am a pregnant single mother, how can I get my life right? Q: I want to write to my former fiancee as part of getting my life right Guided by situation not feelings Letter: My life is right, but what do I do now? Looking, thinking, ignoring, facing, freeing the cell of poison With mum, dad and work Getting involved Q: How can I not get involved with other people’s stories? Girls Addresses young girls 10 – 12 years: the nature of woman and being true to love Addresses young girls: real wedding vows 55 Also listed under Side Date Past Myself/Partner S3 S4 Dec 95 Sep 02 Relationship S4 Jun 01 Woman S2 Jun 01 Degradation of love/Love S2 Dec 97 Feedback/Experience S2 Jun 93 Living dead S3 S4 Dec 94 Dec 94 Looking S4 Dec 98 Existence S2 Dec 00 S1 May 94 Instinctual intelligence S4 Feb 01 Concepts/Solutions/Specific answers/Contradictions/ What should I do? S2 Jun 99 S3 S4 S2 S4 S3 S3 S4 Dec 93 Sep 97 Jan 94 Jun 93 Dec 98 Dec 01 Apr 99 Mum/Dad/Work S4 S1 S3 S2 Jan 93 Mar 99 Dec 95 Jan 93 Other people’s stories S4 Apr 99 Woman/Love S3 Jan 93 Relationship Compromise/Acceptance Single mother Fiancee Letters Wedding vows S2 S4 S4 Mar 96 Mar 99 Dec 93 Finding joy of young girl after 55 year destructive relationship Q: from 6 year old girl: can emotions die when the body dies or can they die when you are alive? Q: from 6 year old girl: why do people say it’s bad when it is raining? Ten year old girl asks about feelings when someone is murdered Giving Giving attracts the divine will Giving or indulgence: listening to the sad story Giving: the solution to every problem God is giving Q: How can I be more giving with people who are dying? I must give what I need Man and woman living in different houses: giving all or protecting emotions Negativity: not giving Pure intellect, the will, willingness to give Right giving with honesty and clarity Wanting and giving, taking and receiving Also listed under Joy Emotion Murder/Feelings Gloria Gloria, gloria, God is light; light behind the sun; the father of lights; God immanent and transcendental; the bushel over our light Glory Passion, glory, the timeless Gnostics Faith, gnostics Goals Goals and purpose, actualizing potential Goals, purpose, love Goal setting God All of my life is my God Q: Are you saying that on my own I can’t find God? Be still and know that I am God; the most unhappy people on earth are the busiest people Broken heart: putting man before God Christ and Jesus. Do not particularise: there is only God Divine will: God is not pernicious Q: Do I have the love of God in me? Q: Does the divine life include being by yourself and not Aug 95 S3 Feb 96 S2 S2 Feb 96 Dec 95 Mar 93 Dec 93 Negativity Intellect/Will S4 S3 S2 S3 May 94 Mar 93 Mar 93 Mar 93 Problem(s) God Dying Need Man & Woman/Emotions Wanting/TakingReceiving S2 S3 S2 S4 S4 Mar 93 Mar 93 Jun 01 Mar 93 Apr 93 S3 Jan 94 S3 S4 Mar 94 Apr 98 Ecstasy/Equilibrium S3 S2 S4 Jan 93 Jan 93 Jul 93 Bushel over our light/Father of lights/God/Sun S3 Apr 02 Passion/The timeless S4 Dec 99 Faith S2 Mar 94 Purpose/Potential Love/Purpose S1 S3 S2 Sep 94 Feb 94 Sep 94 S3 S4 S4 Mar 93 Sep 98 Feb 96 S4 S4 S4 Feb 96 Apr 98 Mar 98 Miracles/Psychic/Occult Be still/Unhappiness Broken heart Jesus/Christ Divine 56 S4 S3 S2 Love/Wimp Glamour Glamour, ecstasy and equilibrium Flowing gowns in the ashram Psychic ability, the occult, glamour and miracles Date Divine/Will Indulgence/The sad story Giving and giving in Giving up Giving up intensity Q: How can I love more and give up everything without being a wimp? Side Divine life/Celibacy/Secrets/Being S4 S4 May 94 Sep 99 being with a woman? Realising God out of existence and God in existence; celibacy; secrets Don’t fall in love with your work; stay detached by being grateful to God End of world: power of God and power of electricity Everything that you enjoy is God; God is the lot, the whole Fixed stars: ideas in the mind of God Get rid of the agencies between you and God Giving up to God my ideas of who I am Gloria, gloria, God is light; light behind the sun; the father of lights; God immanent andtranscendental; the bushel over our light God can’t enter your body while unhappiness us in you God has no opposite; beauty is your own state God immanent and God transcendental God is whole: when you particularise God you must suffer God is truth: What is truth? God in existence and God out of existence: God in existence is love and God out of existence is truth; realising God in and out of existence God in existence in man and woman God: intelligence and the human brain God is beauty, my being is beauty God is giving God’s mind, man’s mind God, the embodiment in matter God, take whatever is necessary to make me more pure. Can you say it? Grace: the will of God Q: How can woman put God before man? Q: How does woman put God first before her man? Human body is God’s vehicle I am God mad; good morning God; God is everything; I love the whole; give thanks every moment to God I am God realised, not God Q: I experience God in woman but it is not always in me when the external reflection of woman is absent I have realised God. Priests are interpreters Q: If inner space isn’t God, what is? In the light of the degeneration in the world, isn’t God in charge of everything? The answer is in myth; integrity of God In God’s mind there is no negativity, only the good with no opposite Love and the mystery, love God first Man and woman are made in God’s image Man changing jobs; stop making decisions; bring God into your life Putting God first Seeing God in everything: God is the beauty of the earth Simplicity is the character of God The difference between the Lord and God The first object of my teaching is to realise God within, outside of existence The greatest love is gratitude to God The mind of God; if there are no senses there is no universe Truth and love, two aspects of God I have realised: God splits itself to know itself Two aspects of God: personal God of the religions; impersonal God and the matrix Use of the word God and concepts of God; religions and poetry; seeing things straight; the truth detailed for these times 57 Also listed under by yourself Side Date S2 Dec 96 S2 Sep 98 Pure S4 S1 S1 S3 S1 S1 S1 May 94 Dec 94 Dec 96 Mar 93 Jan 94 Feb 96 Apr 97 Woman S1 S2 Jan 94 Jun 99 Negativity/Good S4 Dec 97 Lord Barry Long’s teaching S1 S1 S1 S3 S3 Jun 01 Sep 99 Feb 96 Apr 98 Sep 98 Religions/The matrix S3 Work End of world/Electricity Stars Agencies Ideas Bushel over our light/Father of lights/Gloria/Sun Body/Unhappiness Beauty Particularising Truth Brain/Intelligence Beauty/Being Giving Man Grace Woman Woman Body Priests Inner space Degeneration/World/Myth/Integrity Mystery/Love Job/Decisions Earth Love Universe Love/Truth Religions/Poetry/Straightness/Trut h S3 S1 S2 S3 S4 S3 S1 S1 S1 S1 S1 S4 S4 S1 S3 S1 S3 S3 S3 S1 S3 S3 S2 S4 S3 S2 Jan 94 Feb 01 Apr 93 Jun 99 Dec 98 Apr 02 Dec 96 Jun 99 Jun 01 Jun 97 Sep 97 Jun 01 Aug 95 May 96 Mar 94 Apr 02 Sep 99 Feb 01 Jun 97 Dec 01 Sep 98 Apr 97 Feb 01 May 96 Dec 97 Jun 02 Jun 97 What is God? Q: When I die do I become God? Q: Why is art often so ugly? Praise of pain or praise of God Q: Who is this thing that is transforming yourself? Is this intelligence within your volition? Can you explain God not doing the dirty work? Woman is God in female form. Man is God in male form. The way to see God in form is to love. Woman putting children before God: not giving in to sentimental love God realisation Degrees of God realisation Levels of God realisation The psyche and the different levels of God realisation Q: What about God realisation? Also listed under Going cold Going cold; absence Going into Me (As well as those listed here, there are other periods of silence called Going into Me throughout the talks) A place of non existence A sacred place, I the subject disappears Acknowledgment Aligning myself rightly with the id Be the nothing Being is the life of every creature on earth (11 mins silence) Beginning of freedom and liberation being, the will, no need Blessed relief of not having to be anything Beyond creating, I am eternal Coming home Crossing the point of the triangle, leaving the world of awareness Delusion, clarity of intelligence, children going into Me, the blackness, one with nature Each has a place guaranteed by the grand order of things Emptiedness, facing nothing Enjoying the egoic breath Feeling of intelligence, sinking without fear Giving God what God wants: What do you want? What would I put before all else? Going into the unknown Hold on to nothing, let go, into the unknown I am being, no movement of mind I am free Into the black hole, the moment before the big bang Into this place, abandoning position, this will strengthen you Into this place of absence Knowledge of peace, a place of no position Looking at nothing Looking into Me, the formless, looking with intelligence and with feeling Looking into dark starless inner space, coming home Looking without and within, where mind gets the power to see straight, coming home My place of being Object and subject disappear, seeing through the speaker and existence Place of God (15 mins silence) Place of nothing, no trying, the radix 58 Date S3 S4 S4 S4 Apr 97 Feb 01 Mar 96 Dec 01 S2 Dec 97 S1 S1 S3 S3 S4 Feb 96 Dec 99 Feb 01 Jun 00 Feb 01 Existence S4 Sep 00 Absence S2 Sep 96 S4 Jun 93 Death Pain/Art Intelligence/Dirty work/ Transformation Woman/Man/Love Woman/Love Psyche Gods Q: Did the gods create existence? Side S1 S4 S2 S2 S2 S2 S1 S1 S4 S4 S1 S3 S1 S3 S2 S1 S2 S1 S3 S1 S2 S1 S2 S1 S4 S2 S1 S4 S3 S1 S3 S3 S3 S3 Jul 93 Apr 95 Jan 93 Feb 94 May 94 Apr 94 Dec 95 Dec 93 Mar 94 Jan 93 May 94 Jan 94 Jan 94 May 95 Mar 94 Jun 93 Jan 94 Jul 93 Apr 93 Sep 94 Jun 93 Sep 94 Dec 93 Jan 93 Jul 93 Apr 95 Jun 93 Dec 93 Feb 94 Mar 93 Dec 94 Mar 93 Dec 95 Mar 94 Place where nothing begins continued Reflect on Me, the holy one, the innocent one Releasing new energy, living the truth Returning to where I come from Sink into nothing, intimations of the psychic double, consciousness and the senses Six minutes silence Taking out the world and giving you nothing The absence of myself, my natural place, a sensational place The East, no form, going into silence, gratitude The point of eternity, bring the two hemispheres together ‘The sacrifice to God is a broken spirit, a broken and a penitent heart’: story of David and Bathsheba The vital, where there are no prisoners, love seeks nothing for itself (11 mins of silence) There is more good than not good (10 mins of silence) This is what I love (7 mins silence) This teaching, going into Me: two hemispheres of one cosmos Through the looking glass, the other side of the mirror To the universal place (5 mins silence) With eyes open Good In God’s mind there is no negativity, only the good with no opposite Gossip Curiosity: gossip at work Gnostic masters Power of being: the gnostic masters and martial arts Grace Grace Grace and love Grace: the will of God Teenagers practising grace The female in woman is grace Q: What is grace? Grandmother Q: I can still feel and smell the presence of my grandmother who died, but I don’t understand it Gratitude Gratitude for the teaching What benediction did you receive today? Gratitude Woman: heavy-heartedness; the deep past in her; woman is nothing; gratitude for her life Greed Western world believes only in greed and material gain Also listed under Sacrifice/Broken spirit/Broken heart/David & Bathsheba Growing old Purpose of life and growing old Dec 94 Dec 94 Apr 94 Mar 93 Mar 94 Apr 94 S3 S4 S2 Jan 93 May 94 Sep 97 S1 S2 S2 S4 S1 S3 S3 Aug 95 Jan 93 Apr 95 May 95 May 95 Dec 95 Dec 93 Apr 93 Aug 95 Apr 95 Negativity/God S4 Dec 97 Curiosity/Work S3 Dec 93 Being/Martial arts S4 Dec 96 Love God Teenagers Woman/Female S1 S4 S4 S2 S1 S4 Feb 94 Jan 93 Jun 01 Feb 94 Apr 02 May 95 Death S4 Sep 00 S4 S3 Apr 99 Mar 98 S2 Dec 01 S3 Sep 00 S1 Mar 94 Benediction Heavy-heartedness/ Past/Woman Purpose 59 Date S1 S2 S1 S2 S1 S3 S2 S4 S1 Western world/Material gain Grief Grief comes from ignorance Side S3 Jun 97 Also listed under Grumpiness Grumpiness in the morning; love stirring up the past Guilt Q: Does one have to feel guilty if the mind takes one into self indulgence? Q: What can I do about my guilt regarding the suffering of my partner’s ex wife and his children? Q: Where does guilt come from? Sep 97 S4 May 95 Self indulgence S2 Dec 97 Anxiety/Brain Living dead S1 S1 Dec 94 Dec 94 Astrology/Truth S3 Jun 01 Unhappiness Positivity/Joy/Choicelessness S4 S4 Dec 93 Feb 00 Birthdays/Children S2 Apr 95 S4 Jun 02 Divine/Will Letters/Fighting/Teaching S3 S4 Mar 93 Apr 98 Letters/Therapists/Energy/Patients S1 Mar 99 Pain/Me S4 Mar 96 Living the truth/Knowing/Realising S1 Feb 00 Solar plexus Wilfulness S4 S3 S3 S3 Jan 93 May 94 May 94 May 94 Psychic freedom/Psychic stoke S1 May 05 S2 Dec 99 S1 S3 S4 Apr 94 Apr 94 Apr 94 Suffering/Partner/Ex wife/Children Guru Guru: freeing human brain of anxiety Guru: getting rid of the forces of the living dead Hand reading The truth behind astrology, hand reading etc Happiness Happiness or absence of unhappiness Q: How do you reconcile the choicelessness of accepting things as they are, with the pursuit of joy, positivity and happiness? Q:If I learn to be me, will I be happy all the time? Birthdays and children Hard lives Q: It appears that some people have harder lives than others, is this true? Harmony Divine will: harmony in all aspects of life Letter about harmony and fighting. You shouldn’t try to teach each other Healer(s) Letter from a man: Do healers and therapists need to be cautious because the energy of their patients can enter them? Physical pain: the great healer is Me Hearing Hearing, knowing, realising and then living the truth Heart Broken, organic, human, pure of heart The two hearts: organic and cosmic Solar plexus: the cosmic heart Wilfulness: a contrite heart Heart attack Psychic freedom, psychic stroke and heart attack Heart centre Q: I find it difficult to come into my heart centre Heaven(s) Mind and first heaven The heavens The heavens Mind 60 Date S4 Love/Past Guardian of the threshold Turning towards home and facing the guardian of the threshold Side S4 S4 Sep 02 Dec 97 Side Date Woman/Past/Gratitude S3 Jun 97 Church of England Self/Underworld S3 S1 Feb 96 Apr 93 Celibacy S4 Mar 99 Innocence S1 Jun 02 Life/Vitality S2 Mar 93 Degradation of woman S2 Apr 97 Self/Being here/Stone age S2 Feb 97 Love S4 S2 S2 Jun 01 Apr 97 Aug 95 Communication Partnership Anger Me/Self/Troublemaker Truth/Self S4 S3 S4 S1 S1 S1 Dec 93 Jun 93 Apr 95 Mar 98 Mar 93 Dec 97 Death/Cancer/Fear S1 S1 Dec 00 Jun 00 Children/Compassion/ Emotion S4 Apr 95 Beings S2 S3 Sep 96 Jun 00 Argument/Truth/Mind/Fight S1 Jun 97 Also listed under Heavy-heartedness Woman: heavy-heartedness; the deep past in her; woman is nothing; gratitude for her life Hell Hell and the Church of England My self, demons of the underworld, facing myself Hindu religion Celibacy and the Hindu religion Holding nothing against anyone Innocence is to hold nothing against anyone Holy war Home Returning home; new vitality in your life Homosexual carnival Homosexual carnival and the degradation of woman Homosexual love Q: I am having trouble being here. Loving your self, homosexual love, you cannot love everyone, loving the whole, I come from beyond the stone age Homosexuality Homosexuality and love Homosexual boy aged 13 Political correctness: eliminating man and woman; homosexuality Political correctness Honesty Honesty and right communication Honesty before love Honesty in partnership If ever you are angry, you are not being honest Me, the source of honesty; my self, the troublemaker Truth begins with honesty: are you honest in love or are you indulging yourself? Hope Hope comes from having a future Four men in the teaching with cancer: facing death, the