AQaUra Ant
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AQaUra Ant
AQaUra Ant saImaa Kuranaa “[sa iDbbao pr @yaa ilaKUM?” naoha nao kaD-baao-D ko iDbbao kao Top sao band krto hue pUCa. “iktabaoM”, maOMnao javaaba idyaa AaOr naoha nao kalao maak-r sao iDbbao ko caarao Aaor ‘rajana kI iktabaoM’ ilaK kr iDbbao kao idvaar ko saaqa saTa idyaa. mammaI ABaI ivaiDyaao TopaoM kao ek iDbbao maoM saTa rhI qaI, [sa trh ik ]sa maoM j,yaada sao j,yaada TopoM Aa sako. maOM Saolf, ko saamanao KD,I hu[- saI. DI. ko Zor maoM sao ]sakI AaOr ApnaI saI. DI. Alaga kr rhI qaI ik Acaanak $k ga[-, ‘]na saI. DI. ka @yaa k$M jaao hmaarI hOM?’ laoikna [sa saaoca kao ja,bardstI maOMnao idmaaga sao hTayaa. eosao savaala tao k[- baar mana maoM Aato qao kBaI ek tUf,ana kI trh, saba kuC taoD,to faoD,to hue AaOr kBaI ek hvaa ko hlko sao JaaoMko kI trh basa isaf- CUto hue. laoikna Aba tao eosao savaala ek zNDk kI trh badna kao kMpkMpato hue, hiD\DyaaoM maoM jaa kr basa gae hOM. ABaI [sa savaala nao maoro Antr kI zNDk kao ek baar ifr jagaa idyaa AaOr maOMnao caupcaap ek zNDI saaMsa lao kr [sao Apnao sao inakalaa. naoha AaOr mammaI nao ek saaqa mauJao doKa. Saayad zNDI saaMsa ko karNa. na iksaI nao kuC kha, na iksaI nao kuC pUCa. kuC khnao yaa saunanao kao Sabd hI khaM qao! maOMnao ]na hmaarI vaalaI saI. DI. ka tIsara Zor banaanaa Sau$ kr idyaa. naoha nao Aakr rajana ka Zor ]zayaa AaOr iDbbao maoM band krnaa Sau$ ikyaa. “AaOr yao vaalaI.........?” naoha nao baIca vaalao Zor kI Aaor [Saara 1 ikyaa. “yao vaalaI mauJao ABaI doKnaI hOM” - pta nahIM naoha maorI baat samaJaI yaa nahIM. doKto hI doKto, maoro Apa-TmaOMT kI baIca kI dIvaar, iDbbaao ko Zor ko pICo Kao saI ga[- - ‘rajana kI iktabaoM’, ‘rajana kI ivaiDyaaoM’, ‘rajana ko jaUto’.......... ]f, ! iktnao saaro jaUto inaklao qao rajana ko! vah yahaM haota tao idKatI ]sako jaUtaoM kI saM#yaa maoro jaUtaoM kI saM#yaa sao kuC j,yaada kma nahIM qaI. saaqa hI yah saaoca BaI Aa[- ik Agar rajana yahaM haota tao @yaa maOM [sa trh ]sako jaUto iDbbaaoM maoM band kr rhI haotI? ek baar ifr maoro mauMh sao zNDI saaMsa inakla ga[-. mammaI khIM pasa hI KD,I qaI. ]nhaoMnao QaIro sao maoro knQaaoM pr Apnaa haqa rKa - ]nakI AaMKaoM nao jaOsao pUCa, “@yaa huAa?” AaOr maorI AaMKaoM nao jaOsao javaaba idyaa – “kuC nahIM.” ‘kuC nahIM’ ka matlaba kuC nahIM tao nahI haota. A@sar ‘kuC nahIM’ tao tba kha jaata hO jaba jaao huAa hO ]sao kh donao ko ilae ijasa p`yaasa kI, ijasa xamata kI yaa ifr ijasa saahsa kI ja$rt haotI hO vah ]sa ‘kuC’ kao Jaolanao maoM hI Kca- hao cauka haota hO. AaiKr huAa hI @yaa hO? [tnaa hI tao huAa hO ik rajana calaa gayaa hO? [tnaa hI tao huAa hO ik Aaja maOM mammaI AaOr ApnaI CaoTI bahna naoha ko saaqa Apnao [sa Apa-TmaOMT maoM sao rajana ka saamaana Alaga kr rhI qaI? [tnaa hI tao huAa hO ik rajana AaOr maOM pit p%naI qao AaOr Aaja pit p%naI na haonao ka phlaa kdma qaa? pr ....... @yaa sacamauca yahI phlaa kdma qaa? kba huAa qaa yah fOsalaa? ]sa idna tao nahIM huAa haogaa jaba rajana nao mauJao kha qaa “maOM SaadI Sauda ijandgaI nahIM caahta 2 hUM.” @yaaoMik [tnaI baD,I baat khnao sao phlao ]sanao [sa baat pr ivacaar BaI ikyaa haogaa. Saayad vahI phlaa kdma qaa. pr yah ivacaar mana maoM Aanao sao phlao rajana nao khIM tao yah mahsaUsa ikyaa haogaa ik Aba vah mauJao Pyaar nahIM krta hO [sailae Aba vah maora pit banakr rhnaa nahIM caahta hO. @yaa vahI qaa phlaa kdma? ek saIlana maoro Antr pr Canao lagaI AaOr maOM caah kr BaI Apnao AtIt maoM sao eosaI QaUp nahIM ZUMZ sakI ijasa sao maOM Kud kao [sa saIlana sao bacaa sakUM. yaUM tao mammaI AaOr papa daonaaoM nao hI k[- baatoM khI qaI – yah isaw krnao ik jaao kuC hao rha hO Balaa hI hao rha hO maanaa ik Aaja [samaoM Balaa ZUMZnaa mauiSkla hO. ]nhaoMnao yah BaI kha ik AcCa huAa jaldI hI pta cala gayaa. Agar kuC saala AaOr baIt jaato tao - jaanatI hUM ik ]naka [Saara maorI ]mar kI Aaor qaa AaOr [sa baat pr ik rajana AaOr maOM pit p%naI sao maata ipta nahIM banao qao. “baccaaoM ko karNa bahut fk- pD,ta hO” papa nao kha qaa. AaOr naoha - phlao tao vah fUT fUT kr rao[- qaI AaOr ifr ]sa saaD,I kao ijasao ]sanao maorI SaadI vaalao idna phnaa qaa ek qaOlao maoM baaMQa kr mammaI ko kmaro maoM foMk kr baaolaI qaI, “mauJao naf,rt hO rajana sao - kOsao vah [tnao saalaaoM ka samabanQa [tnaI AasaanaI sao taoD, saka!......” laoikna yah baat mammaI papa nao AasaanaI sao svaIkar kI hao eosaa nahIM huAa qaa. vao daonaaoM baat kI pUrI gahra[- maoM gae qao - karNa kI talaaSa maoM. karNa Agar ek samasyaa yaa ifr kao[- GaTnaa haota tao vao saulaJaanao kI kaoiSaSa krto - ]sao yaa mauJao samaJaato AaOr ]nhoM Apnaa k%-vaya inaBaanao ka 3 Avasar imala jaata. laoikna “maOM SaadI Sauda ijandgaI nahIM caahta hUM” kao mammaI papa kOsao saulaJaato? mammaI nao kha qaa, “SaadISauda ijandgaI kI caah Apnao Aap pOda haotI hO - baahr sao tao Andr nahIM DalaI jaa saktI” ApaT- maOMT maoM mammaI ek iDbbao maoM kuC TTaola rhI qaI. naoha pasa baOzI qaI AaOr kh rhI qaI, “[sa iDbbao kao Aap Gar lao jaaAao mammaI.” “@yaa hO [sa iDbbao maoM?” maOMnao pUCa “tsvaIroM.....” naoha baaolaI. “mammaI @yaa krogaI [na tsvaIraoM ka.......” maOMnao iDbbao sao JaaMktI hu[- rajana AaOr ApnaI tsvaIraoM sao AaMK caurato hue kha. ABaI tk mammaI caup baOzI qaI. ek dma baaolaI, “tao @yaa yao rajana kao do daogaI?” “rajana @yaa krogaa [na tsvaIraoM ka...........?” AgalaI baat maOMnao ]nasao nahIM Kud sao khI, “ijasanao idla sao hI inakala idyaa - vah tsvaIraoM kao Balaa @yaaoMkr rKogaa?” mammaI nao QaImao sao javaaba idyaa, “tsvaIraoM kao inakala kr f`oma tao kama maoM laae jaa sakto hOM.” “mauJao nahIM caaihe yao f`oma.......... ” maoro eosaa khto hI naoha nao jaldI sao Top lagaa kr iDbbaa band ikyaa AaOr maak-r sao ilaKa ‘Gar’. iktnao GaMTao sao lagao hue qao hma tInaaoM [sa kama maoM! maoro Apa-TmaOMT kI baIca kI dIvaar ko Aagao iDbbaao ko Zor lagaa qaa AaOr ifr BaI iktnaa kuC qaa samaoTnao kao. kmaro ko baIca f-Sa pr ilafafo pD,o qao AaOr naoha nao ]nakI 4 trf, [Saara krto hue pUCa, “yao ilaf,afo........?” naoha saaocaao maoM iGar kr qamatI nahIM hO - ]sakI yahI baat mauJao psand hO. jaba kao[- kama saamanao haota hO vah ]sao Ktma krnao kI Qauna maoM jauT jaatI hO. AaOr maO hUM ik hr ek saaoca kI JapoT maoM qama saI jaatI hUM. naoha jaldI jaldI ilafafaoM kao TTaola rhI qaI - “yao saba tao toro kpD,o hOM na .........?” “haM, hOM tao maoro. ........pr yao rajana nao KrIdo qao maoro ilae.” maOMnao naoha ko haqa maoM pkD,I hu[- hrI naa[TI kao doKto hue kha. “tao.......?” naoha maoro javaaba kI [ntja,ar kr rhI qaI. “mauJao nahI caaihe yao saba .......” naoha nao jaldI sao hrI naa[TI AaOr baakI ko kpD,o ek iDbbao maoM Baro AaOr maak-r sao ilaKa - ‘saalavaoSana AarmaI’. naoha AaOr maOMnao imala kr saamaana mammaI kI kar maoM laad idyaa . rajana ko iDbbao idvaar ko saaqa saTo rKo qao. prsaao ]saka daost Aaegaa AaOr yao iDbbao ]za kr lao jaaegaa.AaOr maoro jaIvana kI khanaI ka yah AQyaaya Ktma hao jaaegaa. jaadU BarI prI kqaaAaoM jaOsaI p`oma khanaI ka Ant. caahtI qaI ik [sa saaoca kao mana maoM na Aanao dUM laoikna ifr BaI QaueM kI trh saaoca mana maoM Ca ga[-. ek baar kar maoM ek p`oma gaIt ko saaqa gaunagaunaato hue mammaI nao kha qaa “mauJao lagata hO p`oma khainayaaoM ko naayak isaf- khainayaaoM maoM yaa gaItaoM maoM basato hO ]nhoM vahaM sao inakala kr jaIvana maoM nahIM laayaa jaa sakta hO.” @yaa sacamauca p`oma khanaI ko naayak isaf- ek laoKk kI klpnaamaa~ hOM? 5 eosaI baat nahIM ik maOM yaUM hI AaMKo maUMdo [sa p`oma khanaI maoM jaI rhI qaI. Apnao kao jaIvana kI saccaa[yaaoM ko p`it kafI sajaga samaJatI qaI.Baart ko iksaI CaoTo sao gaaMva kI AlhD, Abalaa nahIM qaI maOM -AmarIka maoM plaI Aaja kI svatM~ naarI qaI! maOMnao, kBaI BaI Kud kao, isanD/olaa kI trh, ek ip`Msa caarimaMga kao pakr, prI kqaa jaOsaa jaIvana jaInao kI klpnaa krnao nahIM idyaa qaa. jaIvana maoM ]tar caZ,ava haoto hO - [sa saccaa[- sao pUrI trh vaaikf, qaI maOM. rajana kao kBaI maOMnao isanD/olaa ko ip`Msa caarimaMga ko $p maoM nahIM doKa qaa yaa yaUM khnaa caaihe isa-f ip`Msa caarimaMga ko $p maoM hI nahIM doKa qaa. ]sakI kmaja,aoiryaaoM kao jaanatI qaI maOM. ek baar mammaI nao kha qaa “p`oma