end of hope, dying without fear Humanity Facing emotion in young children; compassion and serving humanity Human beings Human beings have to evolve into beings What it is like to be a human being here on earth Human condition Fight and argument; living the truth; the mind and the human condition Human condition and state of love The human condition: seeking a cure, giving it up; getting the power to overcome the human condition; giving up useless chat 61 State of love Useless chat S1 S2 S1 Sep 01 Sep 97 Jun 97 Side Date S2 Jun 97 S3 S1 Jun 99 Sep 01 Animals/Loss S2 Dec 95 Laughter S4 May 95 Man/Woman/Menopause S2 Jun 01 Truth/ Self/Spoiler S1 S1 Apr 99 Apr 99 Son S3 Apr 02 S3 May 94 God Love/Concepts/Truth S4 S1 Dec 98 Dec 97 Killing/Mourn S1 Mar 96 Disturbance/Business New teaching/Death S2 S1 S1 Feb 00 Mar 99 Dec 95 Advaita Confusion S2 S2 Sep 00 Apr 95 Consciousness/Pain S3 Mar 99 Now/Angels Romance Food/Woman/Love/Letters/Dissolvi ng/Sexual wanting S3 S2 S3 Dec 96 Dec 00 Sep 02 S1 S1 Mar 99 Mar 96 Also listed under Human existence Walking from left to right: the symbol of human existence Human nature Human nature keeps going into what hurts The bigger picture; human nature, the end of our civilisation; religion; what are you serving with your life? Humans Sensation of loss in animals and humans Humour Reason for humour and laughter Hysterectomy Q: How can a man help a woman through menopause and hysterectomy? I I am the truth and the false self is the spoiler The real I and the false I Ice cream My son and ice cream I don’t tell people what to do Walking Bigger picture/Civilisation/Religion/ Service Id Encountering the id Ideas Giving up to God my ideas of who I am The simplicity of truth and love. Concepts and ideas Ignorance Dunblane killing of schoolchildren: looking deepe than the events; to mourn is human ignorance Reincarnation and recurrence; ignorance and the great intelligence; to die innocent Illness Do not fight illness Q: Illness caused by disturbance about business New teaching: I am doing well; illness, physical death, studying Illusion Advaita and illusion Breaking up old illusion and confusion Immortality It is pain that thinks. Consciousness knows that I am immortal Imagination Angels, imagination and wanting: only now is real Imagination and romance Letter from woman about food: woman and food; woman is starved for love; the charade of man and woman’s love; imagination; sexual Immortality Spiritual realisations: being is the source of realisations; the realisation of immortality takes all fear away 62 Recurrence/Death/Reincarnation/ Intelligence/Innocence Spiritual realisations S2 S4 Apr 02 Apr 02 Also listed under Immunisation Q: Immunisation for children In action Dilemma: service versus in action Sep 02 S2 Dec 95 S4 Apr 98 S2 Sep 97 Enlightenment Letters/Surrender S1 S4 Feb 97 Apr 98 Envy/Jealousy/Living a lie S3 Sep 99 Giving/The sad story Self/Selfishness/ Isolation/Love S2 S3 Dec 93 Apr 97 Computers/Force S3 Feb 94 S4 S4 Jun 98 Jun 98 S4 Sep 01 S3 Apr 95 Holding nothing against anyone Recurrence/Death/Ignorance/Intelli gence/Reincarnation S1 S4 Jun 02 Apr 02 Anger Practicality S3 S2 Jan 94 Mar 98 Realisations S3 May 95 Indispensable people The cemetery is filled with indispensable people Independence Enlightenment: independence has to be given up Letter from man: How can I surrender my independence? Indifference Jealousy: the fundamental difficulty in love between man and woman. Envy. Indifference.Living a lie Indulgence Giving or indulgence: listening to the sad story Indulgence and the selfishness of living in isolation; overcoming self to give love Information Computers, information and force Injury Q: I am having a lot of difficulty coming to terms with a car crash injury Experience of chronic injury Inner guidance Q: What about my inner guidance? Inner perception Inner perception: washing machine inside Inner space Q: I have a fear of inner space Q: If inner space isn’t God, what is? Inner space: the mirror The king of inner space Q: What is the effect on inner space of having a loved one? Innocence Innocence is to hold nothing against anyone Reincarnation and recurrence; ignorance and the great intelligence; to die innocent Insecurity Anger and insecurity Q: I would like to be free of insecurity – what can I do practically to overcome that? Woman and insecurity Woman: demand and insecurity Insights Realisations in man and insights in woman Islamic artistry 63 Date S2 Service/Dilemma Incredible things One of those incredible things Side Washing machine Fear God Mirror Woman Woman/Demand S3 S4 S3 S3 S3 S4 S3 S2 S2 Feb 01 Feb 01 Feb 01 Jun 01 Feb 01 Feb 01 May 95 Jan 93 Dec 01 Islamic religion The Islamic religion, the interpretation of the mullahs and martyrdom Side Mullahs/Martyrdom S1 Dec 01 S3 Jun 93 Ego Consciousness/Awareness S3 S1 Mar 98 Sep 00 Animals Instinctual love/Consideration S1 S2 Feb 01 Feb 01 Instinctual intelligence/ Consideration S2 Feb 01 Degeneration/God/Myth/World S3 Jun 97 Divine/Mind Will/Giving S2 S3 S4 Mar 93 Mar 93 Apr 94 Consciousness Consciousness/Sleep S2 S1 Sep 02 Feb 97 Me Self Me Brain S1 S3 S3 S1 S3 S1 S3 S3 S1 S2 S4 May 96 Sep 96 Sep 96 Jun 01 Dec 01 Dec 93 May 96 Jun 01 Sep 94 Sep 02 Apr 02 Insomnia Insomnia, facing what I have learned in relationships Instinct Ego and instinct Instinct, consciousness and awareness Instinctual intelligence Instinctual intelligence and the animals Instinctual intelligence, instinctual love and lack of consideration Q: Is instinctual intelligence linked to genetics? Instinctual love Instinctual intelligence, instinctual love and lack of consideration Integrity In the light of the degeneration in the world, isn’tGod in charge of everything? The answer is in myth; integrity of God Intellect Divine mind: pure intellect, purifying the mind Pure intellect, the will, willingness to give Pure intellect Intelligence(Intelligent) Q: Are intelligence and consciousness entirely separate? Consciousness and intelligence: there are no conclusions in consciousness, deep dreamless sleep Consciousness, intelligence, sensation Ego and intelligence God: intelligence and the human brain Q: How can you be intelligent and still be in the working world? I am the intelligence, Me is the substance Intelligence and the reconstituting self Intelligence and union with Me Intelligence behind the brain Intelligence is seeing the fact Intelligence: no feelings, looking out of your skin Intelligence in matter; bringing up the speed of the flesh Intelligence: seeing, knowing and realising Intuition and egoic intelligence Q: Is intelligence intuition? Reincarnation and recurrence; ignorance and the great intelligence; to die innocent The intelligence in the blade of grass What intelligence is; wanting and action What you really are is intelligence. It will give you what you focus on Q: Who is this thing that is transforming yourself? Is this intelligence within your volition? Can you explain God not doing the dirty work? Interaction Interaction without merging the sexes 64 Date Also listed under Genetics Consciousness/Sensation Ego Brain/God World Flesh/Matter Seeing/Knowing/Realising Intuition Intuition Recurrence/Death/Ignorance/Innoc ence/Reincarnation S4 S1 S1 S1 S2 What you really are S3 S2 S1 Interaction S3 Transformation/God/Dirty work S4 Feb 01 Dec 98 Apr 94 Dec 94 Sep 02 Sep 01 May 95 Dec 00 Dec 01 May 95 Interest Interest, belief, direct knowledge Internet The Internet and seduction by this intermediate world Interpretation Sensation and interpretation Sivananda student, celibacy and control of the senses. Interpretation of the senses turns desire into wanting Intimacy Q: I have closed off to man; how do I start to be intimate with him? Intimacy and giving everything in partnership Q: Without feelings what about intimacy? Side Belief/Knowledge S2 Aug 95 S1 May 95 Sensation Sivananda student/ Celibacy/Desire/Senses/Wanting S1 S3 Sep 96 Mar 99 Closing off S4 Sep 97 Intelligence Sensation Intelligence Woman S1 S3 S2 S3 Sep 94 Aug 95 Sep 02 Mar 98 Love S4 Aug 95 Evolution S4 Feb 01 Partner/Teacher S4 Mar 99 Self/Selfishness/ Indulgence/Love S3 Apr 97 S1 Apr 02 S4 S4 S4 S2 Dec 95 Dec 95 Feb 96 Dec 95 Krishnamurti/Teachers S3 Sep 01 Love S1 Jan 93 Envy/Indifference/Living a lie S4 S4 S3 May 94 Apr 94 Sep 99 Partnership Feelings Intuition Intuition of egoic intelligence Intuition comes from sensation Q: Is intelligence intuition? Woman’s intuition Invalids Q: Man/Woman love: what about invalids and people who can’t make love? Involution Evolution and involution Irritation Q: I get irritated with my partner; she has been to another teacher and I’ve been to several teachers Q: I’m confused whether the partnership process is rightly bringing up emotion to be faced, or whether I’m with the wrong partner. If I love him why do I get irritated about small things? Isolation Indulgence and the selfishness of living in isolation; overcoming self to give love Israel Q: Question from man living in Israel: What should I do? It Declaring ‘I love it’ Love of it is the same in everybody You are here because you love ‘it’ You love it Partnership/Emotion Love Ivan Ivan and Krishnamurti, my wonderful teachers Jade Jade speaks to woman on position and place of love in dealing with man Jealousy Fact and truth of jealousy Jealousy: the fundamental difficulty in lovebetween man and woman. Envy. Indifference.Living a lie 65 Date Also listed under S3 S2 S3 Jun 93 Dec 95 Dec 98 Jesus Attachment to Christianity. The Gospels of Philip and Mary. Jesus’ love of Mary Magdalene Christ and Jesus. Do not particularise: there is only God Q: What is the difference between Jesus and Christ? Also listed under Joy Finding joy of young girl after 55 year destructive relationship Q: How do you reconcile the choicelessness of accepting things as they are, with the pursuit of joy, positivity and happiness? Q: I’ve been joyous in love, but now I’m getting more and more unhappy Joy is always now No joy, no sorrow. What is beyond joy and sorrow? Journey Q: How do I know what to say and what to live? Do you go on this journey alone or do you include someone else? Judge(ment) Q: Can you tell me what judgement is? Be true to the situation, don’t judge it Q: Is there any difference between judgement and observation? Judgement Judgement and looking in the mirror Mass cult suicide and ETI: I cannot judge it Negativity and self judgement No more negativity; no more judgement No more negativity: giving up self judgement Self doubt is self judgement Self judgement Two keys to being responsible; first key: I must not judge myself; the can of worms Sep 99 S4 Apr 02 God/Decisions S3 Apr 97 Girl S4 Aug 95 Love/Unhappiness S4 Sorrow S1 S1 Mar 99 Living it S2 Dec 01 Being true to the situation S3 Mar 96 S4 S1 S4 S1 S2 S4 S1 S2 S1 Apr 94 Dec 96 Apr 97 May 96 Feb 96 Dec 97 May 96 Sep 97 Jul 93 Master Positivity/Happiness/ Choicelessness Observation Mirror ETI/Suicide Negativity Negativity Negativity Self doubt/Doubt Key/Responsible Justice Karma Changing karma: bullets to raindrops Q: Children murdered: karma? Death, suicide and karma Each of us has to live a part of the past of the human race; by being with the master consciousness you eliminate karma Q: If I don’t acknowledge or act on a thought, does it still create karma? Karma and the trick of Maya; acceptingmy life as it is Karma can be modified. The cause of all wars is man’s sexual frustration Karma, the past repeating itself Lord of karma Predestination and karma 66 Date S2 Christianity/Attachment/The Gospels/Mary Magdelene Christ/God Christ Jewish quotations Job Man changing jobs; stop making decisions; bring God into your life My job as a living master Side S4 S3 S3 S4 S2 Sep 99 Sep 99 Feb 01 Feb 00 Mar 93 Dec 01 Feb 96 S4 Dec 94 S4 S2 S3 Dec 94 Mar 96 Sep 96 Feb 96 Thought S4 Sep 01 Predestination S2 S4 S4 Sep 99 Dec 94 Feb 94 Children/Murder Suicide/Death Maya/Life War(s)/Sexual frustration S3 S3 Jun 97 Feb 97 Key Second key: I must do what I know to be right Two keys to being responsible; first key: I must not judge myself; the can of worms Killing Dunblane killing of schoolchildren: looking deeper than the events; to mourn is human ignorance Thou shalt not kill King Arthur and Merlin Conversation between King Arthur and Merlin from ‘Camelot’ about how to handle a woman Knowing Hearing, knowing, realising and then living the truth Intelligence: seeing, knowing and realising No human brain, no knowing The world is based on knowing, and the truth brings knowledge Also listed under Side Date Judge/Responsible S2 S1 Jul 93 Jul 93 Ignorance/Mourn S1 Mar 96 ‘Camelot’/Woman S1 Dec 99 Living the truth/Hearing/Realising S1 Feb 00 Truth/Knowledge S1 Dec 01 Seeing/Intelligence/Realising Brain Knowing what you don’t want You can’t make a decision to be enlightened: you must know what you don’t want Knowledge Q: Does knowledge come before realisation? Feelings, the feeling and knowledge Q: I always thought feeling was something good and could be trusted? Direct knowledge and interpretation Interest, belief, direct knowledge Knowledge Surrender and knowledge The world is based on knowing, and the truth brings knowledge Krishnamurti Ivan and Krishnamurti, my wonderful teachers Lady and gentleman The meaning of lady and gentleman Learning Q: cont’d: Isn’t there a lot I need to work through and learn about myself? 67 Jun 01 Dec 94 S4 S4 Realisation Feelings Feeling S4 S4 S4 Surrender Truth/Knowing S2 S3 S4 S1 Jun 99 Sep 94 Sep 96 Ivan/Teachers S3 Sep 01 S4 Sep 00 S1 Dec 95 Humour Crying September 11 2001 S2 S4 S2 S1 Aug 95 May 95 Dec 98 Sep 01 Working through S4 Jun 98 S4 Feb 01 S2 S2 Mar 94 Apr 93 Belief/Interest Leela Leela, the divine game Letters A foolish letter: discarnate entities Answering letters from two women (see ‘To Woman In Love’ pp 87-93): woman is love and is responsible for love; S3 S4 Apr 95 Enlightenment Last night’s movie Don’t think about last night’s movie Laughter Man laughing for no reason Reason for humour and laughter Q: When I have a good laugh or cry I feel better Q: Why did I laugh when I saw it on TV? S3 Entities Love/Woman Apr 93 May 96 Aug 95 Feb 94 Jan 93 Dec 01 woman cannot teach man; woman has to be mastered by man (who knows what he’s doing); woman must be in command of love Barry answers a letter: anyone taking marijuana will have trouble stilling the mind and getting their life in order Letter: I used to think as a child that everything was static Letter about the division of the person Letter about harmony and fighting. You shouldn’t try to teach each other Letter about letting go Letter from man: How can I surrender my independence? Letter from a man: Do healers and therapists need to be cautious because the energy of their patients can enter them? Letter from woman: men confusing sexual attraction with love Letter from woman about food: woman and food; woman is starved for love; the charade of man and woman’s love; imagination; sexual wanting; dissolving the image of food Letter: My life is right, but what do I do now? Letter to Barry: when you are no longer in your body…will you still be my master? Letter to Barry questioning ‘that love is only found through true love between man and woman Letter to Barry: I trust Letters about massage; the truth of massage Letting go Letter about letting go Letting go of prisoners Q: As I let go of my prisoners will my experience of the matrix change? Life/Lives Accepting my life as it is Q: Are there other lives Be life: stop being spiritual Being in a wheelchair: accepting life as it is Circumstances of my life Climacterics of life Correspondence between life and the body; cancer Dishonest to life I cannot compare my life with another Enjoying my life and knowing the purpose of life Impersonal life, giving up the person, freedom Karma and the