kI Baavaukta maoM bah kr Aksar hma Apnao ‘]sa’ kao ek }Mcao sqaana pr rK doto hOM ik kBaI kBaI Kud ka haqa BaI vahaM nahIM phuMcata.” [sailae rajana kao maOMnao isaf-, ‘rajana’ ko $p maoM hI doKa qaa ]saI $p maoM ]sao Pyaar ikyaa qaa. iktnao saalaaoM sao isaf- ]saI sao Pyaar krtI Aa[- qaI tba sao jaba sao AaMzvaIM maoM pZ,tI qaI. yaad hO jaba mammaI kao batayaa qaa ik maora Pyaar - maora jaIvanasaaqaI rajana hI haogaa tao mammaI nao mauskurato hue pUCa qaa “kOsao jaanatI hao yah?” “basa jaanatI hUM.” ifr baMahrvaI maoM qaI AaOr kalaoja jaanao kI tOyaarI maoM qaI - maOMnao vahI baat daohra[- qaI tao mammaI na tao [sao maja,ak samaJa kr mauska[- qaI AaOr na hI sa#tI sao [sao nakar rhI qaI. basa [tnaa ja,$r kha qaa “pr tUnao tao kBaI iksaI AaOr laD,ko sao daostI BaI nahIM kI hO.” “kI kOsao nahIM, [tnao saaro laD,ko daost hOM maoro!” “vah Alaga baat hO. vao saba isaf- daost hOM ]namao sao iksaI kao kBaI pit yaa p`omaI ko $p maoM tao nahIM doKa hO tUnao.” 6 “doKnao kI ja,$rt nahIM hO mammaI, isaf- rajana hI tao hao sakta hO ]sa $p maoM maoro ilae.” “AaOr Agar baad maoM tumhoM Afsaaosa huAa ik tumanao iksaI dUsaro kao doKa tk nahIM tao..........” “nahIM haogaa. @yaaoMik iksaI dUsaro kao na doKnao ka fOsalaa maora Apnaa hO, samaaja yaa Aap laaogaaoM ka qaaopa huAa nahIM hO.” “tU khtI hO tao zIk hO, maO vaOsao kao[- inaraSaavaadI tao hUM nahIM jaao p`oma khainayaaoM kI samBaavanaa pr ivaSvaasa na k$M. AaiKr raoimayaao yaa majanaU khIM tao [nsaana ko $p maoM ijae haoMgao.” mammaI nao yahaM vahaM ko maSahUr po`imayaaoM ko naama iganaae. “laoikna.....” mammaI Aagao kuC AaOr baaolaI nahIM. pta nahI @yaa iJaJak Aa[- qaI ]nako mana maoM, pr maorI dRZ,ta ko saamanao kuC kh na pa[- qaI. Aaja samaJaI hUM @yaa qaI ]nakI AaSaa tba. mauJao [sa baat ka tba pta calaa qaa ijasa idna mammaI papa maoro [sa ApaT-maOMT maoM Aae qao AaOr tba yah spYT hao cauka qaa ik iksaI BaI trh rajana AaOr maoro sambanQa kao bacaayaa nahIM jaa sakta AaOr papa kh rho qao mammaI kao hma saba ko saamanao, “kao[- baat nahIM, ABaI iSalpa kI ]mar hI @yaa hO!” mammaI nao QaImaI Aavaaja, mao kha qaa, “saaocatI qaI - p`oma khainayaaM saccaI hao saktI hO.” “rajana nao eosaa ikyaa, [sa ka matlaba yao tao nahIM saBaI laD,ko eosao haoto hO.” papa baaolao. “laoikna.....” Saayad mammaI saaoca rhI qaI ik AaiKr raoimayaao yaa majanaU khIM BaI [nsaana ko $p maoM nahIM ijae haoMgao basa khainayaaoM maoM .......AaOr maOM saaoca rhI qaI rajana 7 iksaI p`oma khanaI ka naayak tao hao sakta hO yah baat AaOr hO ik vah maorI p`oma khanaI nahIM qaI. naoha maoro ApaT-maOMT maoM KD,I qaI. “kuC AaOr?” “nahIM” “tU zIk hO na?” “haM...!” AaOr hma daonaaoM ‘zIk’ Sabd kI pirBaaYaa jaanatI qaIM. basa TUT