trick of Maya; accepting my life as it is Q: Life constantly gives me situations to show me where I’m not free Life here and after death Life is simple, if only you don’t look back Life is an enormous pressure May I speak to you of life? You are mortal because you worship death My place is my life One life: previous life and origins of life on earth Purpose of love and purpose of life: man, woman, new and longstanding partnerships, being alone Returning home; new vitality in your life Sensation and interpretation of life through feeling Sensational life and feeling life Situation of life on earth The life you are living is absolutely right; getting rid of negativity 68 Also listed under Side Date Marijuana S2 Mar 96 Letting go Independence/Surrender Healers/Therapists/Energy/Patient s S4 S4 S1 Apr 98 Apr 98 Mar 99 Static Letters Harmony/Fighting/Teaching S3 S2 S4 Jun 99 Aug 95 Apr 98 Sexual attraction S3 Apr 98 Getting your life right Master S1 S2 Mar 99 Feb 96 Massage S1 S4 Mar 96 Mar 96 Letters S4 Apr 98 The Matrix S4 Jun 02 Acceptance S2 S4 S4 S3 S1 S3 S1 S2 S2 S4 S2 S3 S4 Dec 94 Jul 93 Sep 01 Aug 95 May 94 Sep 94 Sep 96 Dec 94 Jan 93 Jul 93 Aug 95 Jun 97 Dec 01 S2 S3 S1 Jan 93 Jan 93 Dec 96 Food/Woman/Love/Imagination/Dis solving/Sexual wanting Love Spirituality Wheelchair Body/Cancer Compare Person/Freedom Maya/Karma Freedom Death Death/Mortality Place Partnership/Alone/Love/Man/Wom an Home/Vitality Situation Negativity S3 S1 S1 S1 S1 S1 S2 S1 S4 S4 S3 Sep 02 Sep 97 Dec 94 Feb 96 Feb 00 Sep 01 Mar 93 Aug 95 Apr 95 Jan 93 Sep 96 Also listed under The value of your life Q: What can I do to get back to life? What is life? What you fear is coming; the dread of being born; the life process Your life, your task Apr 02 Sep 01 Feb 00 Apr 95 S2 Feb 00 Vital body/Dead body/ Excitement/Passion S1 Dec 98 Community S4 May 96 Feelings S3 Apr 95 Teachers S4 Feb 00 S2 Feb 00 Death Attachment S2 S1 May 96 Sep 01 Envy/Indifference/Jealousy S3 Sep 99 Guru S1 S1 S3 S4 Dec Dec Dec Dec Difficulties/Problems S1 Jun 98 S1 Jun 01 S2 S3 Dec 01 Dec 95 S4 S1 S1 S1 Dec 97 Sep 98 Feb 00 Sep 98 S2 Dec 01 S3 Apr 95 Life and death The great cyclic movement of life and death Like minded people Q: I find it beautiful to be with like minded people in a community Likes and dislikes Interpretation of feelings, likes and dislikes Lineage Q: Are you in a lineage of spiritual teachers? Listening Q: How do I listen with my whole body? Living Cyclic flow of death into living and living into death Q: What is the process of losing my attachment to living? Living a lie Jealousy: the fundamental difficulty in love between man and woman. Envy. Indifference.Living a lie Living dead Guru: getting rid of the forces of the living dead Land of the living dead You are the gatekeeper: allowing in the living dead (continued) Gatekeeper Living in harmony Living in harmony: emotionalising difficulties turns them into problems Living in your senses Living it Q: How do I know what to say and what to live? Do you go on this journey alone or do you include someone else? Take one thing with you and live it Living the truth Concepts and living what you know to be the truth Don’t make a dogma: live the truth Hearing, knowing, realising and then living the truth You are not living the truth if you weep Lonely(Loneliness) Alone and lonely, interpretation of feelings Journey Concepts Dogma Hearing/Knowing/Realising Weeping Living what you say Do you live what you say? 69 Date S1 S2 S1 S1 Fear/Dread Life body Vital body or life body; seeing a dead body; excitement and passion Side Alone S4 Apr 94 94 94 94 94 Also listed under Q: What can I do about loneliness? Longing Longing to walk with woman: longing requires action Single woman: she must accept her life as it is now; longing will push away what she wants To be content; longing; thy will be done Looking Decisions and looking eg building a house Looking and thinking; designing, refining ideas by looking Looking into Me with intelligence Looking and thinking Taking action, looking and thinking Thinking and looking Q: When you gaze around looking at people, what are you doing? Lord A vision I had 35 years ago and its implications for us: It is the Lord! Realising the Lord The difference between the Lord and God Losing Winning and losing Loss Q: I have just lost someone who I loved Sensation of loss in animals and humans Love A gift of love A gift of love: it may not continue Q: A man declared his love for me and then withdrew it; what should I do? Answering letters from two women (see ‘To Women In Love’ pp 87-93): woman is love and is responsible for love; woman cannot teach man; woman has to be mastered by man (who knows what he’s doing); woman must be in command of love Addresses young girls 10 – 12 years: the nature of woman and being true to love Art should edify the consciousness; it should demonstrate the nobility of man and glorify the love that woman is Being open to love: man is the means of woman realising love Being together in love and merging in the flesh Q: Can you speak more on human love being warm and conscious love being cold and sharp as a razor? Dishonesty in love, man loving more than one woman Degradation of love: the word ‘fucking’. The art of love. Q: Does a man reduce the love between the woman and the child? Experience is supposed to teach you about love: to demonstrate what you do not want Explanation to nine year old child: subject and object, reflection of my love Q: From an 11 year old girl: Why is love misused? Goals, purpose, love Grace and love 70 Side Date S2 Apr 02 Action Single woman S4 S2 Aug 95 Jun 97 Decisions Thinking Me Thinking Taking action/Thinking Thinking Gazing S4 S3 S1 S1 S1 S3 S4 Apr 97 Dec 95 Feb 94 Feb 00 Jun 98 Jan 94 Dec 98 Vision S3 God S1 S3 Apr 98 Winning S2 Mar 93 Animals/Humans S4 S2 Dec 00 Dec 95 S3 S4 S4 Dec 96 Dec 96 Dec 98 S3 Jan 93 S2 Feb 97 Content Letters/Woman Woman/Girls Noble man/Art Flesh S4 S2 S1 S1 S4 Mar 98 Jun 99 Apr 98 Apr 93 Apr 97 Feb 97 Jun 00 Dishonesty S4 Jan 93 Woman and child S4 Jun 01 Degradation of love/Fucking What you do notwant/Experience Child/Subject/Object Goals/Purpose Grace S2 S1 S3 S4 S3 S4 Dec 97 Dec 97 Sep 94 Jan 94 Feb 94 Jan 93 Grumpiness in the morning; love stirring up the past Have I loved enough to say goodbye? Q: Having a baby and studying: will this interfere with love between me and my man? Homosexuality and love Q: How can I love more and give up everything without being a wimp? Q: How do I attract this love? How to communicate truth and love to a child How to stop attachment in love How you know when he or she loves you Q: I find it hard to break out of my beliefs and express love in my marriage Indulgence and the selfishness of living in isolation; overcoming self to give love Q: I am finding it difficult to be open in love, to receive Q: I’ve been joyous in love, but now I’m getting more and more unhappy Q: I don’t know what it is to be loved by man. Woman must be in command of love, you must make man be responsible and take you on Q: I don’t seem to be going as deep as I want to go into love; familiarity I will always be bringing more love into this world Impersonal and divine love Q: Is it right that you can only really live love if you are already living in a state of total freedom? Q: Is there anything that women need to learn to be able to love a man? Interaction of love between man and woman Intermediate world and virtual reality; the young are more and more unable to love Q: Is love an emotion? Jade speaks to woman on position and place of love in dealing with man Just love him Letter from woman about food: woman and food; woman is starved for love; the charade of man and woman’s love; imagination; sexual Letter to Barry questioning ‘that love is only found through true love between man and woman Love and the mystery, love God first Love is the only reality in existence Love is acknowledgment Love is an emanation of self-knowledge Love communicates it’s alright Love and lust Love and sexual excitement Love within reflected without Love and attachment Love of it is the same in everybody Love of previous partner: nothing is guaranteedin love Love has purpose Love is cold to the world because emotion is warm Love or comfort Man’s responsibility for what he has done in the world and his failure to love woman Q: Man/Woman love: what about invalids and people who can’t make love? Moody one wants to be loved Mystical love and the speaker Pain of human love Physical love and virtue: noble man, the ground and field of love 71 Also listed under Side Date S4 S4 S4 Sep 97 Aug 95 Feb 97 Belief(s)/Marriage S3 S4 S4 S3 S2 May 94 Dec 97 Sep 98 Dec 93 Dec 01 Joy/Unhappiness S4 S4 Familiarity S3 Mar 98 S2 Dec 99 Grumpiness/Past Saying goodbye Baby/Study(ing) Homosexuality Giving up/Wimp Truth/Communication/Child(ren) Attachment Self/Selfishness/Isolation/Indulgen ce Woman in command of love/Man’s responsibility S4 S4 S3 S4 Freedom S4 S4 S4 Reality/World S3 S2 Woman Emotion Jade Food/Woman/Letters/Imagination/ Dissolving/Sexual wanting Letters Mystery/God Reality Acknowledgment Self knowledge Lust Sexual excitement Attachment It Partner Emotion Comfort Man’s responsibility/World Invalids Mood(y) Noble man/Virtue S2 S1 S2 S3 Jun 01 Apr 98 Apr 97 Jun 00 Mar 99 Feb 97 May 95 Aug 95 Jun 98 May 95 May 95 Feb 96 Jan 93 Sep 00 Sep 02 S1 Sep 97 S4 Aug 95 S1 S2 S1 S2 S1 S4 S4 S2 S3 S4 S4 S3 S3 S1 S4 S1 S3 S4 S4 Dec 01 Dec 97 Feb 01 Apr 02 Dec 94 May 94 May 94 Dec 93 Dec 93 Dec 95 Dec 96 May 96 Sep 99 Feb 94 Jun 97 Apr 93 Dec 93 Aug 95 Apr 93 Purpose of love and purpose of life: man, woman, new and longstanding partnerships, being alone Q: Recently I could not open up to love a man Repeating experience; attachment to the experience of love; why did I get my heart broken? Sex is the pursuit of love Substituting food for love The body is love in existence, the perfect instrument for love: with my body I thee love The simplicity of truth and love. Concepts and ideas The great art: love brings all to life Q: The difference between love and attachment: attachment to food, to partner and to sex The greatest love is gratitude to God The two transcendental principles of love and truth Truth and love, two aspects of God I have realised: God splits itself to know itself Website, woman and love Q: What about the wanting and yearning for true love? What is getting in the way of love? What you want first is an honest love Q: When I have a sense of love, my curiosity stops, does that make me stupid? Q: When is it right to share physical love? Q: What is the difference between romantic love and falling in love? Where there is not enough love I turn to sex; where is sex demonstrated in your life Where is love in existence? Woman is God in female form. Man is God in male form. The way to see God in form is to love. Woman losing the old experience of love Woman putting children before God: not giving in to sentimental love Woman’s attachment or man’s fear of love? You have to die for love Also listed under Partnership/Alone/Life/Man/Woma n Attachment/Experience/Broken heart Sex Food Body/Thee Truth/Concepts/Ideas Art Attachment God Transcendental/Truth Truth/God Lover Choosing a lover from your self; you’ve got to be practical; alcoholics and drug takers Do you want to argue with your lover? Lovemaking Going out of existence in lovemaking. Lovemaking leads to truth and truth leads to love Q: How do I know I am not pleasing my self in lovemaking? Thought and excitement are the past and pure sexuality is now Looking for experience in lovemaking Q: Lovemaking without orgasm Pleasure and excitement in lovemaking Q: Restlessness in man and stillness in lovemaking Verbal communication need to match physical lovemaking What is it that instigates the lovemaking act? Man’s biological urge to make love Lust Love and lust 72 Dec 96 S2 S4 S1 Dec 00 Jan 94 Dec 97 S2 S3 S1 S2 S2 S2 S1 S3 Curiosity Sex S2 Existence God/Man/Woman Woman God/Woman Attachment/Fear Date S1 S2 S4 S3 S4 S4 Woman/Website Wanting/Yearning Love at 82 years old Love is not a feeling Being true to your feelings; love is not a feeling Love is not a feeling; nothing arising Side S4 S2 S1 S2 S2 S1 S3 S4 S1 Dec 99 Jun 97 Dec 97 Apr 97 Feb 97 Feb 01 Jun 98 Dec 97 Sep 00 Sep 02 Dec 93 Feb 97 Feb 01 May 94 May 96 Jul 93 Dec 99 Dec 97 Jun 93 Jul 93 Dec 93 Feb 97 Feb 97 Feelings Nothing arising S1 S1 S4 Self/Practical/Alcoholics/Drugs Arguement S3 S2 Mar 98 Dec 98 Truth S4 Mar 98 Experience Orgasm Excitement/Pleasure Stillness/Restlessness Communication Biological urge S2 S4 S3 S4 S4 S3 Jun 93 Sep 98 Dec 97 Mar 98 Apr 93 Jun 93 Love S4 May 94 Excitement/Thought/Past/Sexuality /Now S3 Aug 95 Apr 95 Sep 97 Dec 97 Also listed under Magic Visualisation, magical and magic Making love Q: After we make love I want to get up and dig holes and she wants me to stay in bed until 12 o’clock. You have to die to your self Q: Do you say that man should never ejaculate when making love? Q: How can I go deeper in making love without cutting off out of fear? Q: I have recently had a body and have no urge to make love Q: Is it natural for a woman who doesn’t want children not to have the inclination to make love during ovulation? Maturity of woman Q: I’ve been without a man for a year, it is good but desire rises occasionally. Woman’s desire to make love at the time of ovulation Making love morning, noon and night. Woman is the mystery and man is the means Prostate cancer: don’t be afraid, look at the quality of life, making love Purpose of making love Q: Resistance to making love Sensations and feelings, making love Sensation, making love, feeling and boredom There is nothing to hold on to in Being; telling the children about past experience lodged in the tummy; it is bodies that make love Q: What is the difference between making love and sex? Q: Why does my body shut down during making love? S2 Feb 94 Self S3 Feb 97 Ejaculation S4 Feb 00 Baby S2 Sep 02 Fear Woman/Children/Ovulation S4 S4 Mar 98 Mar 99 Ovulation/Desire S3 Mar 99 Mystery S4 Mar 98 Resistance Feelings/Sensation Sensation/Feeling/Boredom Children/Past/Tummy/Being S2 S4 S2 S3 S1 May 94 Mar 98 Dec 95 Apr 95 Apr 98 Sex S4 Mar 99 S3 Sep 99 S3 Jan 94 Place/Woman Woman/Earth S4 S1 S3 S4 Jan 94 Jan 93 Sep 97 Feb 00 Celibacy Woman Thinking S2 S3 S3 Sep 00 May 95 Sep 97 Woman S3 Jan 94 Cancer Male sexuality Q: Where does male sexuality come from? 73 Date Visualisation Male mid-life crisis Man Angry, sexually frustrated man Are you in your place? Situation of man and woman As man leaves woman he actually leaves the earth Q: Can a man be in a similar state to woman’s vaginal consciousness? Does man lose interest in sex at a certain age? Could you speak aboutawareness and witnessing? Celibate man Difference between man and woman Every man is looking for a woman; you only think about what you don’t have God’s mind, man’s mind Q: How can a man help a woman through menopause and hysterectomy? Q: Is there a time for woman to cut man our of her life? Why have anything else when I am complete? Man alone: seeking company, knowing why Man and the pursuit of sex Man complete Man grafted from the original monkey stock Man overcoming self consciousness and fear of woman Man separating from sexual possession Man, woman or absence Ordinary man Side Sex/Vaginal consciousness/ Awareness/Witnessing God Hysterectomy/Menopause/Woman Company Sex Monkeys Self consciousness/Fear of woman Sexual possession Absence/Woman S1 S4 S4 S2 S1 S4 S4 S2 S4 S4 S2 S1 Feb 97 Apr 99 Jan 94 Jun 01 Jul 93 Jun 97 Sep 94 Jul 93 Jan 94 Dec 97 Dec 94 Mar 94 Purpose of love and purpose of life: man, woman, new and longstanding partnerships, being alone Vibration and resonance between man and woman Violence in man Woman is God in female form. Man is God in male form. The way to see