kr ibaK$MgaI nahIM, yahI qaa - zIk haonaa. “tao maOM calatI hUM......” naoha drvaaja,o kI Aaor cala dI, ifr mauD,I AaOr mauJao galao lagaa kr baaolaI, “tU kho tao $k jaatI hUM yaa ifr cala iDnar ko ilae.....?” “nahIM maOM zIk hUM .... saca.” “AcCa - mauJao f,aona krnaa Agar......” “k$MgaI.” AaOr ‘qaOMk yaU’ Sabd galao maoM Aa kr ATk gae. @yaa [sa saba ko ilae maOM ‘qaOMk yaU’ kh sakUMgaI? basa, ibanaa kuC kho maOMnao caupcaap ]sakao BaIMcato hue ]sakI pIz qapqapa dI. naoha ko jaato hI mauJao ek cauPpI ka Ahsaasa huAa. kmaro maoM, kuC isamaTo kuC ibaKro saamaana ko baIca KD,o hue - KalaIpna ko Ahsaasa nao dbaaoca ilayaa. AaOr saaqa hI ek Sabd ma@KI kI trh iBanaiBanaata huAa saamanao Aa KD,a huAa ‘Aba?’ AaOr [sa ‘Aba?’ ko javaaba maoM qaI basa ek inaZalata. 8 jaI caaha ek baar ja,aor sao rao dUM. vao AaMsaU jaao maOMnao DaolaI ko va@t nahIM bahae qao yah kh kr “maOM kao[- dUsaro doSa tao nahIM jaa rhI hUM basa iksaI BaI vaIkOD pr tao imala sakto hOM hma,” Aaja AaMKaoM mao Bar Bar Aa rhoM hOM basa bah hI nahIM rho qao. iktnaa Alaga qaa yah samaya ]sa samaya sao ijasa idna maOM dulhna banaI qaI! ]sa idna SaadI kI QaUma maoM mauJao Apnao Antr kI Aavaaja, BaI nahIM sauna rhI qaI AaOr Aaja baahr ja,ra BaI Aavaaja, nahIM qaI laoikna maora Antr Bara huAa qaa Aavaaja,aoM sao - maoro TUTto hue sapnaaoM kI Aavaaja,aoM sao. duinayaa ko kao[- BaI rItI irvaaja [sa baat kI ja,maanat tao nahIM do sakto ik SaadI saf,la hI haogaI. ifr saflata kI pirBaaYaa krnaa [tnaa Aasaana hO @yaa! idllaI maoM jaba hma saba SaadI ko saamaana kI KrIdarI kr rho qao tao naanaI mammaI sao kh rhI qaI “saMgaIt kI rsama paMca sauhaga gaa kr Sau$ krnaa.” “sauhaga @yaa haota hO?” maOMnao pUCa qaa AaOr naanaI nao samaJaayaa, “laD,kI vaalao saMgaIt maoM sauhaga gaato hO AaOr laD,ko vaalao GaaoD,I.” baad maoM saMgaIt ko laaok gaItaoM kI ek iktaba Cpa[- ga[- qaI AaOr ]na gaItaoM ko Sabdao sao jaanaa @yaa hO [na gaItaoM maoM. laD,kI DaolaI caZ,tI hO AaOr laD,ka GaaoD,I caZ,ta hO. laD,kI vaalaao ko gaItao maoM baoTI ko ilae iSaxaa hO, ]sa sao Alaga haonao kI pID,a hO AaOr ]sa ka haqa ek kaibala laD,ko ko haqa maoM donao kI ijammaovaarI hO, saaqa maoM laD,kI kI ApnaI [cCaeM hO ijanho vah ek pit maoM panaa caahtI hO AaOr ]na mao sao ek sauhaga gaIt jaao mammaI kao bahut psand qaa eosaa qaa ijasamaoM baoTI khtI hO Apnao ipta sao ik maoro ilae eosaa var ZUMZnaa “jaOsao saIta ko rama, jaOsao raQaa ko Syaama.” @yaaoMik baoTI ko var ZUMZnao ka baID,a ipta ka haota hO Saayad yahI karNa qaa ik papa Kud kao daoYaI mahsaUsa kr 9 rho qao. mammaI nao batayaa qaa ik ek idna baaqa$ma ko Tba ko iknaaro baOzo, Apnao caohro kao haqaaoM maoM qaamao baccaaoM kI trh ibalaKto hue kh rho qao, “@yaaoM