God in form is to love. Woman is the prize of existence and man is the realisation of this prize Man-hood Q: Who is aware or the self in the belly? Mind, psyche, spirit and eternity; man-hood and woman-hood Also listed under Partnership/Alone/Life/Love/Woma n Vibration/Woman/Resonance Violence God/Woman/Love Prize of existence/Woman Side Date S1 Dec 96 S4 Sep 98 S3 S2 S2 Jun 98 Mar 96 Dec 97 Mind/Psyche/Belly/Spirit/Self/Eterni ty/Woman-hood S3 Apr 98 Psyche S1 Sep 99 Giving/Emotions S4 April 93 Sexual jokes S4 Jun 97 S3 Dec 97 Love/Woman in command of love S4 Feb 97 Love/World S4 Jun 97 Manipulation Control and manipulation; children, pain of self Control/Children S4 Dec 95 Mara Buddha and Mara: facing sex Buddha/Sex S4 Jun 97 Letters S2 Mar 96 Love/Belief(s) S2 Dec 01 Being/Gnostic masters S4 Dec 96 Islamic religion/Mullahs S1 Dec 01 Christianity/Attachment/The S2 Sep 99 Mankind Mankind: what about woman? The archetypal structure of the psyche Man and Woman Man and woman living in different houses: giving all or protecting emotions Man and woman’s virtue: woman mustn’t take on a man with troubles Man of love Pressure on man of love to participate in sexual jokes at work Virtue Man’s realisation of truth Man’s realisation of truth is tested by woman coming into his life Man’s responsibility Q: I don’t know what it is to be loved by man. Woman must be in command of love, you must make man be responsible and take you on Man’s responsibility for what he has done in the world and his failure to love woman Mantra Mantra: God, God, God, love, love, love Marijuana Barry answers a letter: anyone taking marijuanawill have trouble stilling the mind and getting their life in order Marriage Q: I find it hard to break our of my beliefs and express love in my marriage Martial arts Power of being: the gnostic masters and martial arts Martyrdom The Islamic religion, the interpretation of the mullahs and martyrdom Mary Magdalene Attachment to Christianity. The Gospels of Philip and Mary. 74 S3 S3 S1 Jun 98 Mar 99 Mar 99 Also listed under Gospels/Jesus Jesus’ love of Mary Magdalene Massage Letters about massage; the truth of massage Masturbation Masturbation and woman Master consciousness Authority of master consciousness: the loving father Being with the master consciousness: darshan Therapists and master consciousness: when you are with Me you are ready to be a being; that does not require any therapy Master(s) A master who doesn’t teach Letter to Barry: when you are no longer in your body…will you still be my master? My job as a living master Shopping around with masters: stay with one master Spiritual names and attachment to the master Masters: ‘Never Born – Never Died’ video You are provided with the master who fits your level of consciousness Material gain Western world believes only in greed and material gain Matter Intelligence in matter; bringing up the speed of the flesh Mature people Mature people and those without a partner Maya Karma and the trick of Maya; accepting my life as it is M.E. Q: My sister has been ill for some years with M.E. Me Q: Can you have thoughts when being in Me? Come unto ME Explanation of Me Going into Me (listed under ‘G’) How do I get back to Me from thinking and feeling Human mind and divine mind: sense of senses, only one Me I am the intelligence, Me is the substance I trust Me inside Intelligence and union with Me Keeping in touch with Me Looking into Me with intelligence My self uniting with Me Me, myself Myself and Me in harmony Nature of Me is to give Physical pain: the great healer is Me Self’s way and the way of Me The source of honesty; my self, the troublemaker The tenderest, sweetest place Two problems all over the world: cause and effect mind; leaving Me Date Letters S4 Mar 96 Woman S1 Jan 94 Father Darshan Therapists S2 S1 S3 Apr 95 May 96 Mar 96 Teaching S1 Consciousness S2 S3 S1 S3 S4 S4 Sep 98 Western world/Material gain S2 Dec 01 Flesh/Intelligence S3 May 96 Partner S4 Jun 98 Karma/Life S3 Jun 97 S4 Dec 99 S4 S4 S1 May 95 Jan 93 Dec 93 S1 S4 S3 S2 S1 S1 S3 S4 S2 S4 S4 S1 S2 S1 May 96 Mar 96 Sep 96 May 95 Feb 94 Mar 93 Dec 94 Dec 94 Jun 93 Mar 96 Apr 94 Mar 93 Dec 93 Dec 93 Letters Job Names/Attachment Mind/Sense(s) Intelligence Trust Intelligence Looking Self Myself Myself Pain/Healer(s) Self Honesty/Self/Troublemaker Mind/Problems 75 Side S2 S2 Feb 96 Feb 01 Dec 99 Jan 93 Jan 93 Jun 00 Apr 95 Mar 93 Also listed under Apr 93 Dec 93 Feb 94 S4 S4 S3 S2 S1 Dec 01 Jan 94 Jul 93 Feb 00 Jun 02 Past/Child/Senility S3 S3 S2 Jul 93 May 94 Apr 98 Hysterectomy/Man/Woman S1 S1 S2 S2 Apr 94 Sep 94 Sep 99 Jun 01 Alien visitation Fighter pilots/Woman S1 S2 Jun 01 Sep 99 Cause and effect S3 S2 S3 S2 Feb 94 Sep 94 Mar 93 Mar 93 S1 S3 S1 Apr 94 Apr 97 Jun 97 Medical science Meditation Q: Can you give your views on vipassana meditation? Consciousness, meditation, being Meditation, being, absence Meditation is only a stage, not the end Meditation; relative intelligence; haveyou released all your prisoners? The purpose of meditation Memory Emotional memory False memories Q: From 8 year old: Do people still have their past when they lose their memory? Senility World wide shortage of memory: computers Q: How can a man help a woman through menopause and hysterectomy? The truth of menopause Menstruation Alien visitation at menstruation Q: How do women handle being fighter pilots when they menstruate? Not identifying with the emotions of menstruation Mind Cause and effect mind Chattering mind Divine mind: pure intellect, purifying the mind Human mind and divine mind: sense of senses, only one me Keeping the mind still when engaged in action and when sitting in stillness Mind and first heaven Stillness and the reaction of the mind Fight and argument; living the truth; the mind and the human condition Q: How do you reach stillness when the mind has doubt and fear? The still mind and Eastern teachers Two problems all over the world: cause and effect mind ; leaving Me Using the mind to observe the sensation; the mind goes still and the sensation disappears Q: Who is aware or the self in the belly? Mind, psyche, spirit and eternity; man-hood and woman-hood Miracles Psychic ability, the occult, glamour and miracles Mirror Inner space: the mirror Judgement and looking in the mirror The mirror of supreme being S2 Vipassana meditation Being/Consciousness Absence/Being Relative intelligence/Releasing your prisoners Computers Menopause 76 Date S1 S1 S4 Missing out What about me? Missing out Who, where and what is Me? Q: Who is looking into Me? Side Divine/Intellect Me/Sense(s) Stillness/Action Heaven Stillness Argument/Truth/Fight/Human condition Stillness Eastern teachers Me/Problems Sensation Self/Psyche/Belly/Spirit/Man-hood/ Eternity/Woman-hood S1 S3 S3 S2 S4 S4 S1 S1 S3 S3 Sep 97 May 96 Jul 93 Dec 99 Jun 01 Mar 96 Feb 01 Apr 95 Dec 93 Apr 98 Apr 98 Glamour/Psychic/Occult S1 S4 Mar 99 Jul 93 Inner space Judgement Supreme being S3 S1 S3 Jun 01 Dec 96 Feb 01 Also listed under Missing out What about me? Missing out Models Models and concepts Molestation Q: How can I help my daughter who says she has been molested by my ex-husband? Jun 01 Me S1 Apr 93 Concepts S4 Dec 97 Daughter S4 Dec 97 S4 S3 Jan 94 May 96 Exercise/Spiritual life S2 Sep 96 Self Love S4 S1 Jan 93 Apr 93 Earth S4 S4 Apr 94 Apr 94 S4 Apr 95 Death S4 Jun 02 Death/Life S1 Sep 01 State S2 Apr 02 Communion S4 May 95 Father/Relationships S4 Dec 98 Forget(ting)/Death Saying goodbye/Death S3 S4 May 96 Dec 95 Monogamy Monkeys Man grafted from the original monkey stock What monkeys look like to each other Man Monks Monks, exercise and the spiritual life Mood(y) Get rid of self and mood Moody one wants to be loved Moon Beyond the moon Space between earth and moon Moral dilemmas Moral dilemmas: knowing what you are doing Morphine Q: Have you anything to say about morphine when you are dying? Mortality May I speak to you of life? You are mortal because you worship death Mortgage Q: How can I stay in this state? I have a problem with my mortgage Most high Communion with the most high, not asking for anything Mother Q: Are your mother and father a good microcosm of your relationships? Q: As a single mother it is difficult to get order into family life without yelling? The genius of being a mother Q: I can’t and don’t want to forget my mother who died. Saying goodbye to parents; death of mother, writing and visiting Mourn Dunblane killing of schoolchildren: looking deeper than the events; to mourn is human ignorance Mullahs The Islamic religion, the interpretation of the mullahs and martyrdom 77 Date S3 Spiritual life The spiritual life: cleaning the mirror of clutter and clamour Side Single mother/Family life S2 S2 S2 Jul 93 Jul 93 Dec 98 Ignorance/Killing S1 Mar 96 Islamic religion/Martyrdom S1 Dec 01 Murder Q: Children murdered: karma? Ten year old girl asks about feelings when someone is murdered Also listed under Mystery Love and the mystery, love God first Making love morning, noon and night. Woman is the mystery and man is the means. Acknowledge what you love and don’t particularise it Mystic cross Self being refined and reduced Myth In the light of the degeneration in the world, isn’t God in charge of everything? The answer is in myth; integrity of God Truth is in myth, not in scientific theory Name(s) Changing your name Spiritual names and attachment to the master Naming Whatever you start naming, you get Nature Divine nature comes through your nature Q: nature or nurture? Natural What is normal is not natural eg political correctness and the elimination of the female gender Nazi An honest Nazi Need I must give what I need Negation Negativity Each has a load of negativity to transform In God’s mind there is no negativity, only the good with no opposite Negativity: not giving Negativity and self judgement No more negativity; no more judgement No more negativity: giving up self judgement The life you are living is absolutely right; getting rid of negativity New teaching New teaching: I am doing well; illness, physical 78 Date S2 S2 Mar 96 Dec 95 S4 Dec 94 Friends/Partner S4 Sep 02 Love/God Making love S1 S4 Dec 01 Mar 98 Self S2 Jun 93 Degeneration/God/World/Integrity S3 Jun 97 Truth/Scientific theory S4 Jun 97 Attachment/Master S2 S3 Feb 97 Jan 93 S2 Dec 00 Divine Nurture S3 S1 Feb 97 Aug 95 Political correctness /Normal/Elimination of female gender S3 Sep 97 S1 Feb 94 Giving S4 Mar 93 God/Good S3 S4 May 95 Dec 97 Life S3 Sep 96 Karma/Children Girl/Feelings My transcendental realisation Myself Q: I made friends with myself and now it doesn’t matter to me what my partner does Me, myself Myself and Me in harmony Side Me Me Giving Judgement Judgement Judgement Illness/Death S3 S4 S4 S4 S1 S2 S4 S1 Dec 94 Dec 94 Dec 94 May 94 May 96 Feb 96 Dec 97 Dec 95 Also listed under death, studying New time Q: Can you speak of the new time after the great wipeout? Sep 01 S3 Dec 93 S2 Jun 97 S2 May 94 Decisions S3 Jul 93 Art S2 Apr 97 Beauty and the beast/Woman S4 Jun 93 Niceness Niceness: are you too nice to be straight? Nightmares Nightmares: id-entity Nirvikalpa Samadhi S1 No choice Decisions and no choice Noble man Art: the nobility of man demonstrated in the picture of a man about to be executed who is protecting a child Art should edify the consciousness; it should demonstrate the nobility of man and glorify the love that woman is Beauty and the beast: woman, beauty of the earth; turning the beast into the noble man Nobility of man: how can man be noble today? Physical love and virtue: noble man, the ground and field of love Love/Art Love/Virtue Nobility Normal Q: What is it to be normal? What is normal is not natural eg political correctness and the elimination of the female gender Nothing arising Fear of nothing; Buddha facing his sexuality and nothing arising Love is not a feeling; nothing arising Nothing arising: when the washing machine stops Novel Achievement without thought: how to create a novel Now Angels, imagination and wanting: only now is real Q: How do I know I am not pleasing my self in lovemaking? Thought and excitement are the past and pure sexuality is now Now is not the present: senses, present and presence Only now is real; to be now is to be in my body Nudism Sex and nudism Nurture Q: Nature or nurture? 79 S1 S2 S4 Dec 01 Apr 97 Apr 97 Apr 93 S4 Sep 01 Political correctness Natural/Elimination of female gender S3 S3 Dec 96 Sep 97 Buddha/Fear/Sexuality S3 Jun 93 S2 May 94 Love is not a feeling Washing machine Nothing to speak of Date S2 September 11 2001/ Wipeout Newspapers Reading newspapers Side S4 S3 Sep 97 Feb 96 Achievement S2 Apr 95 Angels/Imagination Lovemaking/Excitement/Thought/ Past/Sexuality S3 S3 Dec 96 Dec 97 Presence/Present Senses S2 S1 Sep 94 Sep 96 Sex S4 Apr 99 Nature S1 Aug 95 Also listed under Obesity Obesity and cancer of the body and of humanity Object Explanation to nine year old child: subject and object, reflection of my love Objectivity Science, objectivity, subjectivity Observation Children expressing opinions: observations require no opinions Q: Is there any difference between judgement and observation? Occult Psychic ability, the occult, glamour and miracles Older person To the older person Older Woman Older woman with younger man One pointedness Opinions Children expressing opinions: observations require no opinions Ordinary man Mixing in the world: I love my ordinary man Orgasm Q: Lovemaking without orgasm Osho Q: I am a sannyasin. As far as I understood Osho, his message is basically the same as yours Other people’s stories Q: How can I not get involved with other people’s stories? Out of existence Truth is the idea behind the body, out of existence Ovulation Q: Is it natural for a woman who doesn’t want children not to have the inclination to make love during ovulation? Maturity of woman Q: I’ve been without a man for a year, it is good but desire rises occasionally. Woman’s desire to make love at the time of ovulation Feb 94 S3 Feb 94 Child/Love/ Subject S3 Sep 94 Science/Subjectivity S3 Feb 94 Children/Opinions S2 Mar 96 Glamour/MiraclesPsychic S4 Jul 93 S3 May 94 Young(er) man S1 Apr 94 Observation/Children S2 Mar 96 World S4 Jun 97 Lovemaking S4 Sep 98 Sannyasin S4 Dec 99 Getting involved S4 Apr 99 Body/Truth S1 Dec 97 Making love/Children/Woman S4 Mar 99 Making love/Desire S3 Mar 99 S3 Dec 01 S3 S4 Jun 00 Sep 97 Judge(ment) Owing Do you owe someone something? Pain Burning out the pain Containment: you made this pain, now cop it! 80 Date S2 Cancer Obituary Joseph Cotton (actor) Side Containment S2 S3 Feb 96 Mar 93 Don’t go into pain: if you talk about pain, you get pain back Q: How can I handle continuous physical pain? Q: I have had severe neck pain for a year: difficulties with father Q: Is physical pain and affliction causedby emotion? It is pain that thinks. Consciousness knows that I am immortal Pain causing itself more pain Pain hurts: getting rid of what hurts Pain without suffering Physical pain Physical pain Physical pain Physical pain: the great healer is Me The pain of birth and the pain of death Q: What is the right response to physical pain? Q: Why do I get pain in my testicles? Q: Why is art often so ugly? Praise of pain or praise of God Pain of parting Learning from the pain of parting and moving up to a new octave in life Paradise I live in paradise on earth Q: Is there any good in science? Have we made it up? I live in paradise Parent(s) Addressing the children: your life has to be lived out according to you, not your parents Anxious caring: parents with children Are parents fit to raise children? Death of a parent Q: How can I get rid of an anxiety to do with my parents? Q: How can parents tell their child what they’re doing with their life Parenting Parenting: everything has to be practical Particularisation Give up particularisation of the religions God is whole: when you particularise God you must suffer Partner Death of my partner, a wonderful thing for us both Detachment from partner when there’s a child; keep things practical; explain the truth of life to the child Dissolving momentum of work with partner Do you give up your self for your partner? Q: How do I draw a partner to me? Q: I made friends with myself and now it doesn’t matter to me what my partner does Q: I get irritated with my partner; she has been to another teacher and I’ve been to several teachers Q: Is there a process of re-evaluation after the the death of a partner? Death is a purifying process Love of previous partner: nothing is guaranteed in love Question from woman: how do I deal with my partner’s anger? Feeling sad when someone dies or partner leaves Q: How do you find a compatible partner? Is it a commitment? 81 Also listed under Father Emotion Immortality/Consciousness Suffering Me/Healer(s) Birth/Death Testicles Art/God Side Date S4 S2 S2 Sep 97 Feb 01 Jun 98 S3 S1 S2 S2 S2 S4 S4 S3 S3 S3 S4 Dec 93 Dec 95 Jul 93 Jan 94 Sep 94 Dec 00 Mar 96 Dec 00 Apr 99 Apr 99 Mar 96 S4 S3 Dec 96 Mar 99 S3 Jun 99 Science S3 S4 Apr 98 Sep 99 Children S2 Mar 96 Practical S3 Mar 98 Religions God S1 S1 Apr 02 Jun 01 Death Detachment/Child/Practical S4 S2 Sep 00 Mar 98 S4 Mar 99 Anxious caring/Children Children Death Anxiety Child S1 S1 S4 S1 S3 Friends/Myself S4 S1 S4 S4 Death S4 Work/Partner Self Irritation/Teacher Love Anger Death/Sadness Commitment S4 S3 S3 S2 Feb 96 Jun 98 Feb 94 Mar 99 Mar 99 Apr 93 Feb 96 Jan 94 Sep 02 Sep 00 Dec 96 Apr 97 May 96 Dec 98 Mature people and those without a partner Not holding anything against my partner Q: What can I do about my guilt regarding the suffering of my partner’s ex wife and his children? Q: What if your partner is not interested in the spiritual life? Woman: strength, emotion, leaving partner Partnership Honesty in partnership Q: I am confused after breaking up my partnership Q: I’m confused whether the partnership process is rightly bringing up emotion to be faced, or whether I’m with the wrong partner. If I love him why do I get irritated about small things? I’m having difficulty stopping thinking; long partnership ended today Individual wants and acting in union; Intimacy and giving everything in partnership Purpose of love and purpose of life: man, woman, new and longstanding partnerships, being alone Passion Passion leaving relationship with arrival of child Passion, glory, the timeless Vital body or life body; seeing a dead body; excitement and passion Q: Woman working in the world and passion Passion for life Your divine sexuality is your passion for life Past All emotion is past; thinking arises from the past Consciousness and dropping the past Facing the living past with honesty Friends talking about the past Q: From 8 year old: Do people still have their past when they lose their memory? Senility Grumpiness in the morning; love stirring up the past Q: How do I know I am not pleasing my self in lovemaking? Thought and excitement are the past and pure sexuality is now Past and family There is nothing to hold on to in Being; telling the children about past experience lodged in the tummy; it is bodies that make love Woman: heavy-heartedness; the deep past in her; woman is nothing; gratitude for her life Past love Q: How can I put your teaching into practice when I’m still dreaming about my past love? Patients Letter from a man: Do healers and therapists need to be cautious because the energy of their patients can enter them? Also listed under Jun 98 Jun 98 Sep 02 Honesty Emotion/Irritation S4 S2 S3 Apr 95 Dec 98 Dec 98 Thinking S3 Dec 96 Intimacy Alone/Life/Love/Woman/Man S3 S1 Jun 93 Dec 96 Child/Relationship Glory/The timeless Life body/Dead body/ Excitement/Vital body Work/Woman S4 S4 S1 Aug 95 Dec 99 Dec 98 Divine sexuality S2 Dec 97 Emotion/Thinking Consciousness S1 S3 S1 S3 S2 Mar 93 Sep 94 Mar 93 Dec 95 Apr 98 S2 S1 Sep 94 Apr 98 S3 Jun 97 S2 Mar 98 S1 Mar 99 S4 Jun 93 S1 Aug 95 Suffering/Guilt/Ex wife/Children Spiritual life Woman Friends Child/Memory/Senility Love/Grumpiness Lovemaking/Excitement/Thought/ Sexuality/Now Family Children/Being/Tummy/Making love Heavy-heartedness/ Woman/Gratitude Healers/Therapists/Energy/Letters 82 Date S4 S2 S4 Mature people Penis Penile servitude; changing the penis back to the original phallus People Condition of the public and the state of the people Side Earth S2 S2 S2 S4 S3 Mar 98 Jan 94 Dec 00 Sep 97 Dec 97 Also listed under Perfection Perfection: the earth is perfect like your life Person Impersonal life, giving up the person, freedom Letter about the division of the person Personalising Personalising your life Personality Character and personality; character is wellbeing; personality is the frontal face of the person; defending your self; effect of alcohol Character is good that has no opposite; personality is winning/losing Q: Do the personality and the self take time to die? Q: Is there a difference between personality and self? Philosophies Philosophies and falsehoods; leaving the senses; videogames S1 Sep 00 Letters S2 S2 Aug 95 Aug 95 S1 Feb 00 Character/Self/Alcohol S1 Mar 98 Character/Winning/Losing S1 Mar 98 Falsehoods/Videogames S2 Apr 95 S2 Mar 98 S2 Sep 02 Man/Woman S1 S2 Jan 93 Jan 93 Fitting & suiting/Desire /Understanding S3 Sep 97 Excitement/Lovemaking Vaginal consciousness/Vaginal awareness S3 S3 Dec 97 Feb 00 Religions/God/Straightness/Truth S2 Jun 97 Homosexuality S2 Aug 95 Art Barry sings S2 S3 Apr 97 Apr 95 Happiness/Joy/Choicelessness S4 Feb 00 Self/Death Self Physical Body Q: I am sometimes in places outside my physical body Platonic relationship I have this desire to be understood by man. Fitting and suiting; platonic relationship Pleasure Pleasure and excitement in lovemaking Vaginal awareness and vaginal consciousness: human pleasure and divine pleasure Poetry Use of the word God and concepts of God; religions and poetry; seeing things straight; the truth detailed for these times Political correctness Political correctness: eliminating man and woman; homosexuality What is normal is not natural eg political correctness and the elimination of the female gender Pop singers/songs Contemporary art shown in a pop singer’s cartoon Pops songs and their content; Barry sings ‘The Place of the Sinking Heart’ Positivity Q: How do you reconcile the choicelessness of accepting things as they are, with the pursuit of joy, positivity and happiness? 83 Date Life/Freedom Physical ailments Place Are you in your place? Situation of man and woman My place is my life Side Natural/Elimination of female gender/Normal S2 S4 S3 Mar 98 Feb 00 Sep 97 Side Date S1 Apr 94 Goals/Purpose Existence S1 S1 Sep 94 Sep 94 Being Democracy/Surrender/Woman S2 S1 Dec 95 Jan 94 Lover/Self/Alcoholics/Drugs S3 Mar 98 Insecurity S3 S2 Jul 93 Mar 98 Confusion S2 S4 Sep 01 Sep 01 Karma S4 Feb 94 Taking action S4 Disposition S2 S3 Dec 94 Children/Contraception S4 Sep 98 Now/Present/Senses S2 Sep 94 Now/Presence/Senses S2 Sep 94 God S3 Sep 99 Unconscious S3 Sep 98 S1 Sep 97 Woman/Man S4 Sep 98 Giving S2 S3 S1 S1 Mar 93 Dec 95 Dec 95 Jun 98 Also listed under Possessiveness Territory and possessiveness Potential Goals and purpose, actualizing potential Lighting up my potential: the purpose behind existence Power Being, the power behind the body Woman: power, surrender, democracy Practical(ity) Choosing a lover from your self; you’ve got to be practical; alcoholics and drug takers Detachment from partner when there’s a child; keep things practical; explain the truth of life to the child Go by the practical Q: I would like to be free of insecurity – what can I do practically to overcome that? Parenting: everything has to be practical Prayers/Praying All the prayers have collided Q: Is there a place for prayer to ask for help in states of confusion? Predestination Predestination and karma Predetermination Taking action, predetermination Predisposition Predispositions; people are born with different dispositions Pregnancy Q: Pregnancy, children, contraception: what do you teach? Presence Now is not the present: senses, present, and presence Present Now is not the present: senses, present and presence Priests I have realised God. Priests are interpreters Primal therapy Written question: Can primal therapy help to access the unconscious? Detachment/Partner/Child Parenting Princess Diana’s death Prize of existence Woman is the prize of existence and man is the realisation of this prize Problem(s) Giving: the solution to every problem I’m doing well even when I have a problem I have given up dealing with people’s problems Living in harmony: emotionalising difficulties turns them into problems Two problems all over the world; cause and effect mind; 84 Living in harmony/Difficulties Me/Mind S2 S3 S1 Mar 98 Mar 98 Apr 94 Dec 00 Dec 93 Also listed under leaving Me Progress Scientific mind and progress: the race from the fear of death Prophets Quote from the prophets: ‘remember thy Creator in the days of thy youth….’ Psychic Psychic ability, the occult, glamour and miracles Psychic manifestation the devil Sep 00 S3 Feb 00 S1 Apr 99 Emotional and mental pain S2 Jun 98 God realisation S3 S4 S3 Jun 00 Apr 98 Apr 98 Mankind Mind/Self/Belly/Spirit/Man-hood/ Eternity/Woman-hood Psychic experience Psychic experience and reconstitution of cells Psychic freedom Psychic freedom, psychic stroke and heart attack Psychic knowledge Feeling and psychic knowledge Psychic possession A caution about realising and being able to contain the truth; psychic possession S2 Dec 93 Death S3 S3 Apr 94 Apr 94 Cell S1 Aug 95 Heart attack/Psychic stoke S1 May 05 Feelings S4 Apr 95 Truth S3 Feb 00 S1 S1 S2 May 95 May 95 May 95 S3 Sep 97 S1 May 05 S2 May 95 S1 Apr 97 Psychic recurrence Psychic recurrence: what goes into the psychic comes back Heart attack/Psychic freedom Psychic system Keeping my psychic system pure and healthy Pure God, take whatever is necessary to make me more pure. Can you say it? God 85 Sep 99 S4 Psychic prisoners Energetically releasing psychic prisoners Taking psychic prisoners Visiting wounded psychic prisoners or setting them free Psychic stroke Psychic freedom, psychic stroke and heart attack S1 Glamour/Miracles/Occult Devil Psychic double Death: psychic double Realising the psychic double Date S3 Scientific mind/Death Prostate cancer Prostate cancer: It is my body that is afflicted, it is not me Psyche Emotional and mental pain goes into the psyche: the solution is to want nothing Mankind: what about woman? The archetypal structure of the psyche The psyche and the different levels of God realisation What you put into the psyche, you get back Q: Who is aware or the self in the belly? Mind, psyche, spirit and eternity; man-hood and woman-hood Side Jul 93 Also listed under Purpose Goals and purpose, actualizing potential Goals, purpose, love Purpose of life Purpose and responsibility Purpose of life and growing old Purpose of life What is the purpose of your life? What have you done today of purpose? S1 S3 Sep 94 Feb 94 Responsibility Growing old S4 S1 S4 S1 May 96 Mar 94 Apr 95 May 96 S3 Sep 94 S3 Dec 93 S3 Mar 94 S3 Dec 01 S4 S4 S4 Insights Truth Woman S2 S4 S3 S1 S4 S2 Jun 99 Dec 95 May 95 Living the truth/Knowing/Hearing Seeing/Knowing/Intelligence S1 S3 Feb 00 Jun 01 World/Love S2 May 95 Wanting/Giving/Taking S3 Mar 93 Reincarnation/Death/Ignorance/Inn ocence/Intelligence S4 Apr 02 S2 Apr 02 S2 S1 S4 Apr 94 Aug 95 Apr 02 S4 Dec 98 Questioner Getting rid of the questioner Radial The radial Rat race We invented the rat race Realising Hearing, knowing, realising and then living the truth Intelligence: seeing, knowing and realising Reality Intermediate world and virtual reality; the young are more and more unable to love Love is the only reality in existence Recurrence Reincarnation and recurrence; ignorance and the great intelligence; to die innocent Reflection What do you reflect on? Reincarnation Fact, truth and fiction Letter from England on reincarnation Reincarnation and recurrence; ignorance and the great intelligence; to die innocent Relationship Q: Are your mother and father a good microcosm of your relationships? Q: Do you see a special relationship between father and Knowledge Born again Transcendentalrealisation Love Receiving Wanting and giving, taking and receiving Recurrence/Death/Ignorance/Innoc ence/Intelligence Father/Mother 86 Date Goals/Potential Goals/Love Pyramid of existence Great pyramid of existence Realisations Q: Does knowledge come before realisation? Q: Is it possible to realise truth and not love? Man and realisations, irreversible change and being born again My transcendental realisation One of Barry Long’s realisations Realisations in man and insights in woman Realisation of the truth Q: When I realise nothing, am I back where I started from? Woman and realisations Side Father and son S2 S4 Sep 00 May 95 May 95 Dec 98 Jun 99 Dec 94 Dec 97 Jun 01 son? Getting it right at the beginning of a relationship Q: How can I move on after the breakup of a long relationship? Q: I see a woman for only a few weeks every year – am I wasting my time? Q: Is my friendship with a man preventing from being open to another relationship? Passion leaving relationship with arrival of child Purpose in relationship Q: Should I continue with a troublesome relationship or walk away? Wanting or being open to relationship Q: Woman not feeling loved in a relationship Also listed under Getting it right Friendship Child/Passion Wanting Relationship between two women Q: Can you speak about a loving relationship between two women? Relative intelligence Meditation; relative intelligence; have you released all your prisoners? Relative reality Relative reality: the thinker Relaxation Relaxation and visualisation Releasing your prisoners Meditation; relative intelligence; have you released all your prisoners? Religion(s) All religions are a celebration of death Q: Aren’t the people who practise religions,for example the Jewish religion, doing the same as us, therefore there is no right or wrong way? Buddha, Buddhism and religions Christian religion Give up particularisation of the religions Science is a religion The bigger picture; human nature, the end of our civilisation; religion; what are you serving with your life? Two aspects of God: personal God of the religions; impersonal God and the matrix Use of the word God and concepts of God; religions and poetry; seeing things straight; the truth detailed for these times Q: When religions engage in untruth, eg the crusades, why isn’t it self-evident that an evil is being perpetrated? Resistance Q: Resistance to making love Resonance Vibration and resonance between man and woman Vibration Responsibility S4 S4 Sep 97 Feb 00 S4 Jun 01 S4 S4 S1 S3 S1 S4 Dec 01 Aug 95 Mar 98 Jun 98 Jul 93 Sep 97 Sep 02 Meditation/Releasing your prisoners S1 Jun 02 The thinker S3 Apr 93 Visualisation S4 Mar 93 Relative intelligence/Meditation S1 Jun 02 Death Right and wrong way S2 S4 Dec 01 Apr 02 Buddha Christian Partcularisation Science Bigger picture/Human nature/Civilisation/Service God/The matrix S4 S4 S1 S2 S1 Jun 99 Sep 00 Apr 02 Sep 97 Sep 01 S2 Jun 97 Crusades/Evil/Untruth S4 Sep 00 S3 Dec 00 Forgetting S1 Dec 01 Making love S4 Mar 98 S3 Jun 98 God/Poetry/Straightness/Truth Man/Woman 87 Date S3 Religious ceremonies Remembering I don’t remember, but I never forget Side S3 Jun 02 Also listed under Restlessness Q: Restlessness in man and stillness in lovemaking Retire(ing) Fear of not having enough money to retire on Right action Q: I have parted from my violent son – is that the right action to take? May 96 Jul 93 Stillness/Lovemaking S4 Mar 98 Fear S3 Dec 93 Violent son S1 Apr 99 S4 Mar 93 Religions S4 Apr 02 Doubt/Woman S4 Sep 99 S3 May 95 S2 Mar 94 Sex S4 Jun 02 Zen Buddhism S4 