haonao dI yah SaadI maOMnao.......” naanaI nao paMca sauhaga ik ihdayat dI qaI tao SaadI kI saubah Gar pr mauJao caUZ,a phnaato samaya dadI nao kha qaa “saat sauhaganaaoM sao CuAa kr phnaaAao caUZ,a [sao.” ]sa sao phlaI rat kao maMhdI ko maaOko pr maOMnao fOsalaa ikyaa qaa ik maOM bahut sajaUMgaI nahIM AaOr na hI bahut baiZ,yaa kpD,o phnaUMgaI. “Aaja ko idna tao dulhna maaM[yaaM baOztI hO.” maOMnao saunaI saunaa[- baat daohra[- qaI. naoha nao pUCa “yah ‘maaM[yaaM’ @yaa haota hO”, tao dadI nao batayaa ik SaadI sao phlao dulhna sajatI nahIM, na hI AcCo kpD,o phnatI hO, [sa sao SaadI vaalao idna ]sa pr bahut $p caZ,ta hO. naoha hMsa kr baaolaI qaI “tba tao hmaoM BaI nahIM sajanaa caaihe.” AaOr dadI nao kha qaa “Aro nahIM... yah p`qaa tao isaf- dulhna ko ilae hO.” calato ifrto basa yahI saunanao maoM Aa rha qaa kaOna kaOna sao Sagauna pUro krnao hOM. Aaja laga rha qaa ik ]sa idna maOM basa ek ‘p`qaa’ bana kr rh ga[qaI. paMca sauhaga, saat sauhaganaoM, caUD,a phnanao kI rsma, ]baTna malanao kI rsma AaOr BaI na jaanao @yaa @yaa.... AaOr ]na saba ko baIca maOM ek AajaayabaGar ka namaUnaa ....! pr kuC kha nahIM qaa maOMnao. rsmaaoM kao inaBaanao pr iSakayat nahIM qaI pr [tnao Zor saaro laaogaaoM ko saamanao.......? Aaja ma@KI kI trh iBanaiBanaata huAa ‘Aba’ ek savaala ka javaaba maaMga rha qaa ik @yaa sacamauca hr rsma ka pUra haonaa, hr maM~ kao daohranaa, ivaQnaaoM kao hTanao 10 vaalao gaNaoYa Bagavaana kI pUjaa sao SaadI Sau$ krnaa, [sa baat kI ja,maanat qaI ik paMca saaO maohmaana AaOr Anaiganat dovaI dovata [sa SaadI kao Apnaa Apnaa AaSaI-vaad do rho qao [sailae yah SaadI Aba janma janmaatraoM kI SaadI haogaI? janma janmaatraoM kI tao CaoD,ao, kma sao kma [sa ek janma tk tao......... mana caah rha qaa iksaI trh ibalaK ibalaK kr rao dUM laoikna AaMsaU tao jaOsao jama gae qao maorI CatI maoM ]sa idna ka jaao raonaa baahr nahIM inaklaa maoro Antr maoM jaakr khIM baOz gayaa. rajana ko saaqa baIto hue maoro hI jaIvana ko ]na saba plaaoM ko saaqa, ek saIlana kI trh. sauna tao rKa hI hO, jaanatI AaOr samaJatI BaI hUM samaya ko saaqa saaqa maOM yah hadsaa BaUla jaa}MgaI. ek trh sao lagata tao hO ik maorI [sa p`oma khanaI ka Ant hao cauka hO laoikna iktnaa AQaUra hO yah Ant! ijasa idna rahula rajana ko saba iDbbao ]za lao gayaa qaa ]sa idna mauJao lagaa qaa ABaI BaI kuC baakI hO jaao mauJao laaOTanaa hO. rajana ko saaqa baIto hue, maoro hI jaIvana ko vao saba pla, jaao ek saIlana kI trh maoro Antr maoM jaa basao hOM - iksaI trh mauJao ek eosaa kaD-baao-D ka iDbbaa ZUMZnaa hO ijasa maoM maOM ]na saba kao Dala kr, ‘rajana’ ka naama ilaK kr, rajana kao laaOTa sakUM. tba tk yah AQaUra Ant ek QauAaM banakr maorI CatI maoM basaa rhogaa. 11