Jun 97 Imagination S4 S2 S2 S1 S4 Jun 01 Dec 00 May 96 May 96 May 96 S3 Sep 00 God/Broken spirit/Broken heart/David &Bathsheba S2 Sep 97 Death Death/Partner S2 S3 Dec 95 May 96 Giving/Indulgence Self S2 S3 Dec 93 Dec 93 Right time Nothing happens until the time is right Right and wrong way Q: Aren’t the people who practise religions, for example the Jewish religion, doing the same as us, therefore there is no right or wrong way? Ring of truth Q: Sometimes when I hear you I don’t have the ring of truth, I just don’t know Rivalry Woman, rivalry and doubt Robot body Programming the incredible robot body Robotics Robotics; virtual sex machine Roman Catholicism Studying Zen Buddhism; living Roman Catholicism Romance Q: Do men enjoy or need romance? Imagination and romance Romance and graciousness; generosity of spirit Romance and what we have lost; The Accolade Science is destroying our romance Graciousness/Spirit The Accolade Science Rose The rose has lost its smell Ruth and ruthless Sacrifice ‘The sacrifice to God is a broken spirit, a broken and a penitent heart’: story of David and Bathsheba Sadness Feeling sadness when somebody dies Feeling sad when someone dies or partner leaves Sad story Giving or indulgence: listening to the sad story Painful self: telling the sad, sad story Salutations on letters 88 Date S4 S1 Purpose Judge/Key Purpose and responsibility Two keys to being responsible; first key: I must not judge myself; the can of worms Side S4 S2 Jun 00 Jan 94 Also listed under Same gender Two sexes trying to merge; loving the same gender Satellites Satellites and space rubbish Satsang Q: I am one of these people who holds satsang Satsang is an eastern word: I call a spade a spade Saying goodbye Are you ready to say goodbye? Are you ready to say goodbye? Have I loved enough to say goodbye? Saying goodbye to parents; death of mother, writing and visiting May 95 S4 Dec 99 Osho S4 Dec 99 Space S4 Apr 94 S4 S2 Jun 00 Jun 00 S2 S4 S4 S4 Aug Dec Aug Dec S2 Jun 99 S2 S4 Jun 97 Sep 99 World/Earth S3 Mar 98 Stephen Hawking S2 Dec 93 Myth/Truth S4 Jun 97 Celibacy/Divine life/Being by yourself/God S4 Mar 98 Intelligence/Knowing/Realising S3 Jun 01 Children/Experience/Death S4 Dec 93 Love Death/Mother Saying the same thing I keep saying the same thing over and over again Science Can science enlighten us? ‘Us’ can never be enlightened Q: Is there any good in science? Have we made it up? I live in paradise Science and the spiritual life Science is destroying our romance Science is a religion Science is rational not logical Science, objectivity, subjectivity Theoretical science: what good has it done you? Scientists The earth and the world; scientists are driven by the world Scientific mind Blindness and deception of scientific mind: Stephen Hawkings’ scientific report Scientific mind and progress: the race from the fear of death Scientific theory Truth is in myth, not in scientific theory Second thing first Secrets Q: Does the divine life include being by yourself and not being with a woman? Realising God out of existence and God in existence; celibacy; secrets Seeing Intelligence: seeing, knowing and realising Self Addresses 8 year old: learning from experience; Q: Can you 89 Date S3 Sanskrit name Q: Will you give me a Sanskrit name? Sannyasin Q: I am a sannyasin. As far as I understood Osho, his message is basically the same as yours What is a real sannyasin? Woman sannyasin addressed Side Enlightenment Paradise Spiritual life Romance Religion Objectivity/Subjectivity Progress/Death/Fear S4 S4 S1 S4 S2 S2 S3 S3 S3 S1 Dec 00 Dec 94 95 00 95 95 Sep 99 May 96 Sep 97 Aug 95 Feb 94 May 96 Sep 00 May 94 destroy the self? Q: Can you clarify what is the death of the self? Q: After we make love I want to get up and dig holes and she wants me to stay in bed until 12 o’clock. You have to die to your self Back to basics: how to reach the place of Being; the belly, the source of self, tension in the belly, the past; being beside your self; you have to get a new vision of what it is to be good Being and self; looking for the good, right action Character and personality; character is wellbeing; personality is the frontal face of the person; defending your self; effect of alcohol Choosing a lover from your self; you’ve got to be practical; alcoholics and drug takers Clarification of ego and self; the capital ‘S’ higher self Compromise; the only freedom is to be free of my self Q: Do the personality and the self take time to die? Do you give up your self for your partner? Earthly experience: waves of self Get rid of self and mood Getting rid of self for the good of the earth Hell: my self, demons of the underworld facing myself Q: I am having trouble being here. Loving your self, homosexual love, you cannot love everyone, loving the whole, I come frombeyond the stone age I am the truth and the false self is the spoiler I must not love my self Indulgence and the selfishness of living in isolation; overcoming self to give love Q: Is there a difference between personality and self? Intelligence and the reconstituting self Q: Love of your self, is the self the thinker? Me, the source of honesty; my self, the troublemaker My self uniting with Me Mystic cross: self being refined and reduced Painful self: telling the sad, sad story Self always wants to get Self ruins my body Self’s way and the way of Me Soul and self The value of self) Truth begins with honesty: are you honest in love or are you indulging yourself? Q: Who is aware or the self in the belly? Mind, psyche, spirit and eternity; man-hood and woman-hood Selfishness Indulgence and the selfishness of living in Isolation; overcoming self to give love Self consideration, selfishness, feelings Selfishness in woman Self consciousness Man overcoming self consciousness and fear of woman You and I are animals; self consciousness in tamed animals Self consideration Self consideration, selfishness, feelings Self destruction Woman facing her violence and self destruction; the negative cells 90 Also listed under Side Date Making love S4 S3 Feb 97 Feb 97 Back to basics/Being/Belly S1 Apr 98 Being/Good/Action Personality/Character/Alcohol S1 S1 Jan 93 Mar 98 Lover/Practical/Alcoholics/Drugs S3 Mar 98 S1 S3 S3 Apr 99 Jul 93 Apr 97 S3 Apr 98 Ego Freedom/Compromise Personality/Death Partner Experience Mood Hell/Underworld Being here/Homosexual love/Stone age Truth/I/Spoiler Indulgence/Love/Isolation/Selfishn ess Personality Intelligence Thinker Me/Honesty/Troublemaker Me Mystic cross Sad story S3 S3 S2 S1 S3 S4 S1 S1 S2 Mar98 Sep 96 Mar 98 Feb 96 Mar 94 Jan 93 Jun 93 Apr 93 Feb 97 Honesty/Truth S4 S3 S2 S1 S1 S2 S3 S2 S2 S4 S4 S3 S1 Self/Indulgence/Isolation/Love S3 Apr 97 Man/Fear of woman Animals S1 S4 S1 Feb 01 Jan 94 Mar 96 Feelings/Selfishness S1 Dec 93 Violence/Cells/Woman S3 Aug 95 Body Me Soul Mind/Psyche/Belly/Spirit/Manhood/Eternity/Woman-hood Feelings/Self consideration Woman S1 S4 Feb 00 Sep 96 Sep 02 Mar 93 Mar 93 Jun 93 Dec 93 Jun 93 Mar 93 Apr 94 Mar 94 Dec 93 Dec 97 Dec 93 Jan 94 Self doubt Q: As an enlightened master did you have fear or self doubt when you found you had cancer? Self doubt is self judgement Self expression Self expression is not art Self indulgence Q: Does one have to feel guilty if the mind takes one into self indulgence? Also listed under Senility Q: From 8 year old: Do people still have their past when they lose their memory? Senility Sensation Being here; what is true in your experience; the pure sensation of the body; emotional sensation; addiction Consciousness, intelligence, sensation Focus on pure sensation in the body Intuition comes from sensation Registering the sensation in the tummy; doing what is right for you Sensations and feelings, making love Sensation and interpretation Sensation is a universal truth Sensation, making love, feeling and boredom Q: The sensation in my body that wants to rise, is it emotion? Q: There are sensations in my body that I can’t go into with my awareness Using the mind to observe the sensation; the mind goes still and the sensation disappears Sense(s) Human mind and divine mind: sense of senses, only one Me Now is not the present: senses, present, and presence One sense divided into the five senses Our senses love where we were born Sivananda student, celibacy and control of the senses. Interpretation of the senses turnsdesire into wanting S2 May 96 Art S2 Apr 97 Guilt S2 Dec 97 S1 Love S4 S2 Dec 95 Past/Memory/Child S2 Apr 98 Experience/Being here/Emotional sensation/Addiction S1 Sep 02 Intelligence/Consciousness Body Intuition Tummy Feelings/Making love Interpretation Truth Making Love/Feeling/Boredom Body/Emotion S1 S1 S3 S1 Body/Awareness S2 S1 S3 S3 S2 Dec 98 Jun 02 Aug 95 Apr 98 S1 Mar 99 Judgement/Doubt Mind Sensory universe Your brain and sensory universe Sensuality Violence, sexuality and sensuality 91 S3 May 96 Sep 02 Apr 02 Dec 95 Sep 96 Aug 95 Apr 95 Jun 02 Apr 98 Mar 93 S1 Apr 94 Spine/Vital being S4 Jun 99 Brain S2 Dec 93 Sexuality/Violence S3 Mar 96 Presence/Present/ Now Born Interpretation/Wanting/Celibacy/De sire/Sivananda student Sensory awareness Q: Is there a relationship between my sensory awareness of the spine and the vital being? S1 S2 Mind/Me Sensitive Sensitive or thin skinned Date Cancer/Fear/Enligtened master Self improvement Self improvement in the problem Self knowledge Love is an emanation of self-knowledge Side S2 S2 S2 S3 Sep 94 Mar 93 Apr 02 Mar 99 September 11 2001 Ask me any real question about the events in New York on 11 September: somebody has to tell you the truth Q: Can you speak of the new time after the great wipeout? Q: Did America do anything to bring this on themselves? Q: I don’t understand how it has affected me, the events seem to be far reaching The bigger picture; human nature; the end of our civilisation; religion; what are you serving with your life? Q: When I saw what happened there was nothing in me at all, is this a lack of compassion? Q: Why did I laugh when I saw it on TV? Service Dilemma: service versus in action The bigger picture; human nature, the end of our civilisation; religion; what are you serving with your life? What’s your service to mankind? Sex Buddha and Mara: facing sex Q: Can a man be in a similar state to woman’s vaginal consciousness? Does man lose interest in sex at a certain age? Could you speak about awareness and witnessing? Food and sex Q: If a woman is fully committed to giving up sex and her partner is only partly committed, should she compromise? Q: Is there sex in woman? What man has done to woman, generation after generation, from the beginning of the corruption Man and the pursuit of sex Robotics; virtual sex machine Sex and nudism Sex is the pursuit of love Q: What is the difference between making love and sex? Where there is not enough love I turn to sex; where is sex demonstrated in your life? Woman and sex Q: Woman’s fear of sex Sexes Interaction without merging the sexes Sexual devil Sexual attraction Letter from woman: men confusing sexual attraction with love Sexual excitement Love and sexual excitement Woman: sexual excitement Sexual experience Young man and woman: sexual experience Sexual frustration Karma can be modified. The cause of all wars is man’s sexual frustration Sexual frustration is the cause of all anger Sexual jokes Pressure on man of love to participate in sexual jokes at work 92 Also listed under Truth New time/Wipeout America Compassion Laughter Side Date S1 Sep 01 S1 Sep 01 S2 S2 S1 S2 S1 Sep 01 Sep 01 Sep 01 Sep 01 Sep 01 Dilemma/Inaction Bigger picture/Human nature/ Civilisation/Religion S2 S1 Dec 95 Sep 01 Mara/Buddha Man/Vaginal consciousness/ Awareness/Witnessing S4 S4 Jun 97 Feb 00 Food Compromise Corruption/Woman S4 S3 S4 Feb 94 Dec 96 Man Robotics Nudism Love Making love Love S4 S4 S4 S2 S4 S2 Jun 97 Jun 02 Apr 99 Dec 00 Mar 99 Jul 93 Interaction S3 May 95 Letters S3 Apr 98 Love Woman S4 S3 May 94 Jan 94 Woman/Young man S2 Jan 94 Karma/ War(s) S3 Feb 97 Man of love S4 Jun 97 Woman Woman Anger S3 S2 S4 S1 S4 Apr 02 Apr 97 Jan 94 Jun 97 Jan 94 Apr 97 Also listed under Sexual possession Man is sexually possessed Man separating from sexual possession Sexual wanting Letter from woman about food: woman and food; woman is starved for love; the charade of man and woman’s love; imagination; sexual Sexuality Fear of nothing; Buddha facing his sexuality and nothing arising Q: How do I know I am not pleasing my self in lovemaking? Thought and excitement are the past and pure sexuality is now Pure sexuality is normal in everyone, the error is to convert it into sex. The creator, consciousness behind us, pure sexuality Violence, sexuality and sensuality Shadowlands (the movie) Shadowlands (the movie): the establishment Shadowlands (cont): love Shock Shock and taking action Shortcuts Q: Are there any shortcuts? I want to do it on my own without relying on anything outside of me Silence What is happening with these silences? Darshan, a state of being S4 S4 Dec 97 Dec 97 Food/Woman/Love/Imagination/Dis solving/Letters S3 Sep 02 Buddha/Fear/Nothing arising Lovemaking/Excitement/Thought/ Past/Now S3 Jun 93 The creator S2 S2 Dec 97 S3 Mar 96 Violence/Sensuality Situation(s) Situation of life on earth Q: What makes me undergo situations again and again? Dec 97 S1 Apr 95 S3 Dec 97 S1 Feb 96 S4 Jun 00 Mother/Family life S2 Dec 98 Longing S2 Jun 97 Life S4 S4 Jan 93 Sep 98 S4 S4 Dec 00 Apr 99 S3 Mar 99 Taking action Darshan/Being Interpretation/Celibacy/Desire/Sen ses/Wanting 93 Dec 97 Mar 94 Mar 94 Sitting on a chair Everyone is asked to sit on a chair Sitting on a chair instead of the floor Sivananda student Sivananda student, celibacy and control of the senses. Interpretation of the senses turns desire into wanting S3 S1 S2 Getting my life right Single woman Single woman: she must accept her life as it is now; longing will push away what she wants Date Man Singing, dancing and celebrating Q: Can you speak to us on singing, dancing and celebrating Single mother Q: As a single mother it is difficult to get order into family life without yelling? The genius of being a mother Q: I am a pregnant single mother, how can I get my life right? Side S4 Apr 99 Also listed under Sixth dimension The sixth dimension Sleep Consciousness and intelligence: there are no conclusions in consciousness, deep dreamless sleep Deep dreamless sleep Deep dreamless sleep When I’m going to sleep I seem to accelerate into the void and I’m afraid. Facing the death energy; hello silence my old friend Sleeping Q: What is the intense dark passage between sleeping and waking which makes me emotional? Solar plexus Focus on the solar plexus Q: How can I go deeper, through the tension in my solar plexus? Solar plexus: the cosmic heart Son Q: My son was killed. Your tape on death gave me comfort. Still there is the sense in me of disbelief and horror. My son and ice cream Solution People asking the question ‘what should I do?’ Living off concepts. Specific answers lead to contradictions: to get the idea behind the words is the solution Something to do Q: Conflict between man and woman having different things to do and doing everything together Dec 00 S1 Void/Fear/Death S2 S3 S2 Feb 97 Dark passage/Emotions/Waking S3 Sep 98 S3 Aug 95 Temptation S2 Jun 01 Tension S1 S2 Jun 02 Jun 02 Death S1 Apr 97 Concepts/Get the idea Specific answers/Contradictions/ What should I do? S2 Jun 99 Conflict S2 Feb 97 S4 S2 Sep 94 Jul 93 Death Joy S2 S1 Dec 98 Dec 01 Self Spirit S4 S3 Mar 94 Jun 99 Satellites S4 S1 Apr 94 Sep 94 Talking S4 Sep 99 Intelligence/Sleep Heart Ice cream Songs Song: ‘A Million Years’ Three stages of popular songs Sorrow Q: Is there any good sorrow when someone dies? No joy, no sorrow. What is beyond joy and sorrow? Soul Soul and self The distinction between soul and spirit South African flag Space Satellites and space rubbish Space: what manifests into existence Speaking Difference between talking and speaking: I talk about things, I speak of God, love, beauty and truth 94 Date S3 Smoking How to give up smoking Snake Q: Why has the snake been used as a symbol of temptation? Side S3 S3 S4 Jun 93 Jul 93 Apr 98 May 94 Apr 02 May 94 Specific answers People asking the question ‘what should I do?’ Living off concepts. Specific answers lead to contradictions: to get the idea behind the words is the solution Speed of light Consciousness exceeds the speed of light The speed of light is the speed of consciousness Spine Q: Is there a relationship between my sensory awareness of the spine and the vital being? Spirit Speed of consciousness, spirit The distinction between soul and spirit We are animals with spirit Q: Who is aware or the self in the belly? Mind, psyche, spirit and eternity; man-hood and woman-hood Spirit guides Angels and spirit guides Spiritual communities Spirituality Be life: stop being spiritual Spiritual life Monks, exercise and the spiritual life Science and the spiritual life The four stages of living the spiritual life The spiritual life is about equilibrium The spiritual life: cleaning the mirror of clutter and clamour Q: What if your partner is not interested in the spiritual life? Spiritual master Difference between spiritual master and spiritual teacher Spiritual realisations Spiritual realisations: being is the source of realisations; the realisation of immortality takes all fear away Spiritual teachers Q: Are you in a lineage of spiritual teachers? Spoiler I am the truth and the false self is the spoiler Sports Men’s excitement in watching sports on TV, breaking attachment St Paul Christianity, St Paul and the gospels Stars Fixed stars: ideas in the mind of God Starving people Where all wars, starving people and concentration camps come from 95 Side Date Concepts/What should I do?/ Contradictions/ Get the idea/Solutions S2 Jun 99 Consciousness S1 S1 Dec 00 Sep 97 Sensory awareness/Vital being S4 Jun 99 Consciousness Soul Animals Mind/Psyche/Belly/Self/Man-hood/ Eternity/Woman-hood S3 S3 S1 S3 Sep 94 Jun 99 Apr 99 Apr 98 Angels S2 Dec 96 Life S4 Sep 01 Exercise/Monks Science S2 S1 S2 S1 S3 S2 Sep 96 Sep 99 Feb 00 Jun 00 Jun 01 Mar 98 S4 Dec 95 Immortality S1 Mar 96 Lineage S4 Feb 00 Truth/ Self / I S1 Apr 99 Attachment/Excitement S3 Jun 93 Christianity/The Gospels S2 Dec 01 God S2 Apr 93 Wars/Concentration camps S2 May 95 Also listed under Mirror Partner S4 May 96 State Q: How can I stay in this state? I have a problem with my mortgage State of being Feelings: in the state of being you can’t have any feelings How to reach the state of being State of love Human condition and state of love State of one Q from child: Why do we come out of the state of one and then try to get back to it? Static Letter: I used to think as a child that everything was static Staying with Me Seeing through the speaker, beginning of intelligence and power, nothing arising, knowing and belief, acknowledging Me within and sensory body without, love requires enormous speed Stephen Hawking Blindness and deception of the scientific mind: Stephen Hawkings’ scientific report Stillness Absence is the place and stillness is the way Consciousness: stillness is the way Q: How do you reach stillness when the mind has doubt and fear? Keeping the mind still when engaged in action and when sitting in stillness Q: Restlessness in man and stillness in lovemaking Stillness and the reaction of the mind Stillness is the way Stomach Ball in the stomach Emotions rising out of the stomach Knot in the stomach Stone age Q: I am having trouble being here. Loving your self, homosexual love, you cannot love everyone, loving the whole, I come from beyond the stone age Side Date Mortgage S2 Apr 02 Feelings S1 S3 Mar 96 Dec 95 Human condition S2 Sep 97 Child S1 Apr 99 Letters S3 Jun 99 S3 Dec 94 Scientific mind S2 Dec 93 Absence Consciousness Mind S3 S2 S4 Jul 93 Feb 97 Feb 01 Restlessness/ Lovemaking Mind S4 S3 S1 Mar 98 Apr 97 Sep 02 Also listed under Mind/Action Stress Stress and tension at work Study(ing) Q: Having a baby and studying: will this interfere with love between me and my man? Studying without unhappiness 96 Mar 96 Emotions S4 S2 S1 Apr 93 Apr 98 Feb 94 Self/Homosexual love/Being here S2 Feb 97 S1 Feb 01 Religions/Poetry/God/Truth S2 Jun 97 Tension S4 Mar 96 Baby/Study(ing) S4 Feb 97 Story about the bull Story about the bull; testosterone is irrepressible Straightness Use of the word God and concepts of God; religions and poetry; seeing things straight; the truth detailed for these times S4 Unhappiness S4 Mar 93 Subject Explanation to nine year old child: subject and object, reflection of my love Subjectivity Science, objectivity, subjectivity Suffering Do you want to suffer any more? Existence is the place of suffering Give up suffering, stop considering your feelings Q: Is it possible for me to accept my suffering? Pain without suffering Suffering is reflecting on self Suffering ceases when I cease thinking about it Q: What can I do about my guilt regarding the suffering of my partner’s ex wife and his children? Side Child/Love/Object S3 Sep 94 Objectivity/Science S3 Feb 94 S1 S1 S1 S4 S2 S2 S2 S4 Apr 95 Apr 99 Dec 95 Dec 01 Jul 93 Apr 93 Jun 98 Sep 02 S4 Dec 00 Bushel over our light/Father of lights/God/Gloria S3 Apr 02 Mirror S3 Feb 01 Independence/Letters Knowledge War Democracy/Power/Woman S4 S4 S2 S1 Apr 98 Jan 93 Apr 02 Jan 94 S1 Jun 98 Body/Tension S2 S4 Dec 94 Jun 97 Bride S2 May 94 Wanting/Giving/Receiving S3 Mar 93 Feelings Shock Predetermination Looking/Thinking S2 S1 S1 S4 S1 Jul 93 Aug 95 Apr 95 Dec 94 Jun 98 Speaking S4 Existence Feelings Acceptance Pain Guilt/Partner/Ex wife/Children Suicide Q: A friend killed herself and I feel sad when I hear her name Death, suicide and karma Mass cult suicide and ETI: I cannot judge it Suicide rate and young people Death/Karma ETI/Judge(ment) Sun Gloria, gloria, God is light; light behind the sun; the father of lights; God immanent and transcendental; the bushel over our light Supreme being The mirror of supreme being Surrender Letter from man: How can I surrender my independence? Surrender and knowledge War and surrender Woman: power, surrender, democracy Surrender or quit Surrender or quit: if I have to surrender anything, then I have a problem Symbols Tension in the body and symbols Tail The tail: bride’s train Taking Wanting and giving, taking and receiving Taking a position Taking action Feelings mean that you are not taking action Shock and taking action Taking action, predetermination Taking action, looking and thinking Talking Difference between talking and speaking: I talk about things, I speak of God, love, beauty and truth 97 Date Also listed under _ S4 S2 S3 Sep 96 Apr 97 Sep 96 Jun 02 Sep 99 Tantric love Q: Confusion between eastern traditions of celibacy and this teaching of tantric love. You don’t need a celibate body, you need a celibate mind Tantric love: tantric workshops, tantric master Teacher(s) Q: I get irritated with my partner; she has another teacher and I’ve had several teachers Ivan and Krishnamurti, my wonderful teachers Q: Since being with your teaching I have been to other teachers and felt that I got something from this, so I’m in a quandary. Teaching A master who doesn’t teach Letter about harmony and fighting. You shouldn’t try to teach each other May I speak to you of death? Men who have helped this teaching who have recently died Teaching child to think This teaching, going into Me: two hemispheres of one cosmos Tears Cleansing tears Teenagers practising grace Temptation Q: Why has the snake been used as a symbol of temptation? Tension Q: How can I go deeper, through the tension in my solar plexus? Q: How do I drop tension to the stomach? Stress and tension at work Tension in the body and symbols Terrorists Q: Do the terrorists make use of the matrix? Testicles Q: Why do I get pain in my testicles? The Accolade Romance and what we have lost; The Accolade The creator The creator, consciousness behind us, pure sexuality The existential being The Gospels Attachment to Christianity. The Gospels of Philip and Mary. Jesus’ love of Mary Magdalene Christianity, St Paul and the gospels The Grid The Grid pop group The light The light: how you dim your light and how it shines in love 98 Side Date S4 Apr 98 S2 Feb 97 Irritation/Partner S4 Mar 99 Master Harmony/Fighting/Letters S1 S4 Sep 98 Apr 98 Cosmos/Going into Me S1 S4 Mar 94 Dec 93 Also listed under Eastern traditions/Celibacy Krishnamurti/Ivan Death S3 S2 S1 Sep 01 Dec 99 Dec 00 S2 Dec 95 Snake S2 Jun 01 Solar plexus S2 Stress Body/Symbols S3 S4 S4 Jun 02 The Matrix S3 Sep 01 Pain S3 Apr 99 Romance S1 May 96 Sexuality S2 Dec 97 Christianity/Jesus/Attachment/Mar y Magdalene St Paul/Christianity S2 Sep 99 S1 Feb 94 S1 Apr 97 Grace S2 S2 S2 Feb 94 Apr 93 Mar 96 Jun 97 Dec 97 Dec 01 The Matrix Q: As I let go of my prisoners will my experience of the matrix change? Q: Do the terrorists make use of the matrix? The Matrix which extends through living and life Two aspects of God: personal God of the religions; impersonal God and the matrix Side Date S4 Jun 02 S4 Apr 04 Conscience S2 Mar 98 The public S3 Jun 97 The people S3 Jun 97 Relative reality S3 Apr 93 Glory/Passion S4 Dec 99 Thought S2 Dec 96 Love/Body S1 Dec 97 Childhood memories S1 May 95 Healers/Letters/Energy/Patients S1 Mar 99 Master Consciousness S3 Mar 96 Self S2 Sep 02 Emotion/Past Partnership S1 S3 Mar 93 Dec 96 Looking/Taking action Looking S4 S3 S1 S3 S1 S3 Dec 97 Dec 95 Feb 00 Apr 93 Jun 98 Jan 94 Thee S2 Also listed under Prisoners Terrorists Religions/God The Messiah The monitor The monitor; conscience The people The public is stupid but the people are not The public The public is stupid but the people are not The spider and the web The thinker Relative reality: the thinker The timeless Passion, glory, the timeless The watcher Q: Is the watcher the thought? Thee The body is love in existence, the perfect instrument for love: with my body I thee love Thou and thee Thou Therapies Childhood memories and need of therapies Therapists Letter from a man: Do healers and therapists need to be cautious because the energy of their patients can enter them? Therapists and master consciousness: when you are with Me you are ready to be a being; that does not require any therapy Thinker Q: Love of your self, is the self the thinker? Thinking All emotion of past; thinking arises from the past I’m having difficulty stopping thinking; long partnership ended today Every man is looking for a woman; you only think about what you don’t have Give up thinking in the good times Looking and thinking; designing, refining ideas by looking Looking and thinking Stopping thinking: honesty and action Taking action, looking and thinking Thinking and looking Thou Thou and thee Man Looking Looking 99 S3 S3 S3 S3 S2 S3 Sep 01 Sep 01 Jun 02 May 96 Jun 01 Sep 97 Jun 01 Thought Q: How do I know I am not pleasing my self in lovemaking? Thought and excitement are the past and pure sexuality is now Q: How can I stop persistent thought patterns? Human evolution: end of thought Q: If I don’t acknowledge or act on a thought, does it still create karma? Q: Is the watcher the thought? Q: Is thought always there? Stopping the distraction of thought Q: What gives power to the thought? Time Consciousness and awareness in and out of time Time sharing with women Q: What is time? Also listed under Side S3 Dec 97 S2 S1 S4 Sep 98 Sep 94 Sep 01 S4 S4 S3 Dec 93 Feb 97 Sep 99 S3 Feb 96 S2 Sep 01 Intelligence/God/Dirty work S4 Dec 01 Love/Truth S1 Jun 98 Realisation S2 Sep 00 S4 Jun 98 S1 Me S2 S4 S2 Mar 93 Psychic possession S3 Feb 00 Argument/Fight/Mind/Human condition Child(ren) God Lovemaking S1 Jun 97 Lovemaking/Excitement/Past/Sexu ality/Now Evolution Karma The watcher Awareness/Consciousness Top quark and H particles S2 S2 S2 S4 S1 Tradition Tradition: I have no followers Followers Tragedy It takes tragedy to bring us together, which is a tragedy Transformation Q: Who is this thing that is transforming yourself? Is this intelligence within your volition? Can you explain God not doing the dirty work? Transcendental The two transcendental principles of love and truth Transcendental realisation My transcendental realisation Transmission of love Acknowledgement of transmission of love Troublemaker Me, the source of honesty; my self, the troublemaker Me/Honesty/Self Trust I trust Me inside Q: My trust was shattered, how do I cultivate trust Truth A caution about realising and being able to contain the truth; psychic possession Ask me any real question about the events in New York on 11 September: somebody has to tell you the truth Fight and argument; living the truth; the mind and the human condition Introducing children to the truth God is truth: What is truth? Going out of existence in lovemaking. Lovemaking leads to truth and truth leads to love How to communicate truth and love to a child I am the truth and the false self is the spoiler Q: Is there more than one truth? Live just one thing you know to be the truth Living not mouthing the truth Living the truth you hear 100 Date September 11 2001 Communication/Love/Child(ren) I/ Self/Spoiler S1 S3 S1 S4 S4 S1 S1 S4 S1 S4 Dec Dec Dec Sep 96 95 95 01 May 94 Mar 96 Mar 96 Sep 01 Sep 01 Dec 96 Jun 97 Mar 98 Dec 97 Apr 99 Jun 97 Mar 93 Jan 94 Jan 94 Realisation of the truth Seeing truth behind appearance Sensation is a universal truth The simplicity of truth and love. Concepts and ideas The two transcendental principles of love and truth The truth behind astrology, hand reading etc The world is based on knowing, and the truth brings knowledge Truth begins with honesty: are you honest in love or are you indulging yourself? There is only one truth There is no experience in truth Truth and love, two aspects of God I have realised: God splits itself to know itself Truth is in myth, not in scientific theory Truth is the idea behind the body, out of existence Universal truth: giving Use of the word God and concepts of God; religions and poetry; seeing things straight; the truth detailed for these times Tummy Registering the sensation in the tummy; doing what is right for you There is nothing to hold on to in Being; telling the children about past experience lodged in the tummy; it is bodies that make love Trying You cannot try to be good Two people coming together Q: what is the dynamic of two people coming together? Unconscious Written question: Can primal therapy help to access the unconscious? Understanding I have this desire to be understood by man. Fitting and suiting; platonic relationship Underworld Hell: my self, demons of the underworld, facing myself Unhappiness A gift to the children: I will never be unhappy in your presence Be still and know that I am God; the most unhappy people on earth are the busiest people Black cloud of unhappiness Q from 7 year old: why do I have unhappiness in me? God can’t enter your body while unhappiness is in you Happiness or absence of unhappiness Q: I’ve been joyous in love, but now I’m getting more and more unhappy Studying without unhappiness The mind of God; if there are no senses there is no universe Unhappiness and looking into my life Unhappiness in children What is, is right; is unhappiness right Unisex 101 Also listed under Side Date Sensation Love/Concepts/Ideas Love/Transcendental Astrology/Hand reading Knowing/Knowledge S1 S3 S3 S1 S1 S3 S1 Dec 98 Apr 94 Aug 95 Dec 97 Jun 98 Jun 01 Dec 01 Love/God S2 S2 S3 Dec 96 Jun 93 Dec 97 Realisation Honesty/Self S1 Dec 97 Religions/Poetry/Straightness/God S4 S1 S2 S2 Sensation S1 Apr 98 Being good S2 Sep 01 S4 May 96 Primal therapy S3 Sep 98 Fitting & suiting/Platonic relationship/Desire S3 Sep 97 Hell/Self S1 Apr 93 Unhappiness S1 Feb 96 Black cloud Children God/Body Happiness Love/Joy S2 S2 S2 S4 S4 Sep 00 May 96 Sep 98 Dec 93 Mar 99 Myth/Scientific theory Body/Out of existence Children/Past/Being/Making love Be still/God Studying God Children What is S1 S4 S4 S4 S4 S4 S2 S2 Jun 97 Dec 97 Jan 93 Jun 97 Apr 98 Feb 96 Mar 93 May 96 Jul 93 Dec 93 Jul 93 Feb 97 Universe Universe gives you what you acknowledge Universal love Coldness of universal love Untruth Q: When religions engage in untruth, eg the crusades, why isn’t it self-evident that an evil is being perpetrated? Useless chat The human condition: seeking a cure, giving it up; getting the power to overcome the human condition; giving up useless chat Vagina The consciousness of the womb; vaginal awareness and vaginal consciousness Woman’s consciousness is in her vagina Woman has to earn her vagina Side Acknowledgment S3 Dec 95 S4 Apr 95 Crusades/Evil/Religions S4 Sep 00 Human condition S1 Jun 97 Womb S3 Dec 99 Vaginal consciousness/Pleasure S3 Feb 00 S3 Feb 00 S4 Feb 00 S3 Jul 93 Children/Discipline/Boredom S3 Sep 00 Man/Woman/Resonance S3 Jun 98 Philosophies/Falsehoods S2 Apr 95 S4 Dec 94 Domestic violence Man Sexuality/Sensuality Woman/Cells/Self destruction S3 S2 S3 S3 Sep 00 Mar 96 Mar 96 Aug 95 Right action S1 Apr 99 Meditation S4 Dec 01 Man and woman S3 Jun 98 Woman’s consciousness Vaginal awareness Vaginal awareness and vaginal consciousness: human pleasure and divine pleasure Vaginal consciousness Vaginal awareness and vaginal consciousness: human pleasure and divine pleasure Q: Can a man be in a similar state to woman’s vaginal consciousness? Does man lose interest in sex at a certain age? Could you speak about awareness and witnessing? Vaginal awareness/Pleasure Man/Awareness/Witnessing/Sex Values Values you are concerned with and real values Vandalism Vandalism: lack of discipline and boredom in children Vibration Vibration and resonance between man and woman Videogames Philosophies and falsehoods; leaving the senses; videogames Vigilance Vigilance and seeing the cause Violence The cause of domestic violence Violence in man Violence, sexuality and sensuality Woman facing her violence and self destruction; the negative cells Violent son Q: I have parted from my violent son – is that the right action to take? Vipassana meditation Q: Can you give your views on vipassana meditation? Virtue Man and woman’s virtue: woman mustn’t take on a man 102 Date Also listed under S2 S2 Apr 98 Jun 98 Side Date Lord S3 Apr 98 Magic Relaxation S2 S4 Feb 94 Mar 93 Home/Life S2 S3 S1 Mar 93 May 95 Sep 96 Sensory awareness/Spine S4 Jun 99 Lifebody/Deadbody/Excitement/Pa ssion S1 Dec 98 Sleep/Fear/Death S2 Apr 98 S4 Apr 95 Dark passage/Sleeping/Emotions S3 Sep 98 Human existence S2 Jun 97 S1 S4 Jul 93 Dec 98 S3 S3 Mar 99 Feb 00 S3 Feb 97 S3 S3 Apr 95 Feb 96 Also listed under with troubles Vision A vision I had 35 years ago and its implications for us: It is the Lord! Visualisation Visualistation, magical and magic Relaxation and visualisation Vital(ity) Returning home; new vitality in your life Vital and vitality Vital state Vital being Q: Is there a relationship between my sensory awareness of the spine and the vital being? Q: When you talk about after death and coming back into the vital being, are you saying that this happens in a random way? Vital body Vital body or life body; seeing a dead body; excitement and passion Void When I’m going to sleep I seem to accelerate into the void and I’m afraid. Facing the death energy; hello silence my old friend Death Wailing Wall The Wailing Wall, perpetuating sentimental feeling Waking Q: What is the intense dark passage between sleeping and waking which makes me emotional? Walking Walking from left to right: the symbol of human existence Want(ing) Giving God what God wants: What do you want? What would I put before all else? Purpose of experience; wanting and desire Sivananda student, celibacy and control of the senses. Interpretation of the senses turns desire into wanting The world’s greatest mind hasn’t been able to work out what woman wants Wanting and giving, taking and receiving Wanting or being open to relationship Q: What about the wanting and yearning for true love? War(s) Karma can be modified. The cause of all wars is man’s sexual frustration War is about killing people War and surrender Where all wars, starving people and concentration camps come from Washing machine Inner perception: washing machine inside Nothing arising: when the washing machine stops 103 Experience/Desire Interpretation/Senses/Celibacy/De sire/Sivananda student What woman wants Giving/TakingReceiving Relationship Love/Yearning Karma/Sexual frustration Surrender Starving people/Concentration camps Inner perception Nothing arising S4 S3 S1 S4 S1 S2 S2 Jun 99 Mar 93 Jul 93 Sep 02 Apr 99 Apr 02 May 95 Also listed under When the washing machine stops Water Q: As the human body is 80% water and water signifies emotion, is it natural for us to be emotional? Website Website, woman and love Wedding vows Addresses young girls: real wedding vows Weeping You are not living the truth if you weep Wellbeing Character and personality; character is wellbeing; personality is the frontal face of the person; defending your self;effect of alcohol Focus on wellbeing Western world Western world believes only in greed and material gain Apr 98 Body/Emotion S4 Apr 99 Woman/Love S2 Sep 00 Girls S4 Dec 93 Living the truth S1 Sep 98 Character/Personality/Self/Alcohol S1 Mar 98 S2 Jun 02 S2 Dec 01 S4 Mar 96 S2 Jun 99 Love/Experience S1 Dec 97 Intelligence S1 Dec 00 Unhappiness S2 Jul 93 Concepts/Specificanswers/Contrad ictions/Get the idea/Solutions S2 Jun 99 Wanting S3 Feb 00 Life S3 Aug 95 Divine Divine/Harmony Choice/Wilfulness Divine/Giving S3 S3 S4 S3 S4 S3 S4 S4 S4 Mar 93 Mar 93 Apr 95 Mar 93 Mar 94 Mar 93 Dec 94 Feb 94 Jun 93 What people think of you Don’t care what people think of you What you do not want Experience is supposed to teach you about love: to demonstrate what you do not want What you really are What you really are is intelligence. It will give you what you focus on What is What is , is right; is unhappiness right? What should I do? People asking the question ‘what should I do?’ Living off concepts. Specific answers lead to contradictions: to get the idea behind the words is the solution What woman wants The world’s greatest mind hasn’t been able to work out what woman wants Wheelchair Being in a wheelchair: accepting life as it is Will Aligning with the divine will Divine will: harmony in all aspects of life Free will, free choice, wilfulness Giving attracts the divine will Idea embraced by the will Pure intellect, the will, willingness to give The crossing: divine will and my will Will: introduction Will and willing Intellect/Giving Divine 104 Date S1 Greed/Material gain What do I leave behind Q: What do I leave behind? You give in so many ways…there is a sub-plot here Side Also listed under Wilfulness Free will, free choice, wilfulness Wilfulness: a contrite heart Wimp Q: How can I love more and give up everything without being a wimp? Winning/Losing Character is good that has no opposite; personality is winning/losing Winning and losing Wipeout Q: Can you speak of the new time after the great wipeout? Withdrawing Time to withdraw and time to come forward Witnessing Q: Can a man be in a similar state to woman’s vaginal consciousness? Does man lose interest in sex at a certain age? Could you speak about awareness and witnessing? Woman Addresses young girls 10 – 12 year: the nature of woman and being true to love Answering letters from two women (see ‘To Woman In Love’ pp 87-93): woman is love and is responsible for love; woman cannot teach man; woman must be mastered by man (who knows what he’s doing); woman must be in command of love Are you in your place? Situation of man and woman As man leaves woman he actually leaves the earth Beauty and the beast: woman, the beauty of the earth; turning the beast into the noble man Q: Being a woman with my nature of love, I have a fear of not being able to support myself with work Change of life in woman Conversation between King Arthur and Merlin from ‘Camelot’ about how to handle a woman Demand and insecurity Difference between man and woman Giving everything in love or being demanding? Q: How can a man help a woman through menopause and hysterectomy? Q: How can woman put God before man? Q: How does woman put God first before her man? Q: How do women handle being fighter pilots when they menstruate? How should a woman respond if, when she says ‘I love you’, the man says ‘you’ve got an attachment’? Casting pearls before swine Q: I experience God in woman but it is not always in me when the external reflection of woman is absent Q: I close off when my woman is angry Q: Is it natural for a woman who doesn’t want children not to have the inclination to make love during ovulation? Maturity of woman Q: Is there a time for woman to cut man out of her life? Why have anything else when I am complete? Q: Is there sex in woman? What man has done to woman, generation after generation, from the beginning of the corruption 105 Side Date Choice/Will Heart S4 S3 Apr 95 May 94 Giving up/Love S4 Apr 98 Personality/Character S1 Mar 98 September 11 2001/New time S2 Sep 01 Coming forward S4 Mar 93 Vaginal consciousness/ Awareness/Man/Sex S4 Feb 00 Girls/Love S3 Jan 93 Place/Man Man/Earth Noble man/Beauty and the beast S1 S3 S4 Jan 93 Sep 97 Jun 93 Change of life King Arthur and Merlin/‘Camelot’ S4 S1 Jun 93 Dec 99 Losing Letters/ Love Fear/Work Demand/Insecurity Man Demand Hysterectomy/Menopause/Man God God Fighter pilots/Menstruation Attachment/Casting pearls before swine S2 S2 S4 S2 S3 S3 S2 S4 S1 S2 S4 Mar 93 Apr 93 Feb 01 Jan 93 May 95 Jun 93 Jun 01 Aug 95 May 96 Sep 99 Dec 96 God S2 Jun 99 Man S3 Jan 94 Closing off/Anger Making love/Children/Ovulation Corruption/Sex S3 S4 S4 Sep 97 Mar 99 Apr 97 Q: Is there anything that women need to learn to be able to love a man? Letter from woman about food: woman and food; woman is starved for love; the charade of man and woman’s love; imagination; sexual Man, woman or absence Masturbation and woman Most beautiful woman in the world Must be mastered by man who knows what he is doing; demonstration for letter Power, surrender, democracy Purpose of love and purpose of life: man, woman, new and longstanding partnerships, being alone Putting women in the front line Selfishness in woman Sexual excitement Strength, emotion, leaving partner The female in woman is grace Vibration and resonance between man and woman Website, woman and love When a woman is not loved enough she gets emotional Woman alone Woman and doing: workaholic Woman and realisations Woman’s anger at man leaving Woman and insecurity Woman and sex Woman facing her violence and self destruction; the negative cells Q: Woman’s fear of sex Woman: heavy-heartedness; the deep past in her; woman is nothing; gratitude for her life Woman’s intuition Woman is the prize of existence and man is the realisation of this prize Woman is God in female form. Man is God in male form. The way to see God in form is to love. Woman, logical or rational Woman losing the old experience of love Woman needs to be loved Woman putting children before God: not giving in to sentimental love Woman, rivalry and doubt Q: Woman working in the world and passion You have to be a real woman when man doesn’t want you Young man and woman: sexual experience Woman and child Q: Does a man reduce the love between the woman and the child? Woman-hood Q: Who is aware or the self in the belly? Mind, psyche, spirit and eternity; man-hood and woman-hood Woman 100% love, man 10% something to do Woman in command of love Woman in command of love Q: I don’t know what it is to be loved by man. Woman must be in command of love, you must make man be responsible and take you on 106 Also listed under Love Food/Letters/Love/Imagination/Dis solving/Sexual wanting Man/Absence Masturbation Democracy/Power/Surrender Partnership/Alone/Life/Love/Man Front line Selfishness Sexual excitement Partner Female/Grace Man/Vibration/Resonance Website/Love Emotion Alone Workaholic Realisations Anger Insecurity Sex Violence/Cells/Self destruction Sex Heavy-heartedness/Past/Gratitude Intuition Prize of existence/Man God/Man/Love Love God/Love Side Date S2 Dec 99 S2 S1 S4 S1 Dec 94 Jan 94 Dec 96 Jan 93 S2 S4 S3 S2 S1 S3 S2 S3 S4 S2 S2 S2 S3 S2 S3 Jun 01 Jan 94 Jan 94 Jan 94 Apr 02 Jun 98 Sep 00 Dec 98 Jan 94 Dec 94 Dec 94 Jan 94 May 95 Jan 94 Aug 95 S3 S1 S1 S4 S3 S3 S4 S2 S2 S2 S3 S1 Sep 02 Jan 94 Dec 96 Jun 97 Jun 97 Mar 98 Sep 98 Dec 97 Dec 94 Jun 93 Dec 97 Jul 93 Sexual experience/Young man S3 S2 S3 S2 Love S4 Jun 01 Mind/Psyche/Belly/Spirit/Manhood/Eternity/Self S3 Apr 98 S1 Dec 94 S2 S4 May 96 Feb 97 Doubt/Rivalry Work/Passion Love/Man’s responsibility May 95 Dec 00 Dec 96 Jan 94 Woman’s consciousness What happens to a man when a woman of consciousness leaves him; facing the pain Woman’s consciousness is in her vagina Womb The consciousness of the womb; vaginal awareness and vaginal consciousness Work Q: Being a woman with my nature of love, Ihave a fear of not being able to support myself with work Curiosity: gossip at work Dissolving momentum of work with partner Don’t fall in love with your work; stay detached by being grateful to God Getting it right with mum, dad and work Q: Woman working in the world and passion Working through Q: cont’d: Isn’t there a lot I need to work through and learn about myself? Workaholic Woman and doing: workaholic World Q: As everything comes from this great divine consciousness, wouldn’t the evolution of the world be towards something better? Hardness of the world Q: How can you be intelligent and still be in the working world? In the light of the degeneration in the world, isn’t God in charge of everything? The answer is in myth; integrity of God Intermediate world and virtual reality; the young are more and more unable to love Man’s responsibility for what he has done in the world and his failure to love woman Mixing in the world: I love my ordinary man The earth and the world; scientists are driven by the world Worldling I am an earthling; I have become a worldling Side Date Pain S1 Jun 00 Vagina S3 Dec 99 Fear/Woman S4 Feb 01 Getting it right/Mum/Dad Woman/Passion S2 S2 Jan 93 Dec 00 Also listed under Vagina Curiosity/Gossip Dissolving/Partner God Yearning Q: What about the wanting and yearning for true love? Yesterday’s movie Yesterday’s movie; giving up attachment Young man Older woman and younger man Young man and woman: sexual experience Young woman Every young woman born in this society is going to have a broken heart. Why does society accept this? 107 S3 S4 S2 Apr 98 Dec 93 Apr 93 Dec 96 Learning S4 Jun 98 Woman S2 Dec 94 Evolution/Divine S4 Sep 96 Intelligence S4 S2 Sep 96 Sep 02 Reality/Love S2 May 95 Ordinary man Earth/Scientists S4 S3 Jun 97 Mar 98 Degeneration/God/Myth/Integrity Man’s responsibility/Love S3 S4 Jun 97 Jun 97 S1 Apr 97 S3 Apr 95 Love/Wanting S4 Sep 02 Attachment S4 Dec 95 Older woman Sexual experience/Woman S1 S2 Apr 94 Jan 94 Broken heart S3 Feb 97 Earthling Wrongs of humanity Everyone pays for the wrongs of humanity S2 Also listed under Youth How youth walks Listening to the young Youth: gaining experience without gaining emotion Zen Buddhism Studying Zen Buddhism; living Roman Catholicism Roman Catholicism 108 Side Date S1 S3 S2 Apr 02 May 94 Apr 93 S4 Jun 97 BARRY LONG FOUNDATION INTERNATIONAL CONTACT DETAILS Introductory information, including the latest information regarding Barry Long's books, videos, audios and video events is available online om: www.barrylong.org • [email protected] Or via phone fax or post om: e Barry Long Foundation International PO Box 838, Billinudgel, NSW 2483 Australia Tel +61 (0)2 6680 4988 Fax +61 (0)2 6680 4977 109